They had been married for several years, and he had never taken a concubine or had a sexual relationship. Of course she didn't want someone to suddenly appear beside him!
If he really couldn't let go of something from the beginning... Yanyang pursed her lips, feeling filled with worries and not knowing what she should do if that were the case.
Yan Yang couldn't think clearly for the moment, so she just looked at him and stood there, waiting for him to approach.
But he didn't want to, and the two of them had no chance to talk after that. Just after he left the Lu Mansion, he was suddenly called away. It was His Majesty's guards in the palace who came in person, saying that His Majesty had asked him to come into the palace and had something to say.
Then she didn't see anyone else the whole night.
At first she frowned and waited, not saying clearly that it was difficult for her to fall asleep, but then she became too sleepy after waiting, so she had to go to sleep first.
I thought there was still one day left tomorrow, so we would talk about it tomorrow.
She had a dream that night that made her feel uncomfortable. She actually dreamed that he already had someone to serve him where he was. Later, she also dreamed that he and Du Xueruo were walking and chatting happily. Then the scene changed, and again Seeing her children holding her and crying aggrievedly, her forehead was swollen from crying.
It happened that at this time, Grandma had gone, and the maids were nowhere to be seen. She was the only one who was busy coaxing her. She felt distressed and anxious, and had a headache. She kept coaxing Ji'an and Shaoshu not to cry, but The more she comforted the two of them, the harder she cried, and her throat seemed to burst from crying.
Her head hurt from crying.
But if you have a headache, you have to be patient and continue to soothe it.
But no matter how she coaxed or patted them, neither of them could be comforted, and she gradually became a little bored from crying. Looking around, she saw that she was still the only one in the room. The servants did not come back, and her mother-in-law did not hear any sound. Come here! I couldn't help but feel angry.
This anger was not only directed at the maids who had gone somewhere, but also towards Qi Changyan.
She didn't know what the situation was like now, and she didn't know why all the maids around her suddenly disappeared.
But whatever the case may be, at least! As the father of his children, Qi Changyan just let them cry and saw that she was helpless and didn't interfere at all?
He is also the father of the children! He wouldn't help coax her or give her a helping hand!
Just to see her miserable here alone?
Yanyang was angry with him.
And as the cries of the children grew louder in his ears, I was so angry that I wanted to scold him twice.
Yan Yang was still angry.
When I woke up, I felt chest tightness and nausea. In addition, my eyelids felt dry and my head felt a little heavy, as if I was ill.
She held her forehead in discomfort and couldn't help but call out "Mommy." But this sound was drowned out by other sounds, the crying, the crying of children, they were crying so hard that they even whimpered from time to time.
Yanyang: "..."
His mind was swollen by the children's cries, and then he held his forehead and frowned again. I thought Ji'an and Shaoshu were really crying? She thought it was just a dream.
He tightened his eyelids and opened his eyes uncomfortably to look over.
She opened her eyes very slowly, because they were a little sore for some reason, and her eyelids seemed a little heavy, which made her uncomfortable for a while.
When she opened her eyes, she saw a pair of children, one tall and one short, lying not far from the edge of her couch. Both of them had red eyes and red noses, and their faces were wet from crying.
Yanyang had a headache and almost closed her eyes again. When she closed her eyes, she glanced at the clothes she was wearing, which seemed to be mourning clothes.
There was a moment of shock, but then the surprise was interrupted by the cries of the children.
"Wuwu——Aniang——"
There were two raised voices in the ears, and two warm little fleshy hands rushed towards and grabbed the hands. The children cried even harder, and Yanyang didn't have the energy to distract herself in the noise for a while. .
Ji'an and Shaoshu both burst into tears.
The two cried until they almost hiccupped, and after a while, their eyes were completely obscured by tears. They took the time to make fists and wipe their eyes. Then, as if they were scared, they put their faces next to Yan Yang's hand and made little milky sounds. Shouting: "Mom, I won't sleep."
