Chapter 211
Qin Mei's condition is indeed very bad.
The moment she saw Fan Qin's body, the vivid image in her heart collapsed.
Desperation ensues.
If there was such a thing as a soul, she knew that Fan Qin's soul would never want others to see her like she is now.
The person pleading with me in the dream is just my inner demon. It is my regret and self-blame for Fan Qin's death. So I saw her "last face"
It became an obsession.
Now, she sees it.
She didn't want to describe what she saw, she only knew that she and she both needed relief.
When smoke rose from the funeral furnace, everything nearby was silent. There was no crying, not even gasping.
A man held her crumbling body, feeling that her soul seemed to float away with the white smoke.
The man couldn't help but become curious, who could make Qin Mei lose control like this? Yes, Qin Mei has the supreme status in her heart. Five years ago, she supported Tibet Primary School. At that time, more than a dozen rows of bungalows collapsed, and the aftershocks were still there. It was she who rushed ahead regardless of safety and rescued the remaining weak children. It’s hard to imagine the profound fear and terror that those children felt when the whole thing suddenly shook and collapsed as soon as they came out. Three years ago, a group of them encountered a flash flood on the way. It was her calmness and command that finally allowed the team to escape from the disaster.
These are all things he has seen and experienced with his own eyes. In her heart, she was like this goddess peak, unattainable, restrained and powerful. He never thought that she, who could not change her color despite the collapse of Mount Tai, would have such a fragile moment.
By the time Qin Mei gradually recovered, the sky was getting dark.
"Old Xu, do you have any regrets?"
"Yes, a lot." Lao Xu gave her a cup of hot tea.
Qin Mei took it, but her pale face did not change at all. If you look closely, there are faint tears in the corners of her eyes.
"Yes, there are more than a thousand regrets. Is there anyone you don't know how much you care about until you lose them?"
Lao Xu muttered: "Yes. But later I chased her back, and she is my current wife."
Qin Mei smiled: "That's great. It's great to make up for it." She looked into the distance and said no more.
Lao Xu was once a compulsory soldier stationed in Tibet. Because he loved this land so much, especially when he met his wife here, he stayed in Tibet after he was discharged. He is a rough guy, but that doesn't mean he is not thoughtful. He saw that the woman was important to him. Before cremation, she stayed alone with her for a long time, and Qin Mei's energy and spirit were gone when she came out.
To cause a woman with such a strong heart to have a mental breakdown, could it be that she has done something unworthy of her? Lao Xu quickly rejected this idea. In his mind, Qin Mei was as compassionate and kind as a Bodhisattva, and would never do anything harmful to others.
But I didn’t know how to persuade him, so I had to rub my hands and say some clichéd comforting words: “People cannot be resurrected after death, but those who are alive still have to look forward.”
Qin Mei turned her gaze back to him dully and smiled slowly: "Thank you, Lao Xu."
But……
She cremated her loved ones.
She died because of her.
Even though he knew that she was suffering from depression and was likely to commit suicide repeatedly, he still alienated and neglected her because of the uncertainty in his heart. besides……
besides……
She covered her mouth, and a heart-rending sadness swept over her...
She wanted to find someone to talk to, to let out all her thoughts after she left, the sorrows and secrets that could no longer be contained! Otherwise she will go crazy.
She thought Zijin would come, and she even expected Liang Xinyi to come. One is her confidant and understands her; the other is Fan Qin's sister and is qualified to judge her. No matter which one of them it is, it can offset part of her sadness. She was willing to tell them everything.
It's a pity that it didn't happen. What she was waiting for was Amy.
"...So, are you willing?" Amy looked at her and said.
Early in the morning, Amy prepared a bouquet of pure white snowdrops, which were picked from the cliff by mountain people. The delicate petals were hung with crystal dew in the morning. Perhaps it was so beautiful that she became obsessed with it, so she bought it at a high price, intending to use it as a token of love.
She stayed with Qin Mei at the foot of the mountain for three days. During these three days, she asked Lao Xu about her. Lao Xu only said that it was Qin Mei who cremated her friend, and he was not in a good mood.
She was thinking that maybe their new beginning would make the haze surrounding her dissipate as soon as possible.
So, at this moment, on the cliff of a snow-capped peak, she used the most touching words, the most sincere tone, and the most heartfelt words to launch an offensive against the flawless woman in her mind.
