A boring job with little development,
From the time she sat in this position to eight o'clock tonight, more than ten hours,
No matter what, her time would be wasted in a small cubicle under such circumstances.
In order to meet the basic needs of life, she still has no means.
She didn't know what else she could do besides doing this.
This month's rent is 3250,
Got more than 10,000 yuan,
In this new first-tier city, it was okay, but how many times did she feel that she stayed in this city just to pay social security fees?
It was during these days of weakness that she gradually began to get sick.
This is a crisis that she cannot avoid at present. Sitting there for more than ten hours a day without moving, she begins to suffer from chronic diseases at a young age.
She never told anyone.
"How much did your wife spend on looking at her eyes?"
She said to the man across the corridor. This man came here after graduating from undergraduate degree and has been working for more than six years now.
"It doesn't cost much, only four to five hundred yuan in total. Registration cost me more than two hundred yuan. Laser doesn't cost much."
The man said to her politely,
A pretty, handsome man who doesn’t even wear glasses bought a house in this city long ago when housing prices were at a low. As an old employee, he speaks louder than the rest of them. He has been here for less than two years. Very hard and angry.
"Specialist clinic," she said quickly when she remembered what it was, "special needs clinic, right?"
"Well, it's a special need." The man smiled.
After finishing this simple conversation, she felt as if she felt a little more comfortable out of thin air, and she felt a turbid air being released from her lungs.
For the next two hours or so, in addition to the almost non-stop sound of keyboards, the air also sounded crisp.
Occasionally, colleagues exchanged a few words.
It was in such an environment that she had to endure such a long time.
The key is that it makes no sense,
For what purpose? This broken unit makes it impossible for people to see any hope.
If I hadn't lied down and rested in my seat for half an hour at noon,
She couldn't imagine how she would survive the entire afternoon.
Always doing the same thing, you can only learn some knowledge that does not improve much.
There is no expectation. Time is in this state of being meaningless every day.
She thought about how her head was bleeding when she was knocked out. At that time, she was in a coma and kept falling from high places. She was trapped in this death cycle. She had always been very patient. The feeling of something rubbing against the blackboard made her always feel like she was going to die.
At a certain moment, after going through countless painful hurdles, she still recovered. It seemed that for herself, everything had returned to its original peace.
But in my work life, where I am waiting for various diseases to occur one by one,
There will always be an end day, when you grow old and die.
Or if he is going to commit suicide now, that will be the end of the world.
She often thinks about whether life is too imperfect if she is not married yet or has children yet.
If you stay in any unit for a long time, you will have feelings.
She has been in this unit for almost two years. Although she rarely talks to people here,
Sometimes I sit there all day without saying a word to anyone.
But after we have been together for a long time, if we leave here, we will feel a little reluctant.
If I go to another unit, change to a new environment, and change a group of colleagues with very bad personalities, it will really be too late to regret it.
She knew very clearly: It was because she was too weak that she became such a person today who even felt useless to herself.
But she is afraid of change and continues to study. In the current economic downturn, she is even worried that she will not be able to find a decent job in the future.
When I'm alone, I don't even have anyone to discuss with or support my actions.
Sometimes she feels that her language skills are deteriorating, and if this continues, she will be useless.
Normally, she would try to avoid acquaintances even when eating.
Original family,
This is the best reason for yourself to be in your current state.
If she could have even half a million in her hands now, she would be much tougher in her words.