Ji'an doesn't want his mother to sleep.
He is already older, he is seven years old. Compared with his sister's ignorance, in the past few months, he has understood what life and death mean.
At the beginning of June, the royal grandmother in the palace left.
At first, he didn't know what it meant. Later, he knelt down and kowtowed to the imperial mausoleum several times, and then he realized that leaving meant that he would never see the great-grandmother of the emperor again.
Grandma Huang Tai passed away.
After that, he wore plain clothes for a month. Not only him, but his sister also wore it, his sister Cang, brother Jun and others all wore it, as well as his mother-in-law, father, grandfather and grandmother. They also wore it. White for a long time.
A month later, after these white things were gone, he and his sisters went to the imperial mausoleum with his mother-in-law and grandparents to express their condolences to the emperor's grandmother.
The death of Grandma Huang was the first funeral that Ji An remembered, and it was also the funeral that shocked him the most. He still remembers the people who knelt on the ground that night, and the endless stream of spiritual flags on the day of the burial. .
After that time, he climbed up on the stool to find some books and read the funerals by himself.
It took him a long time to finish reading it, and he went back to the fortress in a daze after finishing it, but not long after, he experienced another funeral.
But this time he didn't get too involved. One afternoon in July, he was suddenly led by his mother-in-law and hurried to his grandfather's house. His mother-in-law took him and his sister to the bedside and looked at his grandfather. Soon after, he I heard grandma crying, and everyone in the room was crying.
Then he was taken back home by Grandma Li. Only he and his sister went home, but grandma didn't come back.
After that, he could hardly see his grandma. He and his sister missed her so much that they shouted several times to go back to his grandfather's house to find her, but his grandmother told them to go back in a few days. She said they would see her in a few days. .
He couldn't wait, but no matter how much he made trouble, his grandmother and grandfather would just shake their heads and just coax him and his sister, saying over and over again that they would be able to see her in a few days, just in a few days.
But they lied. It had been two or three days and he hadn't seen his mother come back. He cried several times with red eyes.
On the fifth day, he finally saw his mother-in-law.
Aniang looked a little sad, smiled at him and took him and his sister back to her grandfather's house. Grandma said that the grandpa would be buried today and asked him and his sister to kowtow to him.
That day, he stayed at his grandfather's house all day and watched the coffin being buried in person. He finally understood that his grandfather was gone and he would never see him again.
That night, he and his sister were sent home again, but Aniang still didn't come back.
He didn't want to leave, so he hugged his mother's legs and cried.
But Aniang touched his head and told him to go back first, and she would go back when the grandfather was over.
Ji'an raised his head and said, "Then I will wait until Grandpa is over the first seven days before returning."
Grandma shook her head and asked Nanny Li to carry him and his sister into the carriage.
Then he couldn't see his grandma again.
Moreover, Aniang also lied to him. He counted the days and found that Grandpa’s first seven days were over and Aniang did not return. Aniang did not return until the end of July.
He whispered this to his mother-in-law, who touched his head and said sorry.
After that, Aniang seemed to be too tired, so she lay down first.
He and his sister hadn't seen their mother-in-law for a long time, and she couldn't bear to leave even after she went to bed, so she stayed in the house to play.
When A Niang woke up in the evening, he happily gathered around her and chatted about what he had learned these days.
Grandma smiled and praised him.
The next morning, he got up early in the morning and was not in a hurry to go to school. He put on his shoes and ran to his grandma's house. But grandma was so lazy that he had already gotten up before she got up.
He knelt down and took off his shoes, climbed onto the bed with a smile, and asked his mother to get up. But he called her several times and she didn't wake up. He even pulled her arm, but she didn't wake up either.
He tilted his head.
At this time, Nanny Li happened to come in and saw him sitting with his legs crossed next to his mother-in-law. She smiled and asked him to get off the ground, "Madam has been tired these past few days. Brother An will come down first and let Madam rest more."
