I yelled at Xiao Se like crazy: "Who asked you to do this, who allowed you to do this, please return Bai Zimo to me. Without him, what is the use of this ancient god?"
Xiao Se looked at me sadly with red eyes: "Alian, this is the only way. You want to save the common people and seek peace in the world, but if you don't get back everything that belongs to you, they will use these things to control you. You, let your life be spent in running around, now, you are the oldest god in the three realms, except Bai Zimo, you can get everything you want, if you want this world to be peaceful, you will never dare anyone to make trouble!"
"I don't want this. I don't care if the world is peaceful or not, and I don't want to care about the common people. Give Bai Zimo back to me, take this heart away, and give him back! Xiao Se, do you understand? I want you to give him back Change it back!" I shouted hysterically at Xiao Se.
I knew I was going crazy. I didn't even dare to look at Aya and the others. They sent the seven-petal lotus to help me regain my status as a god. I probably didn't expect it to turn out like this.
Aya wanted to come over and hug me several times. Like when I was wronged in Yunjia Village, he would put his arm around my shoulders, give me gestures, and tell me that I must be strong.
Although he was mute at that time, he understood everything and could comfort my heart the most.
But now, I wish I hadn't seen him. If they didn't send these seven-petal lotuses, Bai Zimo might not have been able to reach this point. They teamed up to kill Bai Zimo.
The more I thought about it, the angrier I became. My mood was so bad that I was completely out of control. I just wanted to destroy everything in front of me and then chase Bai Zimo.
I can imagine how sad Bai Zimo must have been when he watched me disappear little by little before his eyes, and how he used his own strength to travel across thousands of rivers and mountains to repair my broken soul bit by bit. Develop...
He did things for me that ordinary people couldn't do, but I just went crazy and couldn't do anything.
No wonder Bai Zimo could hear my heart before. I always thought it was because he had sealed it in my body. But the truth is that my heart is in his body.
So whatever I think, he knows.
Maybe this was the agreement that Xiao Se once mentioned. I didn't take it seriously at the time. It turned out that everything had been a sign for a long time, but I just realized it later.
If I could bring him back to life by taking out this heart, I would definitely do it.
But I know that Bai Zimo will never come back.
I hate myself so much. I hate why I have always been so incompetent, why I believed the lies of the Emperor of Heaven in the first place, and why I agreed to go down to earth to find a magic weapon to repair my true body.
Without my true body, I could still live and fly with Bai Zimo. Why did I feel so inferior at that time, thinking that I was not worthy of Bai Zimo without my true body?
If I could do it all over again, I would rather I was still just an ordinary lotus flower in the soup valley, occasionally taking my form and singing and dancing with my friends, so uncomfortable.
But now, it's too late to say anything.
If Bai Zimo is gone, what's the point of all this.
What meaning do people in this world have to me?
I gradually couldn't control my thoughts. Although there was still a trace of reason fighting, hoping that I could calm down, the bloody scene just now hit me too hard. Even now, my mouth is full of blood.
I gritted my teeth and stared fiercely at the nine-tailed fox that was already shivering at the side. I walked towards her step by step. I was so frightened that she fell directly into the clouds. While shrinking back, I said: "Alian, you are really Do you want to risk the whole world for Bai Zimo? Look at the river city below, it is already flooded! Do you really want to see the world that you have supported with one hand be destroyed? "
"Hmph, they're just a bunch of ants. They're just ruined. They can't survive for just a few decades. They're still suffering, so don't worry! Jiuwei, Bai Zimo is dead. You should die too. I want all the creatures in the three realms to be destroyed. Bury with him!"
There are more and more memories in my mind, and the magic power in my body is getting stronger and stronger, but I am becoming more and more controlling and disbelieving in my actions. I directly reach out and clasp Kyuubi's neck, slowly lift it up, and look at her With a bruised face and legs that kept kicking, he sneered: "Heavenly Emperor's lackeys, don't look at me with such hateful eyes. It's just strange that you have moved your heart that shouldn't be touched and hurt those that shouldn't be hurt. people!"
I said, using direct force on my hands, I actually strangled the nine-tailed fox to death.
"Alian, wake up. You can't be blinded by hatred. How can you bear to watch weak humans suffer so many disasters? Look at the people below, there is almost no way to survive!" Aya tried to get closer. I want to use the kindness he had with me to persuade me to stop.
How could I stop? Damn the human beings in this world, damn the common people. I am not the master of the three realms. Why should I be responsible for their life and death?
I heard Xiao Se instructing the people from the eight gates to save people and gather the strength of the eight gates to save as many lives as possible.
I couldn't help but sneer at him, and rushed directly in front of him, holding Guijianchou on his neck. Watching the sword edge slice open his neck bit by bit, and the bright red blood flowed out, I suddenly licked my lips excitedly: "Today You can eat meat again, and it’s still the blood of the ancient Phoenix God. The smell of it makes people salivate!”
As I said that, I abandoned Guijianchou and moved closer to Xiao Se's neck, pursed my lips, and was about to suck his blood.
