Love, what is it?
The secretion of hormones? A collection of desires?
Is it a physiological need or a soul's desire?
No one understands that anyway, all the love she has seen so far has ended in family affection or separation.
It's quite sad that people in the world are chasing the unforgettable love of life and death, but they always deliberately deny and ignore the life after love.
There are many factors that kill love, including marriage, children, family, outlook on life, career, and most importantly, time.
Once love gets involved with the future, it will turn into a deteriorated family relationship, fragile and ridiculous.
Her ex-husband is a good man, stable, down-to-earth, from a distinguished family, and has never been sorry to her.
His parents are also rare wealthy people who can be called "entrepreneurs". His father is always on the road to charity, and his mother has always put her wishes first.
She enjoys a life that is envied by everyone, a considerate husband, enlightened parents-in-law, a brother who loves her as a daughter, a decent and stable job, she has almost everything, and she does have everything.
But she regretted it after all.
This is the life of a dummy, and it does not belong to her after all.
She felt sorry for her ex-husband who still didn't understand why, but she was indeed tired.
As the top makeup artist in Chaohai City, she knows how to dress up this face.
To put it bluntly, good-looking people will look beautiful and fragrant even if they sprinkle flour on their faces.
Clear skin, apply cream, cleanse face, draw eyebrows.
Everything should be on track, even if it is a path that no one supports.
After making sure that she looked the same as usual in the mirror, she put on her most beautiful dress and left the house.
She was just a local dog who grew up in an orphanage, and was not worthy of being in a beautiful house.
People should be self-aware, but it's a pity that she was young and frivolous, and mistakenly mistook the crown she couldn't afford for a copper bracelet on a roadside stall.
She actually didn't like this red sports car. It was too fancy and not suitable for her.
Why did you choose this car in the first place?
She started the engine and thought silently.
I obviously prefer the black off-road vehicle next to me.
Forget it, sell it in two days.
I am almost thirty years old, and it’s time to live a good life.
Breaking up is the second step in her plan. She has already asked someone to put the duplex villa, which is too big, on the sales platform. She has set a very fair price and believes it will be sold soon.
She owns a small building of more than 90 square meters in the city center, which is just enough for a newlywed couple to live a happy life for more than ten years.
More than ten years later, when her children grew older, she moved to a larger house.
After all, you have to consider people’s privacy.
As she was looking forward to the future, the phone rang.
He is the eldest brother, the one who loves her the most.
He is also the one who is the most angry right now.
"Where are you! Come back quickly! Before you can regret it now, apologize to me and resume the marriage."
She drove the car happily, listening to her family's complaints while looking at the beautiful scenery ahead.
Why didn't you realize it was so beautiful here before?
"You are already thirty, what kind of trouble are you going to make if you are still fooling around like this?"
Finding that she didn't want to do this, the eldest brother changed his tactics and persuaded her earnestly, "I've had someone check it out, and this time it's all your unreasonable trouble. I've been living a good life with you, but you suddenly and without any reason If you divorce someone, tell yourself, are you right?"
"I was wrong. I was wrong from the beginning." She finally said her first words today, "I was the one who delayed him for so many years. I'm sorry for him."
"You...you know you were wrong, but you should come back."
The strong male voice on the phone revealed a hint of helplessness, "I just don't understand. People are so supportive of you. They didn't say anything when you said you didn't want children. Why are you doing this all of a sudden?"
There was a red light ahead, so she stopped and turned off the engine.
"That day." She thought for a moment, turned on the speakerphone, and put the phone next to her, "I went to the hospital."
"Brother, you have done a lot, haven't you? It's so big and spacious now."
"I met the dean and she said that she has stayed in the hospital all her life and will live there even if she retires."
The person on the other end of the phone listened quietly. Half of the money he had earned over the years had been spent in the world's number one welfare institution.
"The food there now is very good. I think it has meat and vegetables. It's not like our time, when there were even two drops of oil in the porridge and I would stand up and eat happily."
"And then I thought, just for a second, it just hit me."
The red light passed and she continued driving towards her destination.
"How did we survive then?"
"One year, no one from above took care of our shabby orphanage. How did we survive that winter?"
"do not talk."
On the other end of the phone, the man's tone suddenly became serious, "He is not a good person."