Ji'an didn't move. He pointed at grandma and looked up at Aunt Li, "Mommy, I can't wake you up. I screamed several times."
Huh? Yeah? When Grandma Li heard the sound, she glanced at Madam.
But she didn't notice anything was wrong at this time, she just smiled and whispered: "Maybe Madam is really too tired, Brother An, can you please let Madam sleep again?"
"Okay." Ji'an sighed and climbed down on the bed with his butt sticking out.
At noon, after he came out of the school at home, he ran directly to his grandmother's house with his book bag on his back.
But as soon as he entered, he heard crying, his sister's crying.
Then he also cried because his sister told him that grandma was sick and never got up, and grandma even called the doctor.
Ji'an pursed his lips and his eyes turned red.
He quickly ran to A-Niang's bed and looked at her eagerly.
In the afternoon, he didn't want to go to school, so he just stayed by his mother's bed. But he kept watching, but Aniang never woke up.
Ji'an suddenly thought of the grandpa who had just left, and the grandma who had left the palace. He didn't know why the great-grandfather died, but he knew how the great-grandmother died, because when everyone mentioned the death of the great-grandmother, they said it was a happy funeral.
Because Grandma Huang was free from illness and disaster, she slept and left without any pain.
Ji An was so frightened that he cried.
The cry suddenly increased, and she threw herself at Yan Yang's hand, "Mom, please don't die——"
This voice was so loud that Shaoshu was so frightened that he burst into tears and started shouting pitifully.
Aunt Li: "..."
She was startled and quickly calmed her down, explaining that she was unconscious because of exhaustion. The doctor said she would wake up after she had rested.
Ji'an didn't believe it.
Because grandma and grandma had lied to him several times in the past few days. They said many times that grandma would be coming back from my grandfather's house soon, but it turned out that grandma only came back yesterday afternoon.
His eyes were red, and he was holding Yan Yang's hand with tears streaming down his face.
At this time, Yanyang finally opened his eyes in the night. He couldn't hold back his tears after burping, but he saw that Aniang had closed her eyes again.
Ji'an was so frightened that he kept pulling Yanyang's hand and cried, "Auntie, I won't sleep until I sleep."
When Yanyang heard the cries, her head felt like someone was hitting her with a hammer. Then, I heard Ji'an and Shaoshu continue to cry. I was afraid that something would happen to them because of their crying, so I could only cheer up and open my eyes again to comfort them.
Ji'an was comforted for a few words, and after sobbing for a while, he crawled to Yanyang and asked, "Aniang, are you okay?"
As he spoke, he rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand.
Shaoshu also came over and got into Yanyang's arms in a small ball.
"Auntie, you haven't woken up yet," she said in a milky voice.
Yan Yang hummed, touched their foreheads, and forced a smile while suppressing the discomfort in his heart, "Well, it's okay."
Ji'an finally felt relieved, and then he followed Shao Shu and curled up in her arms.
Yanyang patted the two of them.
Patting and patting, the children fell asleep.
She looked at their swollen eyes and their faces that were red from crying, and felt heartbroken.
He touched them gently, and then waited for a while until the two of them fell asleep, and then asked grandma to take them back to the room.
It was only then that I took the time to rub my forehead and pat my heart away from the feeling of a big stone pressing down on my heart.
Her heart and throat were clogged, and she even frowned and closed her eyes again.
You can only feel better if you close your eyes.
Just then I closed my eyes and heard the worried nanny next to me, "Are you feeling uncomfortable again?"
Yanyang didn't hide it, frowned and nodded.
Grandma Li sighed, "You must have been feeling unwell a few days ago. You shouldn't have forced yourself on this. You should have told me earlier."
"Today, the young master and young lady were frightened. They were afraid that something would happen to you."
Yanyang didn't feel uncomfortable in the past few days, and she didn't even feel uncomfortable yesterday.
