"How many times do I have to tell you this? You have to clean the door!" The landlady looked down at the scrap area with a strong sense of depression in a daze.
"I said I would clean it later, so don't be angry." Yin Qingshan (Lee Seung-mei's mother) suppressed the dissatisfaction in her heart and replied in a whisper-like voice. At the same time, her eyes lingered, as if As if he was afraid of being seen or heard by the forest bureau.
"Anyway, what are you doing as a family? Really! There is not even a normal person in this family of two!" There was a sound like someone talking in the corner of the apartment that was originally thought to be empty, and he managed to crawl halfway through using his hands and feet. Chengmei, who was on the floor, pressed her bulging chest and slowed down her pace. But when she heard the stern tone from the landlady, her speed surged forward again like a fierce flame.
"When? Humph, I've been standing in front of you for more than ten minutes, and you didn't even move your feet or raise your hands! Besides, you said you'd like to wait until I leave to clean up? Oh?! You want to wait until I'm completely dead? Let’s clean up afterward?!”
terrible! The landlady's voice was completely different from when she was alone with him before. Chengmei, who was hesitant because of curiosity, had just reached the walking platform when her aunt's sharp voice echoed in the dimly lit front again.
"Seungmei! My eldest daughter, you came back just in time! Look, look at this for your mother, does it still look like a place where people live? People who don't know think this is a waste shelter?! Look at this, And what’s more, this garbage pile is so wild?! Even the smell is so bad! If you move it away, I won’t be able to put it all away in a month!”
The landlady stood dissatisfied with her hands on her hips. After glancing at the garbage again in great frustration, she looked at Chengmei with eyes that wanted to confirm something. From her mother's listless face, Chengmei keenly caught her uneasiness. Although her heart was pounding with anger, Chengmei's expression was the same as usual, except that her chin was trembling slightly.
"Auntie, don't worry. I will take care of it for mom later. Besides, we are used to living in this place. We will definitely not move out in a year and a half."
"It's not close to any of these. The main thing is, look, see for yourself what happened to my legs? You also know that the light in this building is not good at night. I fell completely on the door of your house last night. Those rags are what made it like this! Even if you are at my age, what if you are a gray-haired old man? It’s not that I’m rude to you, but Chengmei, with your little income, how can you compensate me?!"
The landlady replied in a stiff tone while secretly blaming Yin Qingshan for his carelessness.
"Ah!" Due to surprise, Chengmei kept twitching the corners of her mouth, and her eyes became weirder.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Why don't you take a picture of the hospital receipt and I'll compensate you." Li Chengmei's subtle expression indicated that her heart could not be calm. And in the next moment, she was furious and gritted her teeth at her mother.
"Apologise, then resolutely not change. Don't let this kind of behavior happen again in front of me! By the way, we'll wait for you to move in front of your house later, and deal with the things piled up in front of other people's houses first! Really, it's necessary Can't you be normal if you are crazy?!" Angry blue water rippled in his eyes as he watched his aunt take out the key. Then he slowly opened the door, even if it was only for two minutes, transparent sweat splashed like water on his tight brown forehead, and his yellow hair had already been soaked, and it was now messy and scattered in her arrogance. cheeks, and a neck so thin that the collarbones stand out.
"What are these? Mom, look at me! Tell me what are these?!!" A "bang" sound sounded from the safety exit. After confirming that the landlady had left completely, Li Chengmei was so angry that she kicked the wall with her feet. Yin Qingshan stood on the stairs marking the emergency exit. Even though the light was dim, she could still clearly see Seungmei's face that made her legs weak and her tongue numb.
"And where are you going to use those dirty things over there?!" Chengmei continued to ask furiously. And Yin Qingshan was like a child in trouble, his eyes full of fear.
"Answer me!!!" Looking at Yin Qingshan's increasingly embarrassed face, Seungmei's voice was as harsh as a bomb.
