Chapter 173
Qin Mei had no choice but to call Liang Xiaoran and said that Fan Qin was emotionally unstable and she wanted to take her home. "Le Wen" Novel
There happened to be a child psychology expert who was invited by her at home, and he was also her old friend. Anyway, psychological science is interoperable. At least she can be given some prescription drugs, as long as they can help her control her emotions.
She cried all the way. Qin Mei didn't notice it at first.
Quiet tears flowed down his face, sobbing silently.
Qin Mei met her eyes in the car mirror, and there was clearly a layer of water vapor floating on them, and there were tears about to fall from her long lower eyelashes.
Qin Mei's heart was hurt so hard that she wanted to hold her in her arms and comfort her. Has this poor man suffered so much from his fragile nerves?
When she got home, Xiao Sijin was still sleeping, and her friend was taken out of the guest room. But no matter what he asked, Fan Qin seemed as if he couldn't hear him, and there were only tears in his eyes.
"It seems that she has been stimulated by something." The friend shook his head: "Let her have a good night's rest, and I will diagnose her tomorrow."
Qin Mei saw him off and came back to sit next to Fan Qin.
The woman in front of me looks so young. Skin is left smooth and clear. And so full of emotion. Of course, occasionally some people think she is a little neurotic, but Qin Mei knows that this is a common problem among emotional people. It also shows that her emotional world will be more sensitive than ordinary people, and she will be more likely to sink into it and be unable to extricate herself. Of course, it will also be more fragile and easier to break.
Yes, she smoked marijuana to relieve the pain. Marijuana and hemp are very common abroad, but they are taboo in China. They also mean depravity and are not accepted by people. However, medical evidence shows that moderate smoking of cannabis did not cause any damage to her body. It was only her reputation that was damaged.
Yes, she also has a so-called bad past. It was a crime committed by a person who lost his humanity, but it caused permanent spiritual scars in the heart of the victim, and caused endless suffering.
No one cares about who is to be blamed in the incident. They only care about whether their idol is bright and whether there is any stain. Also abroad, superstar A also suffered sexual assault when she was 19 years old, but the public still accepted her. But this woman who had just won a major award and would be recorded in film history was crushed by the "terrible words of others" that was already in danger of breaking her heartstrings.
This world has not been kind to her since she was born. Now, she retreats into her spirit and fights the world in her own way.
Not seeking co-existence, only seeking death.
She hated her for committing suicide, but she also understood her. When there is no end to the suffering of living, then death is indeed the best relief.
"Are you hungry? Or should you go to sleep first?" Qin Mei looked at her with gentle eyes, and her face looked too pale.
She shook her head: "I'm not hungry. I don't want to sleep either."
"Then I'll accompany you."
"No need." Fan Qin shook his head: "I basically don't sleep, you know."
"Then, what should we do?" Qin Mei said in a high tone, "Why don't you go for a walk?"
It seemed that Fan Qin took a while to digest her words, stood up and said, "Let's go."
The two people were walking on the road covered with golden apricot leaves, and there were several children chasing and playing in the distance.
"Xiao Sijin has grown taller and is very naughty." In fact, he is naughty.
Fan Qin nodded.
Qin Mei stopped and looked at her quietly, unable to catch any emotion in her eyes.
Qin Mei's voice was extremely gentle, even so gentle that it gave people the illusion of pain: "Can you tell me why you are sad?"
Under such gentle gaze and voice, Fan Qin felt strangely tired for a moment, as if he had been wandering for a long time and finally saw the lights of his home.
"I'm a little sleepy," she said.
When I woke up again, there were really thousands of lights outside.
She lay in a dark room, full of lights. For the first time, I feel that others are warm and warm, and I am not completely a bystander.
The feeling from the morning still lingers in my mind. The feeling that woman gave her was too warm. One side is cold and cruel, the other side is the autumn sun.
But she must go back. This time, Quan ran away willfully to take a breath, and she couldn't leave her alone.
Yes, even if she is abandoned by the whole world, at least she still has herself. No matter how unbearable it is, she will always be there for her.
