Chen Yuting slowly drew the curtains to isolate the messy materials, tools, models, etc. that were piled outside, making her feel irritable just looking at them.
The obsessive-compulsive disorder seems to have become more serious recently, and Chen Yuting herself knows this very well.
The first person to discover psychological problems is always oneself. The perception of the mind and consciousness is not as illusory as people imagine. Instead, it is so powerful that it is scary. It is so powerful that the moment you realize the problem, you will get used to it and become natural. To avoid, deny, cover up, pretend to be deaf and mute, turn a blind eye. Let the thorn in your heart take root, break out of the ground, and grow wildly.
She sat in the darkness for a while, and she didn't know how long it took, and finally stood up as if she had just woken up from a dream.
Chen Yuting silently walked to the wall and turned on a floor lamp. The dim light illuminated her face in a dim color, and the remaining ray of even more dim light faintly illuminated the outline of a person on the ground.
She lowered her head mechanically like a puppet, looked at the man lying on the ground, and sighed softly: "Why did you go to bed so early? You never go to bed so early."
"Are you angry because I haven't spent much time with you today?"
She suddenly smiled softly: "You are really strange. People say that you are so angry that you can't sleep. But you are the opposite of others. When you are angry, you want to sleep, right?"
She sat down next to the man again and stretched out a bony hand to touch his face.
"Stop being angry. Why are you still acting like a child, always getting angry? You don't care about others when you're angry."
"Have I ever told you that I went to my high school class reunion last month and saw many of my former classmates. It was so nostalgic!" She continued speaking, moving her hand down from his face. , touched the neck.
"The beauty of our class at that time married a rich old man, and now he is very prosperous! It's not like ordinary people like us who have to work hard all day for three meals a day, firewood, rice, oil and salt, with no end in sight."
"As for her, as long as she gives birth to the child in her belly with peace of mind, her mission has been completed. She has received money that no one else can make in ten lifetimes, and she can command dozens of people to serve her with one finger. You can go to places that ordinary people can’t get into with all their efforts, and you can easily get the results that others have worked hard for decades.”
"What? You ask me if I envy her... I have to tell you the truth. I am envious, very envious, even to the point of jealousy! But I am self-aware. I am not as beautiful as her, nor do I have the means she has. We are not the same kind of people. , I can't do it." She shook her head slightly.
"I also met the person I liked at that time. Have I ever told you about him or my first love?" At this point, a soft blush appeared on Chen Yuting's face.
"Of course, that was just my one-sided first love. Huh? You say that can't be considered first love? Well, let's just call it my first heartbeat and secret love. How innocent I was when I was a student, the eyes He is the only person I see, and his family background is like a burden and will only cover up a person's original brilliance." Chen Yuting smiled fondly: "What a stupid idea."
"At that time, when you see beautiful things, you will instinctively feel good about them. As an art student, you should understand this best, right? Such a man of great influence, with both good morals and academics, tall and handsome, and a great personality He is cheerful and sunny, and he is kind to everyone, so even the most overestimated girl will want to get close to him."
At this point, she changed the topic, feeling a little regretful and sad: "However, he seems to have changed a lot now. Although he is still so eye-catching, his temperament has changed a lot, making people afraid to approach him. ”
"Of course he is accompanied by a beautiful woman. I heard that she is a psychology teacher. She seems to be pursuing him shamelessly!" When she said this, Chen Yuting laughed out loud.
"It turns out that people as glamorous as them have to be humble in front of the people they like, so I'm really balanced. No matter how smart and beautiful she is, she still has to act like a clown in front of men!"
"While eating, we played a game... She told me that I should communicate with you more so that we can be together for a long time... Although it is correct, it is still nonsense. It can be seen from this that experts and professors, They are all liars who only speak high-sounding official language."
Chen Yuting's hand moved to the man's chest. As if she understood something, she suddenly slowly moved closer to him, almost touching his nose.
"Speak! You speak!" Chen Yuting's eyes widened angrily, staring at the expressionless face, and said viciously: "Speak! Why don't you speak! I just told you so much, why didn't you say a word? throat!"
She grabbed the man's collar and shook him desperately.
"You're always like this! No matter how much I say or how crazy I get, you always have such a dead face, and you can't even say a thing for a long time! Yes! Just like this, you have a dead face! A dead face!"
"Have you ever looked in the mirror? You have so many mirrors here. Have you ever looked at your own appearance? Do you know how much you look like a dead person now?"
The person on the ground was as stiff as a stone, responding to Chen Yuting's roar with silence.
"Why don't you speak? Why don't you speak? Talk! Talk!" Chen Yuting shook him crazily, crying and laughing.
The man finally made a noise, and he made a strange "click" sound, like rocks weathering, bones breaking, and branches breaking.
"Hey!" A mechanical electronic female voice seemed to come from the void, suddenly interrupting Chen Yuting's one-man show.
This sudden sound frightened Chen Yuting so much that her heart skipped a beat. She trembled like a frightened rabbit, and the cry was instantly choked in her throat, and she almost lost her breath.
She held her breath and concentrated, not daring to move, as if if there was even the slightest movement, she would be swallowed up by the unknown.
"I didn't hear you clearly, please say it again." The electronic female voice sounded again, becoming increasingly eerie and cold in this deathly silent room.
Chen Yuting stayed for a while and quickly understood. She crawled to the table on hands and knees, where there was a small red metal box - a smart voice assistant.
She held up the small square box, like a drowning person grabbing a piece of driftwood, and stammered again:
"Zhu Tao, Zhu Tao!"
"I'm here!" This time, the small box changed its voice and actually made a man's voice.
"You are finally willing to talk to me! I thought you would never ignore me again!" She turned around and threw herself on the man and cried.
"As long as you are willing to talk to me, everything will get better. I am afraid that you will ignore me! I walk around in front of you every day, but I am like a transparent person. No one smiles at me, no one cares. When I speak, no one sees me, so don’t I exist?”
"Zhu Tao, are you there?"
"I'm always by your side/laugh."
"Really?"
"My heart is always true for you."
"Really?"
"What I said is real."
"That's great!"
"This is what I should do, no need to be polite."
Chen Yuting had a sharp knife in her hand. She had already unbuttoned the man's clothes, revealing her pale and blue skin.
The sternum was hard, and the tip of the knife felt resistance, making a stabbing and friction sound. She tried several times but could not cut open the body. It wasn't until the tip of her knife left the bone and touched the diaphragm area that it encountered soft skin. The blade of the knife sank into the water like a boat.
The smell of blood and sourness spurted out, and miscellaneous flesh and blood tissue crawled everywhere like octopus dumped from a fishing net.
After going through all the trouble to take these things out of his stomach, Chen Yuting placed the small square box in the empty flesh. A man's abdominal cavity is like an open double door, with a mouth that can speak, a mouth that can always answer questions and answers.
"Zhu Tao!"
"Um?"
"I love you."
"I love you too."
"I love you."
"I'm miserable! I'm in love!"
"I love you."
"So, we are in love."
"I love you."
"I suspect you have turned on the repeater mode."
"I love you."
"If the old doesn't go, the new won't come. How about we talk about something new?"
"We've already talked about this, why don't we change the topic."
"I've said this many times. Let's change the topic and open the door to a new world."
Chen Yuting's face was pale, her lips were trembling, and she yelled uncontrollably: "Go to hell! Go to hell! Go to hell!"
In contrast to her madness, the male voice was as calm as ever -.
"OK."
After that, the work indicator light was turned off and she automatically logged out as she wished.
