"Here, this is your favorite snack, Mom!" Chengmei's profile brushed across Yin Qingshan's forehead and shoulders, as soft and warm as the breeze.
Because her face was covered with age spots in advance, the strange warmth that kept rising from Yin Qingshan's eyes made Chengmei feel a little panicked. In that kind of vicissitudes of life, no one, no matter how young, would be able to laugh, but Chengmei gently twitched the corners of her lips, revealing a smile that was neither surplus nor deficient at all.
"Mom, today I went to say hello to the unit where I will be working tomorrow. My colleagues are all very kind and talk to each other very well, especially a colleague named Zheng Yucheng, who is a famous parachute in our branch. Today, he was the first to spray a welcome ribbon on me in front of all my colleagues. Although I always have that burning stinging feeling on my face, I still feel very lucky."
"I'm really lucky!"
The corners of his slack mouth drooped like a sea cucumber resurrected from the dead. The wrinkled skin is also covered with age spots. The moment he raised his hand to pick up the pickles, Yin Qingshan's chin protruded, and his shoulders and arms, which were full through the thin collar, became dull and flabby. He was just standing upright with the shameless demeanor ten minutes ago. He couldn't find it anymore, especially Yin Qingshan's eyes were like reptile corpses crawling out of pigeon eggs. Cheng Mei felt that the pupils were deeper than black holes, and the flashing light was more limp than the wilted white reptiles.
"Although I was transferred from the headquarters, the new unit is very close to our home, and the lunch break is also very long, which is enough for me to run back and forth several times. So, starting from tomorrow, I will cook our family's lunch. Mom, please You can take a break, too.”
The smiling eyes and bitter mouth are as far away as the stars. Looking at Seungmei, who looked different between appearance and appearance, Yin Qingshan's eyes were also filled with stars. Perhaps it was because of the constant tears in his heart. When he lowered his head, the corners of Yin Qingshan's eyes were swollen like blisters, and his eyelids and eyebrows were even more swollen. It's so heavy.
"Mom, please don't feel sorry. The three of us are relatives who depend on each other for life. And mom, don't you always say that I have been lively and active since I was a child. For me, riding a bicycle and running are exercises to lose weight and shape my body. That’s all.”
"Yeah, that sounds like a good idea."
Yin Qingshan's eyes were filled with endless heat. Just like every valley in Jirisan Mountain, the moment Seungmi's eyes met her mother's, there was also a sense of summer in Seungmi's eyes.
"By the way, Mom, I will definitely find a man who is blessed and has a long life to get married. Because I always feel that there is nothing in this world that is worse than having no one by your side. .”
"It's a good idea, but does a man like that really not mind our family?" Yin Qingshan's eyes suddenly shone with a new light of disappointment. At a certain moment, Chengmei suddenly felt that the spark that still existed in her body had grown a little. Scattered.
"Sister is getting married! Oh! Sister is getting married!" Cheng Yan seemed to be performing a silent performance, spinning around the table in circles, and finally, under the dim yellow light of the chandelier, she looked like a crab. Arrogantly lying on the dusty carpet.
"Yes Chengyan, I guarantee you that your future brother-in-law will be the kind of man who can accept your sister no matter how nagging you are. Also, your sister has a bad temper and often feels insecure. I think this fateful The man must be much older than me."
Yin Qingshan sat next to Seung-mei and stared at her for a long time, as if he was watching some unexhausted vitality slowly dry up.
"Hey! Mom, why do you open your mouth so wide when I'm talking about business with you? Close it quickly, or bugs will fly in later."
Seungmei teased in her clear voice as usual.
"That's because I'm too sleepy now. I'm going back to sleep, sister." Yin Qingshan's wrinkles were as dark and deep as caves, but his eyes burst out with the light of a newborn.
"Sister?! Mom, you actually call me sister?"
Like an arrow shooting into the field of vision, the fire of despair gradually swelled in Seungmei's eyes.
"Yes, but who are you? Why can't I remember suddenly?"
"No, mom, you can't sleep on the table, and Chengyan, you can't sleep on the floor! What should I do? If you fall asleep together, I can't drag you away."
"Oh, it's so tight, my belly is going to be deformed."
Unable to resist or escape, Yin Qingshan curled up like a chrysalis, enduring the pain that surrounded his body.
"So please wake up as soon as possible and walk back by yourself. Chengyan alone is enough for me to do my best." Seungmei wrapped her arms around Yin Qingshan's waist and walked towards the inner room, sweat dripping from her face. It soaked her top, and the patchwork of bleached cloth glowed with a dazzling white light.
"My mother is so beautiful when she is asleep. She obviously has the most beautiful and virtuous wife in the world, but she abandoned her so early. Bad dad, you can never appear in my dreams, but you must often appear in the dreams of my mother and sister. "
Although Yin Qingshan's complexion is still naturally fair, it is no longer the healthy color it used to be when he was young. Underneath the sparse silver hair is a wrinkled forehead, high and protruding cheekbones, a narrow face, and a pair of bright peach lips that have long since been painted lavender by the desolate time. As if he was having a nightmare, Yin Qingshan would clutch his pillow towel fiercely every time he fell asleep. The yellowed pillow towel was covered with layers of sweat stains.
"It's because my sister sneaked out to look for you again today, so my mother has nightmares. Speaking of nightmares, my mother's life is like an endless nightmare. She is obviously a very weak person at heart. God has forced her to endure so much unimaginable pressure. Many times I wonder, without me as a mother’s spiritual fulcrum, how would she have to face a life that is more messy than a pile of chicken feathers. So. Ah, Dad, and God, for the sake of our family being so miserable, please send a man with a strong sense of responsibility into my world. I am really tired now, and I am not as free and easy as I look on the surface. "Chengmei shrank like grass beaten by frost in a corner without any light, until the eastern sky gradually became filled with fish-belly white light.
"Honey, don't leave! Don't leave me alone. Without you by my side, I really don't know how to survive!"
Mom's misfortune is all because of Dad, so I really blamed you, and even secretly hated you. If you hadn't left so early, Mom wouldn't have turned gray on her temples early, and wouldn't have used those worried eyes. Eyes on the world. So you who know all my thoughts must hate me now, but these are my true thoughts. For a long time in the past, my mother and I felt that leaving was more comfortable than staying. But between us and Dad, there is Cheng Yan. She is a child who cannot take care of herself. As relatives, we must take good care of her for you, so on the day I sent you off for the last journey, I finally gave up. This kind of thinking, I believe my mother also chose that way, because living strong is not for ourselves but for Cheng Yan, who is already more pitiful.
And looking at my mother's face full of tears, my father must be feeling very heavy. Sure enough, people with blood connections have the same feelings. Just like when I try my best to smile, there is also something hidden in my mother's eyes. It hurts. But despite this, I still have to use my intelligence to make my mother happy. I am ashamed to say that I have never acted coquettishly with you since I became sensible, but when my mother's memory gradually reached a breaking point, I finally learned the girl's nirvana. Because only in this way, my mother will never reach the day when her memory is completely lost. I swear that as long as my mother and Cheng Yan are alive for one day, I will work hard to cooperate with you to live well. So, dad, you don’t have to worry too much. I believe everything will be fine. After all, we have sunk to the bottom now. In the future There is only the opportunity to rise. In fact, after I gradually got used to the bad situation, the sunshine would still shine into my heart from time to time, so I would feel a more precious warmth.