It felt good and made her feel more empowered and more obligated to live.
So the woman didn't have to worry that she would commit suicide again. She was so worried that she had to sleep in the same bed with her.
She listened to the even breathing next to her, and a smile unconsciously appeared on her lips. She suddenly felt that if she was destined to be destroyed, the only regret in this world would be that she never started with her.
After that cocktail party, she was obsessed with her. Her illness prevents her from sleeping, and the only advantage may be that she spends more time missing someone than others.
She thought about it for so long that she had the illusion that it only came from her consciousness.
Sometimes she thinks too much of her and corrects it a little. But no matter how powerful the imagination is, it can't simulate her truly beautiful appearance, just like her gentle smile and tender eyes like water in the morning.
She deliberately thought about something on her mind, but her heart was throbbing terribly.
She thought that there should be no one who would not fall in love with her after approaching her. Her charm radiates from the inside out, stimulating dopamine in others. She couldn't help but think of her prospective boyfriend Zhan Fen.
Once the man's face occupied her mind, she had a crazy idea.
Yes, she was destined to miss her. There won't even be a start.
So, why not achieve this regret in another form?
Fan Qin curled his lips in the darkness, held the corner of his clothes with his fingers, and took them off to one side, piece by piece, slowly, until he was completely naked.
She slid towards Qin Mei, wrapped her arms around her neck, heard a muffled moan, and then moved to her lips...
Qin Mei was a light sleeper, and suddenly woke up when she felt the gentle breeze and drizzle!
Her quilt was lifted, and a fiery body came forward. But it was just a relatively decent movement. Next, except for describing the shape of her lips with his lips, everything came to an abrupt end the moment his skin touched her body.
She didn't know what to do next, and it even reminded her of the embarrassing past. She got scared and cowered.
She thought that her body would never accept anyone else, even the person she missed so much.
Qin Mei's breathing was messed up, and she knew what her stopping meant. She also knows that a good sex and love will change everything in her heart. This may be an opportunity to "cure" her.
But she was hesitant. Xiao Sijin's incident made her realize how difficult it is to commit a lifetime of responsibility to someone, and that many unexpected things would happen.
She admitted that she had feelings for her, but that wasn't enough. It was not enough for her to make up her mind and muster the courage to take on her life.
Finally, Fan Qin lay back on his quilt.
Qin Mei knew that if she missed tonight, she might not have the opportunity to develop in the future. And Fan Qin was thinking, after all, she didn't deserve even a vague hope, right? The sadness in my heart is hard to suppress.
The two of them had their own thoughts and were silent. The other party's breathing may be deep or shallow, and you can hear it clearly.
"Are you... asleep?" Qin Mei's voice was particularly soft at night.
Fan Qin smiled self-deprecatingly, turned his head and looked in her direction: "What do you want to say?"
"During the winter treatment cycle, you can come and stay at my house. It's more...convenient." Qin Mei suggested.
"Is it convenient?" Fan Qin turned around, smiled and said, "Aren't you afraid that I will invade you again?" If there is anything that can cover up panic, nervousness and embarrassment, it is to speak harshly and stir up other people's emotions like he is now.
Qin Mei's self-restraint prevented her from being provoked, and she said in her usual tone: "I'm not afraid."
"Then, you want me to try again?" she said jokingly. But his heart was beating fast.
Still, I'm a little reluctant. she thought.
Qin Mei did not respond immediately, but said after a while: "I like your body."
Fan Qin was stunned.
"Just for a moment, I had a strong desire to hug you." Qin Mei sighed quietly beside her. "But I cherish you more. I don't deny that there is a situation where sex comes first and love comes later. But that way, our emotions will be more difficult to define, don't you think?"
Fan Qin just smiled in the darkness. This sentence is clearly a rejection. However, Sister Qin, who is well-educated, is better at expressing and communicating, and leaves enough room for others.
You don't love me, it's that simple. What is there to say?
"Just pretend that what just happened didn't happen. Go to sleep." Fan Qin turned over and turned his back to her, but his eyes were open, looking through everything and looking into the distance.