Of course, except for those uncertain things about Qi Changyan and Du Xueruo that made her feel a little worried...but these wouldn't suddenly make her feel so depressed.
She rubbed her eyebrows and wanted to say that it was not a big deal and she didn't need to worry too much.
But at this time, I heard Nanny Li say again: "The doctor said that you have been too sad these days, and that's why you suddenly fell ill overnight."
"I know you still can't accept that the old lady left like this, but you are pregnant now. The doctor just said that your pregnancy is a bit unstable now. You must put your health first."
"..." Yanyang's head was empty because of these words from Grandma Li.
She opened her eyes instantly and stared at her blankly.
what did she say? Grandfather is dead?
But why did grandfather die suddenly? ! She obviously went back home a few days ago, and the old man was talking and laughing very well!
Staring at her closely, he jumped up and grabbed her hand.
Grandma Li was startled.
I even couldn't help but pat my chest, God, why did the madam suddenly move so much, and the doctor said she needed to take a good rest!
He quickly supported her and said, "Madam, you have two bodies now. Don't get pregnant."
Yanyang held her hand tighter and just stared at her.
"Grandpa is dead?" This voice sounded stunned.
Seeing her like this, Grandma Li thought that she still couldn't stand the fact that the old man in the house was gone.
I sighed inwardly.
"Um."
"Don't be sad. You saw that the old man was smiling when he left."
It was said that the empress dowager in the palace was in mourning, but she saw that the old man in the family was not bad at all. There was no pain when the old man left. Everyone he wanted to see was seen, and there was no regret at all.
But after all, the person was just gone, so it was inevitable that the lady would be sad.
It's just that...the current situation really cannot make Madam continue to be sad. She was pregnant, and she was tired from attending funerals a while ago, and now the situation was a little unstable.
Grandma Li patted Madam's back gently, "Think about the child in your belly. The old lady definitely doesn't want anything to happen to his beloved granddaughter because he left."
Yan Yang frowned, frowning very tightly.
She was confused and couldn't accept it. Obviously... her grandfather was still fine a while ago, but her grandma suddenly said that her grandfather was dead.
She also said that her grandfather passed away without any regrets.
She wondered if she was lying to her on purpose? His eyes narrowed, wanting to scold her, how could she curse her grandfather!
But at this moment, from the corner of his eye, he saw what he was wearing.
Yes, they are mourning clothes, serious mourning clothes. When she first woke up and opened her eyes, she actually noticed that she was wearing mourning clothes. At that time, she seemed to be surprised and wondered for a moment whether something happened to Qi Changyan, which was why the children were crying so hard, and the people who were waiting in front of her were so mournful.
But then the two children were crying so much that they had no energy to think deeply. After hearing that the two children were crying, they were just afraid that something would happen to her. They never called Qi Changyan, so they knew that Xu had gone wrong, so he just comforted the two children. , put the matter on hold for now.
Now, I notice the mourning clothes on my body again...
She was wearing mourning clothes, mourning clothes! !
Yanyang's chest sank heavily, her scolding words were muffled in her mouth, and her face suddenly became empty and blank.
I was stunned for an unknown amount of time, but still couldn't accept it. I shook my head and looked at Nanny Li again, wanting her to tell the truth. If she knew that she had lied to her, she would definitely punish her!
But when she raised her eyes, she saw that the arrangement in front of her was completely different from what she had seen last night.
The curtain on her bed turned plain white. Before she went to bed last night, it was still blue. There were also ornaments in the room. The white jade vase was gone. I don’t know when it was replaced by a gold vase. She was covered with it. The bedding was completely different from when she lay down last night.
Yanyang glanced around and even felt that the room was a bit strange.
Then, she felt someone gently patted her back again. Aunt Li was comforting her in a low voice, still telling her not to be sad about her grandfather. In addition, she also said: "The anti-fetal medicine in the kitchen I guess it's done, I'll ask someone to bring it over."
