"I told myself thousands of times that anyone can laugh at me for being stupid and useless, but I can't think so myself. There will always be roads, prosperous, dilapidated, dazzling, lonely. I will always walk on one. road."
Li Mu's weak body leaned against the sarcophagus, and he said words he had never had the chance to say before.
"I think about a lot of things. In your eyes, I am a boring gourd. I listen to everyone's words. I have no ideas but many ideas. Yes, I have passed these ten years many times in my mind, and each time it is far better than what I think in reality. It’s much more exciting.”
"I imagined that I was a rare genius from the Yumen for a century. I joined the Northern Sect when I was less than ten years old. I imagined that I was a rising star of the Dimen. As the heir, I participated in the Lianzhuang War and regained a lot of resources. "When I came back, I was a hero." "I even fantasized that I was a disciple of our family who hid my identity, and revealed my identity when you threw away your armor. In fact, I am a capable mage who has long been famous all over the world, haha Haha." Li Mu laughed self-deprecatingly.
Mu Ziyun listened quietly to Li Mu's words. He had never heard these words before. He knew that Li Mu would feel inferior among them, but when he really showed his heart, it would be difficult to do anything.
"I'm afraid, I believe in fate. Some things really can't be obtained without hard work. You can say that I don't want to make progress and that I am making a fuss out of a molehill. Oh, you don't know. Do you know? What is the feeling of despair? ?Is this what you felt when you just strangled yourself and wanted to end your life?"
"No, that's not despair! Despair is when you think you are out of despair, it sends you back to where you were. It's only after you try it thousands of times in the maze that you realize there is no exit at all. Everything is yours. Ridiculous thoughts, you won’t understand, because the road in front of you has always been a road, a perfect road.”
"Do you know? What did I feel when you told me that you wanted to live in seclusion and give up your abilities?" Li Mu raised his voice and said, "I want to vomit! I think your performance is disgusting! Why has God given you so much?" You look disgusted, but I! No matter how hard I try, I can't get you any brilliance. "
"Li Mu" Mu Ziyun said: "I, I am a sinner" "Sinner? Haha"
"Li Mu, you don't know, actually I"
"Is it because of the natural disaster?" Li Mu said slowly.
"You, you know?" Mu Ziyun was startled for a moment. No one knew the truth about this matter except himself. In the ruins of those three cities, there are still people looking for the treasures dropped from the sky.
"Others may not think of it, but I have fantasized many times about how outstanding and powerful I am. I thought why not this natural disaster was not caused by me myself? Although it is outrageous, when I think of you again, I think it is possible. , everything has happened to you, transformation? Innate physique, luck? Haha, even the Hunting Bow of Bailian Weapon Path is used by you, what else can't you do? "
"I envy you. Everything in you is what I have always wanted in my dreams. I am not greedy and I know myself well. Fantasy is false after all. All I want is what I deserve. The dual determination of the earth gate is mine. After five years of hard training, there is still no progress at the same level as before. It is ridiculous. This is something that has never happened to any disciple of the Dimen. "
"There is still a year of experience. Huzi and I are still standing in the same place until the end. I don't understand why. Since I am destined to achieve nothing, why do I have to go down this road? I don't understand. not understand"
The color of Li Mu's lips was gone, and they were opening and closing tremblingly. He gritted his teeth and pushed hard. The heavy coffin lid was quickly pushed open and hit the ground with a bang. Mu Ziyun could not see the scene in the sarcophagus, but only saw Li Mu seemed frightened, and then put his hand shakingly on the edge of the sarcophagus.
"Don't!" Mu Ziyun shouted anxiously: "Come out with me, me, Huzi and eldest sister. Let's go out together. Who said that the desperate fans can't be cured? They can be cured. The eldest sister is knowledgeable and knows everything. Let's go. ,follow me."
Li Mu faced Mu Ziyun, grinned with a pale face, and said with a chuckle: "Do you know what I encountered in the nightmare? I became you, I am Mu Ziyun, I am Mu Ziyun, Li Mu is a headless person People have no heads. This is the real Li Mu. No matter what I do, I will never be remembered. When I woke up, I completely collapsed. "
"I can't wait to die in that nightmare. Although the things in it will only repeat monotonously, the fact that 'I am Mu Ziyun' makes me so happy that I go crazy. I am you, how much I want to You are yourself”
"Li Mu! Powers are not that beautiful. They are poison. I am already a complete sinner, no different from Tiannunu. I am also a murderous demon. Believe me, you will regret it. Tiannunu will eliminate your consciousness. You will become a cannibal."
"So what!" Li Mu roared, interrupting Mu Ziyun: "As long as I have the ability, I can stand at the top of Huzhou, without consciousness? It doesn't matter, I am conscious now, what does it have to do with the idiot who doesn't? Both! If I become a demon, my name and my deeds will definitely be spread throughout Huzhou for hundreds or even thousands of years. Isn’t this what I want?”