In her plan, the sun would rise in 10 minutes. So she specifically chose the edge of the cliff. This would be the first place to welcome a new day, representing a new beginning.
But Qin Mei seemed not to hear her. After she called her again, she turned her head and said absently: "Huh?"
Amy's face suddenly changed. She had never been treated like this before.
"Did you hear what I just said?"
Qin Mei nodded.
Amy became nervous: "Then what do you think? What is your answer?"
"Do you want a heartless person?" Qin Mei suddenly said with a solemn expression.
Amy was stunned and asked in surprise: "Who did you give your heart to?"
"died."
"died?"
"Burn it on fire." The tone seemed to be stating the facts.
Amy thought of the person she cremated. Yes, she knew this person. He was a famous figure in the entertainment industry - Fan Qin.
She never thought that the two of them would be involved, but now she thought about it, why is Fan Qin's body here? Why did Qin Mei cremate Fan Qin’s body privately? What is the relationship between the two of them?
"Now you know what my relationship is with her?"
"No matter what relationship you had with her, they are no longer together. Now I want to bring you a new life, you should give me a chance and give yourself a chance." Amy stepped forward and took her arm.
Qin Mei took a step back, letting her touch fall away.
"rose!"
"I just answered you."
"Do you think I will believe it? How long have I known you, and I don't know who you are? Even if you fall in love, will love make you lose yourself?"
Amy curled her lips mockingly: "The Rose I know cannot be like a young girl who has just begun to fall in love. She is obsessed with so-called love, and even says something that is so heart-wrenching."
"By the way, Weng Zijin, the boss of Xinhuayi, when she was looking for life and death for you, couldn't you push her away calmly and almost indifferently? You and Fan Qin have only known each other for a few days? Even if you have feelings for her, you will Are you so strong that you would say such a thing?!" Amy has known her for a long time, and they were friends for many years before they became regular bed partners.
No one understands Qin Mei's cruelty better than her.
"Zi Jin... Why hasn't Zi Jin come yet?" Qin Mei murmured to herself with empty eyes.
Amy thought her expression was a little strange, but she couldn't tell what was strange. "Forget it, you haven't had much rest these past few days and your mental state is not good. It's really not the best time to confess your feelings. Wait for you..."
"Amy, do you know? I did something very wrong..." Suddenly she stopped, her eyes narrowed, and Y also turned around and saw Lao Xu leading people slowly towards here in the distance. Come.
After Qin Mei saw the people coming clearly, especially one of them, she unconsciously took two steps forward.
Amy recognized Su Qianyan and stepped forward to say hello, but was stopped by Liang Xinyi. She took the opportunity to pull Su Qianyan into her arms, asserting her sovereignty domineeringly.
Amy found it funny and had no choice but to nod to the person behind them as a greeting. Then he said seriously: "You guys came just in time, Roso is not in very good condition."
Liang Xinyi was angry all the way, not only because of what Qin Mei had done, but also because she met annoying people on the road. But now when facing Qin Mei, because of the habitual respect for Qin Mei, she was so angry that she had nowhere to vent her anger.
Su Qianyan stroked her back and told her to calm down.
She looked at Qin Mei. There seemed to be nothing wrong with Qin Mei's expression. Even her clothes were still meticulous, but she felt something was different. What's the difference? Yes, because it is too calm, it feels like a deliberate cover-up.
She was hiding her heart, why should she hide it?
Even though she didn't know much, Su Qianyan still thought about the whole thing. This thought brought me to the most unreasonable place.
"Sister Qin, why did you come all the way to cremate her?"
She simply addresses the most obvious, yet easily overlooked, issues. Why cremation?
Qin Mei's expression instantly cracked.
The people nearby thought it was a little strange. He looked at Su Qianyan and then at her, both looking thoughtful, waiting for her answer.
"She has a nightmare." A cold voice came from the side. It was the person Amy had greeted, and the person Liang Xinyi hated.
"You know what?" Liang Xinyi glared at her.
"It's not a nightmare." Qin Mei shook her head and smiled at the woman who spoke for her: "I have to cremate her."
Liang Xinyi's expression changed.
But the one whose expression was uglier than hers was the owner of that cold voice - Weng Zijin.
Suddenly, a dazzling light suddenly appeared from the horizon.
The sun is coming out.
The author has something to say: Ah, this is the second draft. So late. .
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