Su Hua's mind became heavy.
I had a gut feeling that something big had happened to Gu Beixian.
It was so big that even Gu Aoting was nervous.
Su Hua nodded slightly towards him, "No matter what happens to Beixian, I will never divorce him. Six years ago, when I married him, he was in a wheelchair, his life was slim, and he had no hope. The worst Nothing more than that.”
"That's different. Six years ago, your family was impoverished. Now you are the daughter of the Lu family. You are famous, rich and have a good background. There are many people to choose from."
"Your worries are unnecessary. We young people are different from you. We don't pay as much attention to background and family background as you do, and we are not as realistic as you."
In normal times, Gu Aoting wouldn't like to hear this.
But now, to his ears, it was like the sound of nature.
He bent his eyes and said hello three times, "You are such a good boy. My old lady saw the right person. Go find Beixian. That boy must have been thinking about you."
Su Hua's heart ached when she heard her ordinary words.
She hurried out and went downstairs.
Get on the bus and say to the driver: "Go to Suhewan."
Along the way, she thought about many possibilities.
But Gu Beixian disguised himself so well that she couldn't guess it.
Arrive at Suhe Bay.
The scenery here is beautiful, the environment is quiet, and it is far away from the downtown area.
There were very few people in the entire villa area, and Su Hua didn't see a few people along the way.
Find the sixth building where Gu Beixian lives.
Su Hua said to the bodyguard guarding the gate, "I'm looking for Gu Beixian."
The bodyguard knew her and opened the door to let her in.
Su Hua walked through the courtyard and walked to the building.
The door was not closed tightly, and there was a crack.
Su Hua gently opened the door and walked in.
He saw Gu Beixian standing in front of the French window, facing the window.
The long and tall back is straight, lonely and cold, like a cedar tree that has been silent for thousands of years on the top of a mountain.
Su Hua held her breath and shouted: "Beixian."
Gu Beixian froze for a moment, then quickly turned around, a hint of surprise flashed in his eyes. He wanted to smile, but his smile was very forced.
Today's smile, for him, is just an expression, not a mood.
Su Huazhu didn't move there.
Gu Beixian felt strange.
There is a very cold feeling about him. It was cold before, but there was smoke and fire. Now he is like a giant Buddha who has no desires and desires and does not eat the fireworks of the world.
He is obviously smiling, but his eyes are cold
Su Hua was flustered and felt something was wrong with him.
Gu Beixian walked towards her, "Why are you here?"
Su Hua looked at him with wet eyes, "Why did you lie to me that you were on a business trip?"
Gu Beixian pursed his lips and said nothing.
Su Hua stepped forward and hugged his waist, "What happened?"
"Lao Gu didn't tell you?"
"I didn't ask, I wanted to hear you say it yourself."
Gu Beixian didn't say anything, he just raised his hand to touch her beautiful long hair, his eyes were deep and silent.
The slender and beautiful fingers were trembling slightly, which was a side effect of taking the medicine.
Suhua stood on tiptoes to kiss him.
Gu Beixian lowered his head, closed his eyes, and welcomed her kiss.
It was a kiss, but Suhua felt that there was something wrong with the kiss.
His lips were cold, and the kiss was a bit perfunctory and emotionless.
Su Hua felt a little uncomfortable, "Do you not love me anymore?"
Gu Beixian raised the corners of his lips and made a smile, "No."
"But the feeling you give me is not quite right."
Gu Beixian leaned over, resting his chin on the top of her head, and said calmly: "No matter what I become, you must remember that I love you, very much."
But the hot love was sealed by drugs.
All emotions are suppressed, and people become colder and slower than usual.
Laughter is fake, love cannot be passionate.
If you don't take medication, your mood will fluctuate, either manic or depressed, wandering between heaven and hell.
Seeing that he refused to say anything, Su Hua pulled out of his arms.
Walking around the living room, rummaging around.
Finally, I found a pile of pill boxes in the cupboard next to the water dispenser, including lithium carbonate, risperidone, lamotrigine, sodium valproate, etc.
She picked up a pill box, opened it, and read the instructions.
It says in black and white that this drug is suitable for acute and chronic schizophrenia...
The words behind it become blurred.
Su Hua's hand holding the instruction manual was shaking.
Sometimes, things are so big and unexpected that people have no time to react.
Su Hua's mind went blank.