"Lower your head? Do you mean to resist? I have picked up everything. Is it difficult to answer my daughter's questions? What is there to hurt my self-esteem? Do you know that I was the most difficult person just now?! Please, can you Can't you let me retain some pitiful self-esteem?! No matter whether it's at work, at home, or with my children, who doesn't make my heart break to pieces! And you and Li Chengyan, because all of you have done so much. What an unbelievable thing. I’m so angry that I can’t sleep all night long! I’m so exhausted! I don’t want to waste my words anymore. People’s energy is limited after all, so I beg you two, please stop messing with me. Let me relax and relax my nerves!"
Chengmei's mind was in chaos, and she slapped the fence at the top of the stairs with her red and swollen hands. Although Chengmei kept telling herself on the way home from work, no matter what kind of sister she saw, she must cheer up and must reason. But now she can no longer control her emotions.
"Kara!"
With a loud noise, the door opened. Just as the panicked Seung-mei and her mother looked inside the door at the same time, Li Sung-yeon stumbled over to them. Because of autism, Cheng Yan has always held her head high and fearless.
"Mom, please take Li Chengyan in first. I'll pack my things here alone and calm down for a while." Although she felt desolate and even a little tired deep inside. But Seungmei just bit her lip, and then stared at Yin Qingshan with a pair of red eyes that could burst at any moment.
"That's not okay, these are all good things! Especially the sofa over there and those clothes, they are all from big brands in the mall! Let me tell you, Chengmei, you don't even have any decent clothes at home. My mind is full of waste and waste. At such an age, I still don’t know how to save. How will I live my life in the future?!" Chengmei, who was already having headaches about life, is now in even more unbearable pain. She is trying hard to suppress the impending loss of control. Angry and irritated, he asked in a cold voice.
"Then tell me, why don't you keep such good things at home? Aren't they all piled up in the corridor just because you don't need them?"
Looking at Seungmei with a stiff neck and distorted face, Yin Qingshan was breathing heavily with a red face.
"Mom? Didn't you listen to what Auntie just said? Is this still a place where people live? Do you know how terrible you are in people's minds now?! Please, stop yelling, okay? Is it possible? Do you really want to turn this place into a chicken coop or a doghouse to be happy?!"
Seung-mei's words were indeed telling the truth, and Yin Qingshan couldn't think of anything to refute her. After thinking hard for a long time, she had to rely on her pitiful eyes and gloomy mouth to try to win Chengmei's sympathy.
"I am! Mom, I am really impressed by you." After sighing, even the pain in his chest became stronger than ever. Big drops of sweat began to fall from the top of her head. In order not to be noticed by the poor mother, she had to pretend to take a nap repeatedly, and then after feeling a little relieved, she stood there motionless and remained silent.
"Come on, just being with Cheng Yan is enough to make me angry. If you are still angry, just drink a glass of water and leave!" Although the eldest daughter Cheng Mei is obviously much more aggressive than him, Yin Qingshan still He pursed his lips and said in dismay.
"Hate it, why did you forget to boil the water again?! Forget it, it will take some time anyway. Come in, I'll make you some noodles."
While her mother was rummaging through the boxes and cabinets looking for something, Chengmei soaked her face in the sink. This time, not only her chest, head, but also her heart felt numb and painful, so she had no choice but to rinse her hair with warm water.
"It's strange that I put it here, but why can't I find it?! Husband! Husband, the two of us went to the supermarket to buy instant noodles last week. Do you remember where I put them?"
Chengmei suddenly felt frozen to the bone, and her head felt as if she had been hit several times. She couldn't believe what she saw, so she stared at her mother desperately. But my mother’s voice calling “husband” continued.
"husband!"…
"Seungmei, when did you come? Why didn't you even say hello? Your hair is still wet. Could it be that you were bullied by your classmates again?"
After hearing the truth from her mother, Chengmei felt an unprecedented fatigue covering her whole body at the speed of light. After taking one last look at the tomb-like home, Cheng Meisheng opened the door helplessly.
