One wisp...and another wisp...
There are traces of Tang Xiaoxiao's tears on every strand of hair, which is the reluctance of love.
Curling up in bed alone and helpless, this kind of sadness is heart-wrenching and heartbreaking.
Dreams really come with a price!
Tang Xiaoxiao held back the slight sobs and choked sounds. Although they were very small, they were very clear and everyone could actually hear them.
Standing outside the door, Ye Cunxin saw more clearly that Tang Xiaoxiao had really cut off her hair. She was shocked inside, but also a little bit sad. How much courage it took to do this.
She has a strong personality, but there are also times when she is soft, and her eyes are unconsciously hazy.
Some things can only be understood by experiencing them, and you can never understand them without experiencing them.
A hand holding a tissue suddenly stretched out in front of him, which startled Ye Cunxin. He looked around and saw that his originally tearful eyes froze. It was Tan Xiaolin who had just thought about it and had just gone out.
"No need." Ye Cunxin narrowed her eyes, coldly refused, then turned around and left.
Tan Xiaolin quickly chased after her, stood in front of Ye Cunxin and said, "Wait, can you talk to me for a few words?"
Ye Cunxin felt a little confused, "I don't like chatting with the instructor."
"Then you don't have to treat me as an instructor." At this time, Tan Xiaolin did not have the arrogance she had during the day, nor did she have the aura of using her position to pressure others. On the contrary, she seemed very cordial.
Ye Cunxin frowned slightly. She clearly felt that the woman in front of her was different from before, so she did not stubbornly choose to leave again, but chose to stay.
"Can you tell me why you're up so late?" Tan Xiaolin asked gently.
"Can't sleep." The voice was still full of strangeness and distance.
Tan Xiaolin shook her head, looked up at the stars, and whispered to her old friend as if reminiscing: "I can see that you really want to be a special forces member. My dream is also to become a special forces member, so I came here."
"you?"
Ye Cunxin was a little confused, or a little unbelievable, what the hell.
"That's right, it's me. It has always been my dream to come to the Special Forces. I came here and spent countless time and energy thinking and studying just to come here. I have submitted countless applications, but none of them came out one by one. was dismissed.
Until this time, I was transferred here, you don't know how happy I was, I came here, no one knew how easy it was for me, and no one knew that this was my dream, to become a special forces soldier. "Tan Xiaolin's voice was full of a trace of pain, a trace of bitterness, and a trace of persistence for her dream.
Ye Cunxin was a little dazed, with doubt in her eyes. Is what this woman said true or false?
This woman's emotions cannot be disguised. At this time, Ye Cunxin has already believed most of it, and there is a sense of resonance in her heart.
It was not because of anything else. What Tan Xiaolin said was actually what she wanted to say. It was almost exactly the same. She gave up her studies, her wonderful youth, and the youth she should have at an ignorant age, and joined the army. Practicing martial arts was destined to take an experience that ordinary people could not imagine. , although she already had experience as a child, she wanted to truly become a special operations team member. She kept working hard, but could not find the opportunity until this time.
"Are you surprised?" Tan Xiaolin looked at the disbelief in Ye Cunxin's eyes and smiled softly.
"Um."
Ye Cunxin withdrew her gaze, and her voice became much softer, saying: "We always thought that you came here to get gold, just for the experience of being a special forces instructor, to help you with your future promotion."
"So you all think so." Tan Xiaolin was stunned for a moment and said with a wry smile.
It turns out that this is the reality. I was too proud before and it was completely self-indulgent.
Seeing Tan Xiaolin like this, Ye Cunxin comforted her: "Yes, but I have changed my mind now. I believe what you said."
This comfort made Tan Xiaolin a little surprised, but she knew that the girl in front of her was a thorn in the side, a powder keg that could ignite at the drop of a hat.
Ye Cunxin's voice did not stop because of this: "Because I know how difficult it is for women to come here, and the same is true for those who leave, but I am still persisting because I don't want to be eliminated."
That strong determination infected Tan Xiaolin. She didn't expect this sharp-headed soldier to be so persistent: "But you have to know that if you stay, you will suffer a lot, maybe even more bitter than the male soldiers. For us now , it can be said to be unimaginable.”
"Yes, so what? I want to be a special soldier. This is my dream when I was a child. Sometimes, I even hate myself for being a girl."
"Why am I not a boy? If I were a boy, I would have become a special soldier."
"Sometimes I dream about becoming a boy and becoming the special forces soldier of my dreams. Unfortunately, the dream will eventually wake up, and I will eventually face reality."
"This time I came here, the Thunder Commando. There is the famous Thor here, and there is the strongest lone wolf. Even if I die, I will stay and become a member of the Fire Phoenix, because I know that this is the best way for me to realize my dream. It’s the best way, if you miss it this time, you may never have it again.”
Ye Cunxin's sincere words shocked Tan Xiaolin. She didn't know how this girl came to this point with this dream. Her agility could be said to be on par with hers, but it could also be said that she had sacrificed so much. Work hard no less than yourself.
When she was this old, she was just a college student with some ideas, but Ye Cunxin had already come to the veritable beast camp and received a cruel baptism.
"You don't believe it?" Looking at Tan Xiaolin's disbelieving eyes, Ye Cun frowned unknowingly, and his voice became a little cold.
Tan Xiaolin shook her head and said affirmatively: "I believe you can do it. Your firm tone can be said to be the most persistent girl I have ever seen who is dedicated to her dreams."
"So what? I can't run as well as the male soldiers, I can't jump as well as the male soldiers, I am even weaker than the weaker men in terms of strength, and I still have my period every month. After all, these are the shortcomings of us women. I have persisted for a whole day tonight. Many of the girls have left now. Which one of them did not come here full of enthusiasm? But these shortcomings eventually made them regretfully eliminated." Ye Cunxin's voice was like a low roar coming from her throat at this time, revealing a strong Nong Di is unwilling to give in.
Yes, even if she is unwilling to do so, she is still unwilling to be a woman. These shortcomings will eventually prevent her from becoming the strongest special operations team member.
She hates herself from the bottom of her heart, why is she not a man?
(End of chapter)