Anti-fetal medicine...
Yanyang raised her eyes.
"Antinatal pills?"
"Yes, yes." Nanny Li nodded, "It's the medicine prescribed by Doctor Xing. As you know, that doctor's anti-fetal medicine is always effective."
Yan Yang frowned, it was really an anti-fetal medicine. Also, is she really pregnant?
In just one night, a child appeared in her belly?
Not to mention that Qi Changyan has not come back in the past six months, and the two of them have not slept together and could not conceive a child. Just considering the past few days when he came back, it is impossible for the two of them to suddenly become pregnant!
In the two days since he came back, the two of them still haven't slept in the same room.
Yanyang's brows furrowed tighter and tighter. In just one night, she felt as if she and Grandma Li had derailed. She and she were living in two different worlds.
She was confused about everything she said. She didn't know how her grandfather died suddenly, and she didn't understand how she could suddenly become pregnant with a child that could be diagnosed by the doctor overnight!
She frowned tightly in thought.
I thought hard, and when I came back to my senses, I saw that Nanny Li already had the medicine in her hand.
She felt that things were even more magical. Could it be that grandma would suddenly fly into the sky and escape? Just now she had myrrh on her hands.
Yanyang's expression was even a little strange.
But fortunately, her next words finally stopped her from thinking that the world was suddenly weird, "You have finally come to your senses. If you continue to frown and be lost in thought, I will even want to call someone and call the doctor to take a look."
Yanyang looked at her, "Have you been out?"
Grandma Li nodded, "Yes, the maid said that the medicine has been delivered, so I went to get it outside the door."
She also sighed, "You were so lost in thought that you didn't notice me walking outside, right?"
Yanyang: "...Yeah."
Aunt Li was worried, so she brought the medicine over and said, "I'd better ask someone to talk to the doctor again and ask him to come back and take a look tomorrow morning. I'm worried about you now."
Yan Yang did not refuse.
Because she wanted to know if she was really pregnant, and... how could she be pregnant.
She glanced at the anti-fetal medicine in Nanny Li's hand and didn't want to drink it. She felt like she was in a dream now, and she was afraid that something would happen if she drank it.
"Mom, leave it there, I'll drink it later."
Grandma Li nodded, "It's good to dry it, it's still hot now."
"Well, you can go out too and I'll lie down alone for a while."
"This..." Grandma Li was worried.
"Get out, nothing will happen to me if I lie down."
"All right."
After Yanyang waited for her to go out, she rubbed her heart, which was even more stuffy and irritable, and lay down to look at everything in the house carefully.
Many of the ornaments have been changed, but the ones she changed are all things she likes at first glance, and she doesn't dislike them at first glance.
After Yan Yang looked around the room, he finally walked to the bookshelf and flipped through a few books. According to her previous arrangement habits, these books will be new books purchased this year.
She glanced at it twice and felt a little strange, because she remembered that she had never asked anyone to buy these books. Where did they come from?
Open the book cover directly, look at the first page, and carefully look at the time written on it. Usually it will say the date of purchase.
When he saw the date clearly, Yan Yang was in a daze, his hand snapped loose, and the book fell to the ground.
It says that this year is already the 19th year, but she clearly remembers that this year is the 18th year.
Yanyang was stunned for a while, then she thought there might be a mistake in writing, so she flipped through a few other new books, but... the years written on them were all nineteen years.
Even later, she specifically looked for the almanac to see the date, and it clearly told her that this year was the nineteenth year and it was the first day of August.
But once I fell asleep, a year had passed when I woke up again...
Yan Yang felt a little scary.
How could it be, how could it be? She shook her head and took two steps back.
She didn't dare to drink the bowl of medicine anymore, and she frowned and called Nanny Li in again. When he called, he also sent all the other maids out and asked them to guard the outer door instead of waiting at the inner bedroom door.
In addition, he also specially ordered the girls close to him to watch.
Aunt Li took the order and came in.