"After you went out, you lost consciousness. Sister, you will kill Hu Zi, do you know?" Mu Ziyun said sadly.
"I understand, so you hurry out, take them away, and your family, my parents, run as far away as possible." Li Mu touched the sarcophagus with his palms, "I can't wait. This time, it's my turn." It’s time for me to enjoy the pleasure of being the center of attention. What a blessing. As long as I stretch out my hand, I can be seen by others. I can become a god or a demon. I can’t wait any longer. Let’s go, let’s go.”
"You will kill many people. Tiannunu has killed hundreds of millions of people. Is the loss of life really the result you want to see! Li Mu! Stop it!"
"Do you think you are a sinner?" Li Mu was silent for a long time before saying, "Actually, you are not. You think you are a sinner because you always only consider yourself and regard yourself as the core."
"I, I didn't"
"No? You are a sinner. Have you really seen those who survived? Have you felt their pain? You hate yourself for killing people. In fact, that is your cowardice. You will only use sin as a high-sounding excuse. You You are afraid of your own abilities precisely because you like it, and because you like it you don’t want others to see its dark side. Are you a sinner? Then admit it? Go and atone for the sins of those who crawl out of the flames!"
"I, I" Mu Ziyun was so panicked that he couldn't speak. He kept repeating in his heart, I am not selfish, I am not cowardly, I am a sinner, and I don't want to kill anyone.
Li Mu then said: "Are you lonely? How lonely I am when I stand with you every day. Among the few people, you are the most casual and sigh the most. You always say that fallen leaves have no roots, like those rootless feathers that have no roots. I thought it was a loneliness similar to mine.”
"But it's actually wrong, Ziyun, see yourself clearly. You want to stand in the center of the crowd and be seen. I am lonely because I am an alternative among you, but you are lonely because you are eager to be among you. Carve your own name in the world, Wu Genyu, you are afraid that your existence will be fleeting, so you express yourself subconsciously, and you will still be a sinner, because in your heart, you cannot control it."
"No!" Mu Ziyun shouted, "You are wrong! I am who I am, and I don't want to express myself." Impossible, how could he be like Zhong Jing, who kills people to make the world remember him and commits crimes? Find your own shadow, no, it must not be.
"Then why are you going into seclusion?" Li Mu shouted: "You are not thinking about yourself, Qingshan Mountain? Li Zi asked? Hu Zi? Who have you considered? By the way, you are waiting for them to beg you, you are hoping to be saved Others are in fire and water, and in this way, you will be remembered forever, hahaha, what is the difference between you and me, you are just a poor person with no head and no shadow, hahaha."
"Stop talking!!" Mu Ziyun roared, "Ah!!" Opening his hands, a fire bead that had been silent for a long time rushed out of his chest. In an instant, the large space was occupied by flames, and Mu Ziyun's The mouth sprayed fire beads forward, and just when it was about to hit the sarcophagus, a stream of green poisonous gas poured out from the sarcophagus and steadily blocked the fire beads outside.
Mu Ziyun's face was cracked with many patterns, each pattern was glowing with fire, his mouth was open and his teeth were leaking, and he was making a sound of ehchi. It was like a hole was cut in his chest, and fire liquid was flowing out. It fell to the ground and smelt.
"I'm not," Mu Ziyun said with a ferocious face, "I'm not a clock frame! I'm not Tiannunu! I consider others, that's why I say I'm a sinner. You're crazy. You go crazy when you see power. I You are not crazy, I will take you out, even if I beat you half to death, I will take you out!"
"Hahaha" Li Mu laughed wildly, "Are you afraid? Are you afraid of your own abilities! Stop hiding it, come on, release it, just like you massacred the people in those three cities, turn yourself into a demon! "
Mu Ziyun's mind was burning. He knew that Li Mu was disturbing him. How could he be a devil? He didn't want to become a devil. Get out quickly, Tiannunu must be plotting against him, so he can't care anymore, so he can use the flame temporarily, and after he gets out, he can permanently seal the fire beads.
Mu Ziyun didn't know that the Fire Pearl did not come out by itself. It was one with Mu Ziyun. He might not know who Mu Ziyun was, but what he did subconsciously was often what he wanted.
The natural disaster that year was actually not a simple flame spreading out, but a demon wrapped in red flames, slaughtering to its heart's content in the boundless sea of fire. That kind of pleasure, that kind of 'happiness' can be erased temporarily, but You can never get rid of the desire deep in your heart. It is like a bead in front of the dragon's mouth, constantly tempting this behemoth to cross the limit, ah! How charming, how intoxicating!