"It's really weird. Am I looking for something? Why did you open the refrigerator door?! Door, oh, did someone come to the house just now?!"
There was only one month without a visit, and the changes in her mother were too unexpected. Chengmei couldn't bear all this, so she sat silently at the end of the corridor with her head pressed against the gray wall stained with green fur.
"Auntie's intention is not to embarrass you with a bunch of rags. Because she knows it's not easy for you to make money, she won't charge the medical expenses, which are not much. But Chengmei, your mother's condition is getting worse and worse. I heard from people in the community that she seemed to go out often at night. After she left, your sister Chengyan always made a lot of noise in the house. So for everyone in the whole building, and of course for your mother and you Hello sister. Please contact the nursing hospital or something as soon as possible." Even the flickering street lights fit Chengmei's mood so well. Looking at the gray stars, Chengmei left a meaningful wry smile.
"I really didn't expect that you are only two years younger than me? Haha, then I just called you aunt, will you be angry? That's right, how can a woman like you have the money to take care of her skin? But look at the facial features My contours, if I hadn’t made a mistake back then, would be even more moisturized than mine now. After all, the mouth is on the face, so as long as the face is youthful and beautiful, there will always be no worries about eating!”
The words of the landlady and Han Sun-hee (Song Joo-hyun) aroused Seung-mei's strange resistance, and at the same time softened her final stubbornness.
Walking aimlessly, she almost stumbled into the subway station. Looking around the dark surroundings with a pair of unfocused eyes, Chengmei accidentally caught a glimpse of the ice cream stand that she often visited when she was a teenager. So she quickly got up and walked over there. As she was walking, she suddenly stopped. After taking out her shriveled wallet, she smiled awkwardly and lonely. Her throat became more choked up, but she still tried to endure it. The aunt at the stall seemed to recognize Chengmei at a glance, and she happily waved to Chengmei.
"Auntie, how much does a piece of strawberry-flavored ice cream cost?" Chengmei asked weakly, forcing a smile on her lips.
"Oh! You have always taken care of your aunt's business since you were very young. How dare I make money from you anymore. Take it. Take it quickly. They say it's my treat!"
After taking the two ice creams, Seungmei held back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes and left the stall. Unfortunately, the place where I was sitting has been occupied by several children. Chengmei had no choice but to stand silently next to the trash can while holding the ice cream.
"I haven't reached 40 yet, and my life is already so hopeless. How will I live in the next 10 years? I'm tired, so tired. My mother, sister, husband and children all make me feel helpless. Help. At first, I was blinded by that evil sense of dependence, which is why I suffered so much torture and harm. Now thinking about it, I was so stupid. I stupidly thought that love could keep me fed and clothed. Warmth and good sleep can make me happy forever. Now I finally understand that relying on love alone is not enough. What should I do? I don’t want to be tired, miserable, or desperate anymore! But what else can I do? It’s not that the sky is the limit. Is there a path that no one can take? Merciful God, please show me a clear path! Please..."
At the moment when his brain was in chaos, the world in his eyes began to fall into the boundless darkness like a collapsed city of sand. Strangely, I could clearly hear Zheng Yucheng's voice amidst the muffled thunder, but my mouth stopped working, and I seemed to have lost the feeling of a person's heart palpitating.
The tip of her nose felt sore, and a dazzling light shot towards her from the front, mixed with the sound of muffled thunder and explosions.
"Hoo ho, my God! I, am I actually disappearing?" Chengmei raised her trembling hand and touched her twitching face. But faced with such a shocking change, she could do nothing but be shocked.
The surging light penetrated her again, followed by a rumbling sound and unbearable pain. Then there was only darkness before her eyes. Suddenly, I seemed to hear a sound similar to something falling to the ground. Although the pain in her arm was even more unbearable, she still tried hard to reach it. "Ha, ha..." I was so choked that I couldn't speak. Even my deep breaths were so weak and weak! But gradually, the coin in his hand seemed to still have the gentle body temperature of a person.
