Lin Wanwan felt as if her heart was being pulled hard by something. Suddenly, an overwhelming sour feeling swept towards her, drowning her like a flood.
She bit her lip tightly and tried her best to calm down. It wasn't until the smell of blood appeared in her mouth that she let go of the break under her lip and silently looked away. In those dim eyes, there was still a look of persistence, perseverance and stubbornness.
"There was another story later, but you had already returned to Dongchen and didn't hear it. Do you want to hear it?"
Su Jingqian closed his eyes sadly, as if he had already understood her inner thoughts. He sighed secretly and asked, "What happened next?"
"Later, the man was not dead. Before the woman drew her sword and stabbed him, she had given him heart-protecting pills and fake-death medicine in order to protect his life. She committed suicide in front of his empty grave. In order to make those noble people think that the man is really dead, and as long as she dies, no one can threaten him in the future, and her family will no longer be manipulated."
As she spoke, water stains appeared in her eyes unconsciously. She blinked hard, trying to drive them back into her eyes. Her voice became hoarse, "After this man woke up, he lost his memory and did what he did in the world." An ordinary man married a wife and had children until his death. Finally, when he was dying, he came to a deserted grave. He smiled and stroked the tombstone whose writing could no longer be seen clearly, and murmured the woman's name. He said: 'I have lived the life you wished for in exchange for your life, so in the next life, I will protect you.'"
"He...hasn't lost his memory?" Su Jingqian turned around and looked at Lin Wanwan's profile, only to see her slightly raising her head, exactly the same as that night in the woods outside Nanling City, with a sad but stubborn expression.
His eyes flickered, and his eyes were as deep as a cold pool, and there seemed to be layers of ink waves, surging out strands of emotion, which seemed complex and subtle, making it difficult to understand what was in his heart.
She slowly calmed down, and a faint smile appeared on her lips. She turned to look at him, her eyes were sad but showed perseverance, and her eyes were sad but showed persistence, "He has never lost his memory. This I have always remembered that woman throughout my life, and have never forgotten her for a moment. He pretended to have amnesia, but he just wanted to fulfill her last wish and cherish the stability she had bought with her life."
"What a sad story." Su Jingqian's eyes flashed with sadness, but there was a faint smile on his lips.
Lin Wanwan's eyes suddenly sharpened. She stared at him closely, not missing the slightest expression change on his face, as if she wanted to see through the hidden emotions in his heart. "You say, if that woman had been braver, , tell the man everything frankly, and work together to find a way to save her family, then will the story have another ending? Did the woman have any regrets at the last moment of her life? "
Su Jingqian looked at her calmly, without any intention of evading. His eyes were a little dark, and he couldn't see the emotions floating in them clearly, but his figure showed an unshakable determination. He said: "Perhaps, but I think she should have no regrets when she met that person. Life is short, and it is not easy to meet someone who knows and loves each other. Mostly, she only has regrets."
"What about you? Have you ever regretted the choices you made back then?"
Under the bright moon and gentle breeze, her eyes seemed to ignite the sparks in the night sky, shining brightly, containing a kind of hopeless expectation, but also revealing the indomitable persistence and stubbornness.
"Lin Wanwan, must you know?" He closed his eyes gently, his voice was low and hoarse, and emotions were trembling between his slightly frowned brows, as if he was trying his best to hold back something.
Lin Wanwan tightened her fingers into fists and was about to speak when she heard his voice coming from afar, "Never."
Just two words, the regret has been sealed.
A few words can erode the bones and pierce the heart.
After hearing this answer, Lin Wanwan smiled with understanding. Her watery eyes shone brightly in the night, as if what was flashing inside were not tears but starlight.
Her heart was completely empty, as if someone had cut a hole in it with a knife and stuffed it with bone-breaking ice. It hurt, but it also became numb, and there was no pain anymore. Instead, there was a kind of Unprecedented relief and relief.
Because, the place that had tortured her for so long was finally gouged out.
Su Jingqian slowly opened his eyes and saw her smiling brightly, but the flashing water in her eyes and the passing pain were deeply imprinted on his eyes, like a deep cut on the apex of his heart. Deep cracks, blood instantly gushed out.
Back then, his father's words were like ghosts, lingering in his ears like a shadow -
"Jin'er, we were born into an imperial family. We are different from ordinary people. The first thing we must learn is to be ruthless. Once you show true feelings, you will lose everything before you even play the game."
"I have never truly loved a woman in my life. The so-called three thousand beauties in the harem are just pawns to balance the pros and cons of the government and the opposition. I am not a naturally cold person. Sometimes it's not that I don't want to love, but that I can't love. "
"Love is a weakness, a weakness. Once you fall into it, you will never recover."
"From the moment we were born, our mission and responsibilities in this life were destined. We no longer live for ourselves, but for the entire dynasty, and the burden on our shoulders is even more for the tens of millions of people. Our responsibilities It is to pacify the world and let the people live and work in peace and contentment."
"..."
He resisted and was prepared to escape from all this unfair fate. But what about the result? It turns out that the ending of everything has already been written.
She said, don’t lose sight of your heart’s desire, everything will come true.
But he... is no longer qualified to look forward to it...
He had known for a long time that this day would come. Can't hide, can't escape.
There are two monsters living in his heart, one is reason and the other is instinct. They bit each other and tore each other apart, stirring his heart again and again.
Reason reminds him all the time, don't get close, shouldn't get close, and can't get close, but instinct can't help but want to get close to her again and again. Watching her smile, he will laugh and be happy. When she sheds tears, he I will also be sad and heartbroken.
When she called out "Ajin" again, he felt so happy, so reluctant to let go, and his heart hurt. But what can that change?
When conditions arise, they gather; when conditions cease, they disperse. I have no chance with her in this life.
He watched her walk up to him step by step, her expression calm, her eyes no longer wavering, as silent as a pool of stagnant water, and the only thing he could feel was the bone-chilling chill.
"I have a heartless request, and I hope that Lord Dongchen will grant it."
She saluted him respectfully. This was the first time she had saluted him solemnly. This scene deeply hurt his eyes.
"Please, Lord Dongchen, please don't come to me again if you have no business in the future. Farewell."
He silently stared at her leaving back, with a faint scarlet glow in the corners of his eyes, and the darkness in his eyes became thicker and thicker, finally condensing into a thick ink that could not be dissolved.
He clenched his fingers tightly, and the blood in his chest continued to surge. He suddenly felt unbearable pain all over his body, as if he was being bitten by something, and his limbs and bones were all suffering from heart-pounding pain. It wasn't until she could no longer be seen that the sweet smell that had been suppressed in his throat was spit out from his mouth, and then he saw darkness in front of him...