I don't know how much time passed, but Gu Beixian's voice came from behind, "I'm sorry for hiding it from you. I originally wanted to wait for a while and then tell you the truth."
Su Hua felt like she was being woken up from a dream, her heart was beating hard and she felt a sharp pain.
"What kind of sickness is this?"
"Bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression, is medically known as bipolar disorder, with alternating episodes of mania and depression."
Su Hua's heart was filled with cold snow.
Cold from top to bottom.
A drowning-like feeling spread throughout my body, making me breathless.
She clearly remembered that when she was in college, she had a roommate who suffered from this disease over and over again, and finally committed suicide.
There are also Van Gogh, Hemingway, Haizi, Sanmao, etc., without exception, all committed suicide.
Bipolar disorder, known as the "genius disease", has the highest suicide rate.
She suddenly turned around and grabbed Gu Beixian's hand, holding it tightly.
It hurts to hold my own hands.
It was as if he would disappear if he let go of his hand.
"Why is this happening?" Su Hua's teeth were trembling, and the rattling sound could be clearly heard.
Gu Beixian touched her delicate face gently, "Don't be afraid, it's not as serious as you think. I had it when I was four years old, and I was treated for two years. Then I stopped taking the medicine, and there has been no recurrence. I'm just like normal people."
"Is it because I relapsed this time?"
"It's not just that, it's a root cause, and it's easy to relapse if it's stimulated. I don't blame you."
Su Hua buried her head in his arms, her shoulders shaking slightly.
I felt terribly guilty.
Sad and heartbroken.
Gu Beixian raised his arms to wrap her in his arms, "Don't be afraid. You see, nothing is wrong with me now. I am very calm. I just need to cooperate with the doctor to take medicine, undergo psychological treatment, and have a good rest. When the condition stabilizes, I will You can slowly reduce the dose and finally stop taking it, and you’ll be fine.”
Su Hua restrained her emotions, raised her head, and smiled sweetly at him, "It will be fine. Our Brother Xian is so powerful that there is nothing you can do about the disease."
Gu Beixian smiled and said, "The little mouth is getting sweeter and sweeter."
Su Yanran said, "I am not only sweet, but also glowing. From now on, I will be your little sun."
Gu Beixian raised the corners of his lips and deepened his smile, "I said you were fat and you started breathing."
Su Hua said a little domineeringly: "Not only am I panting, but I'm also sticky. From now on, I will stick to you inseparably. Don't think I'm annoying."
Normally, Gu Beixian's heart would be warmed by her.
But now he is emotionally dull and can only make a moved expression.
He pressed her into his arms and said in a deep voice: "My behavior may gradually become weird, my mood will be erratic, and anything may happen. If you can't stand it and want to leave, tell me in advance and don't He left without saying a word."
Su Hua curled her lips and smiled, "Who do you think I am? Am I the kind of ruthless and unjust person?"
But my heart was sour.
Tears suddenly came to my eyes.
Afraid of being seen by him, she buried her face in his arms and wiped her tears on his clothes.
I called Shen Yuan to explain.
Su Hua stayed with Gu Beixian.
Whether he was eating or sleeping, she was always with him.
Because of the medication, he was surprisingly quiet and calm.
He is not as peaceful as a young man in his twenties, who is emotionless and emotionless.
Su Hua felt heartbroken.
This is not as good as when I was in a wheelchair. Even though I lost my temper, I was still flesh and blood.
night.
After the two washed up, they lay on the bed.
Gu Beixian took the medicine and fell asleep quickly.
But Su Hua couldn't sleep.
She turned off the light and lay in the dark, staring at the ceiling in a daze.
I do not know how long it has been.
Suddenly there were very light footsteps outside the door, "Dong dong dong."
The footsteps are getting closer.
"Click."
The door opens from the outside.
There were no lights in the corridor, it was pitch dark, and it was difficult to see the face of the person coming.
Su Hua opened the quilt and jumped up.
He grabbed the glass bottle on the bedside table and rushed towards the person.
The bottle contains itching powder that can make life worse than death.
Before she could reach him, there was a sudden chill on her neck.
Then a thin sharp blade touched her neck.
The visitor asked in a low voice: "Who are you?"
It's Qin Ye.
Su Hua quickly retracted her hand that was holding the tickle powder, "It's me, brother, Su Hua."