Yanyang had many things to ask her, such as, has it really been a year? How come a year has passed...
But after a few conversations, she didn't ask in the end because she was afraid that grandma wouldn't think she was crazy. Rubbing his forehead in annoyance, he suddenly felt a stomachache, so he lay back on the couch and asked her while sitting, "Has everything been arranged for father Ding You to return home?"
Since her grandfather died, her father had to return to his hometown to observe his filial piety.
Grandma Li: "Well, we are almost ready. We will leave Beijing on the fourth day of August."
The fourth day of the Lunar New Year...just a few days away.
Yan Yang felt even more depressed. When her parents returned this time, they would not return to Beijing until Ding You was over in three years. Then she wouldn't be able to see her family for a long time.
Seeing her expression, Grandma Li knew that Madam must be reluctant to leave her. She also saw that the lady's face was a little pale, and she guessed that she was not feeling well, so she quickly brought the warmed anti-fetal medicine and said, "Drink it first. The doctor said that if you continue to be sad, this pregnancy may not be possible." Save."
Yanyang looked at the medicine and didn't want to drink it.
I always suspected it was poison.
Because it was too unbelievable to her that one year had passed in such a flash. Moreover... Qi Changyan has been staying in the same place for a long time, how could she suddenly become pregnant.
Has he come back?
Yanyang guessed that he had come back, otherwise everyone in the house would not be so calm now that they knew she was pregnant again.
Auntie won't worry about aborting the unstable baby in her womb.
He has been back... Yanyang thought about it and looked at Mammy, seemingly calm, "Mammy, how long has it been since he returned to his place of responsibility?"
Grandma Li thought about the day when her uncle came back last time, she calculated and said, "It's been about forty-seven days."
Yanyang said oh.
That is to say, he did not come back when his grandfather died. Of course, she knew that he had extenuating circumstances. He was not allowed to return to Beijing unless he was summoned to serve in a local position. Without His Majesty's order, he could not leave his post without permission just to attend the funeral for his grandfather.
Similarly, this also means that when the child comes out of her ten-month pregnancy, he will still be in office, and the situation will be exactly the same as when she gave birth to Shaoshu.
Yan Yang couldn't help but think about the situation before her eyes again. She didn't know if she had asked Qi Changyan about that matter in the past year. He still missed Du Xueruoke. She only knew that she was thinking about the situation of this baby now. Then I thought about how he just clapped his hands and didn't have to worry about anything!
Her heart suddenly felt clogged, as if she couldn't breathe. She knew that he didn't know when he would be transferred back to Beijing, but yet she got pregnant again.
I was so angry that I felt so depressed that I couldn't let go of my anger.
With an expressionless face, he couldn't help but say to grandma, "Forty days..."
Hehe said softly, a voice that only the two of them could hear, "But Mommy, the baby in my belly looks to be almost three months old..."
His face became expressionless, "Whose?"
No one’s is his! I muttered a few words in my heart.
Grandma Li’s seven orifices ascended to heaven: “!!”
"Ancestor! If you are angry, don't get angry like this. Who doesn't know that the Second Master was called back in May to visit the Empress Dowager?"
That day, until late at night, the second master still asked her to get water!
Nanny Li covered her wife's mouth and looked at her master who still had an expressionless expression. She was helpless and powerless, and her voice was very low, "I know you are worried about the old man's funeral and my uncle not coming back, but you also You know, the second master can’t help himself..."
Don't be angry.
Yanyang knows.
After I blurted out that sentence, I felt it was inappropriate. I was angry because I was angry. This really shouldn't have been said.
"Um."
Afterwards, seeing that her grandma was worried and seemed to want to warn her earnestly not to say such words again in the future, she nodded, but at this moment, she suddenly heard the sound of the closed door of the inner room creaking, and someone came in.
Yanyang frowned.
She obviously asked her confidants to guard the outermost room, but no girl would dare to come in without her order.