"Alian is possessed. Her inner demon is controlling her. Liuli, please think of a way to wake up Alian, otherwise the consequences will be disastrous!" Xiao Se let me suck his blood without even frowning. Still trying to figure out how to wake me up.
My demonic nature has long given birth to an independent personality. Now that my body has also been demonized, it is the most suitable time for her to possess it. She has been a shadow for so many years and has long wanted to possess this body for herself.
She has been waiting for this day for tens of thousands of years.
My remaining shred of reason wants me to stop, but now, my body is out of control. If Xiao Se's blood hadn't made me sober for a moment, I think there would have been a blood cloud here at this time. roll.
"Xiao Se, kill me!" I slowly raised my eyes, looked at Xiao Se and said.
Bai Zimo is gone, and I don't want to live alone. Instead of being controlled by the inner demon and falling into eternal catastrophe, it would be better to die!
Xiao Se's lips trembled slightly, wanting to say something, but my body was controlled by the inner demon again, and I said to him: "Phoenix God Lord, you and Bai Zimo are equally infatuated, loving the house as much as the bird. Although I am the inner demon, I am also It's her, following me like a shadow, trying to kill me, can you do it?"
Yes, they couldn't do anything at all, otherwise they would have killed her long ago when the inner demon appeared around me in various forms.
Bai Zimo tolerated her and let her go again and again, which was nothing more than hurting her, which is equivalent to hurting me.
Although the inner demon and I were two different individuals before, now that I have returned to the identity of the ancient god of the 48th-grade Immortal Lotus, the inner demon will naturally become a part of my body.
If I want to kill my demons, I have to do it myself.
But I can't do anything at all.
I can only let my inner demon control my body and stir up chaos in this world.
My mind was getting less and less clear, and I couldn't even see the people in front of me clearly. I only knew how to control those magic weapons to block the people approaching me one by one, while I myself was lying on a cloud, imagining the past. Time with Bai Zimo.
I remember when we were in Tanggu, he said that as long as I was willing, he would take me to travel across thousands of mountains and rivers, and when I was tired, I would find a cloud to rest. He would make me the happiest person in the three worlds.
At that time, I laughed at him. He was all covered in white, and I was afraid that he would not be found when he was lying on the clouds.
He also replied with a playful smile, he has a pair of eyes as dark as ink, and there is only me in those eyes, so as long as I find myself in a dark sphere, I can quickly find him.
There is no going back, nothing can go back.
"Sister, please wake up. If you continue like this, Phoenix God Lord will be tortured to death by you. You said before that there is a devil living in everyone's heart, but as long as we are brave enough, the devil will not dare to come out. You are causing trouble, but now you are going to hide and let your demons cause trouble to the world?"
"Sister, I am Yun'er. Do you remember Yun'er? When you first transformed into Tanggu, you picked me up and kept me by your side and named me Yun'er because you said you liked Yun'er the most, Baibai. It looks clean, have you forgotten all this?"
When I heard Yun'er and Liuli calling, I felt very uncomfortable, but now, what qualifications do I have to be their sister.
Let them hate me so much that they can kill me.
"Alian, I'm Liu Yiran!" Suddenly, I heard Liu Yiran's long-lost voice, and I couldn't help but feel shocked. I already remembered him. I had saved him when I was Yun Jinlian.
With just a little effort, he paid for his freedom for thousands of years and worked as a willow fairy in Yunjia Village for thousands of years, guarding the mountain temple and waiting for my return.
It's a pity that he can no longer wait for Yun Jinlian.
Liu Yiran turned into a little black snake, lying on the clouds next to me, looking at me lazily: "I know you are not my Alian, but you have an inseparable relationship after all, she is just a trace of your soul reincarnated , and finally returned to you. I am not as lucky as Mo Jincheng. He retained a trace of his soul and was able to find Yun Wanrong in this life and renew our relationship. But I can only watch you from a distance, I will help you when you need me!"
I know that back then, Yun Jinlian only treated Liu Yiran as an ordinary friend. Therefore, she could go up in smoke for Bai Zimo, but she only felt guilty towards Liu Yiran.
Liu Yiran is a gentleman, he will not take away people's love, so he will only help me silently, even if he knows that I don't have him in my heart, even if he knows that even if I really wake up, I will not belong to him, but he still enters without hesitation in my consciousness.
He didn't say anything to tell me to stop, nor did he ask me to wake up and save the world. He just stayed with me quietly, above the clouds.
"Liu Yiran, thank you!" I said from the bottom of my heart: "Give me Liuli Tears, and I will defeat my inner demons!"
"You know?" His face blushed slightly, and he transformed into a human form and handed me a small porcelain bottle directly: "Actually, even if you have inner demons, I will still protect you, but I don't want to see you sink like this! The world is still uncertain, everything is unknown, you shouldn’t give up prematurely!”
I nodded lightly, took the small porcelain bottle, drank the glass tears in it, and then said: "Everything happened because of my inner demons, and I will give everyone an explanation!"