She ignored it and continued.
"He went to the mountains to hunt sparrows, went to the vegetable market to pick up unwanted vegetable stalks, and went to the slaughterhouse to beg for money that no one would eat. It was the dean who sold his house so that we could drink white rice porridge. It was he who made us eat white rice. It won’t be hard to swallow sometimes.”
As she said that, she paused, "Am I wrong?"
The man was silent for a moment. He really didn't want to mention that terrible guy. "That was all in my childhood. People always change."
"Then what has become of him? What heinous things has he done that would make you not recognize him as your brother?"
Her tone was a little excited.
"Wouldn't it be wrong for him to tell you to stop at that time? If you had listened to him and sold the place, would Dongzi have gone out running a dark car in the middle of the night to pay back the debt that winter, and crashed and died on the highway because of fatigue driving? "
"Why do you want to blame Dongzi's death on him?"
"Because he was the only one who left at that time!" The man couldn't help feeling disgusted when he mentioned the past, "He was the only one who couldn't bear to leave early. He was the core figure in the place at that time. Most of the difficulties we had that year were due to him."
"So you are going to regard him as the murderer?"
"yes."
The man thought of this and sighed, "You were in class at the time and didn't understand the situation, but he was selfish and couldn't give you happiness."
"My happiness has always been earned by myself."
After saying that, she hung up the phone and got out of the car.
We've arrived.
In this office building is a company that is currently at the forefront of the Internet field.
It was where he worked four or five years ago.
She walked into the lobby, took out his photo, and asked the girl at the front desk.
"Is this person still working here?"
The younger sister took the photo and took a closer look at the man inside.
"I've never seen this person before. Why don't you ask the manager? It's over there."
She recognized that the gorgeous woman in front of her was the makeup artist who often appeared on Chaohai TV. I believe that the manager who looked at her face would not refuse to answer her questions.
"No thanks."
No one can forget his face, presumably he has left here.
She took the photo back and turned to leave.
I thought he would be at the company during working hours, but I didn't expect that he had already resigned.
In this case, just wait and wait.
She backed out of the car and drove toward the man's home.
That little old guy with less than fifty square meters, his "little nest".
It's not far from the company, very close.
She remembered that he decorated the place very warmly, with warm wallpaper, nanmu furniture, and a very comfortable chair. Every time after get off work or on weekends, he would sit on the height-adjustable chair, holding the keyboard and The mouse lasted for four or five hours as soon as it was turned on. I don’t know how his spine could bear it.
He had a bad habit of putting a key under the carpet at his door.
But thanks to this habit, she wouldn't stupidly stand at the door waiting for him.
If the plan goes well, she'll hide behind the door and pop out to scare him when he gets home.
It's been a while since I've done this kind of prank, so I'm a little looking forward to it.
Thinking of this, she couldn't help but smile.
Earth Dogs should be companions of Earth Dogs, and they should be comfortable with each other without getting into trouble.
No need for diaphragm...
Brand new streets, neat two rows of woods.
Behind the white railings are well-planned and well-proportioned buildings. In the red brick-themed community, several elderly people sit in the central rest area surrounded by lawns and play chess.
Not old, not broken, not young.
She remembered that this was the community developed by her ex-husband two years ago.
At first I thought there was something wrong with that position, but now that I think about it, it’s really ironic.
he's not here.
It doesn't matter, there is a place that he will go to regularly no matter where he moves.
She turned around and headed east.
It was a slum area that was holding back the entire city. Because it was difficult to develop and there were too many households, it was a no-care zone.
The only advantage is that the security is good, probably because there have been many vicious incidents. There is a small police station every fifty meters. To be honest, it is safer than the high-end community where she lives now.
Remember the location is...
Turn left, go forward, turn right, stop at the second intersection, drive through a dirt road, and see the fourth house in the corner.
This small courtyard remains unchanged, with its faded red iron gate and small brick-roofed bungalow that has not been renovated for a long time.
There lived a very cute old lady. Her grandson was his classmate. In an accident, he fell from the mountain and his body was left intact.
The classmate had a very good relationship with him. After the accident, he often came over to take care of the old lady on behalf of the dead classmate.
She used to come here often. Before she came, she would go to the vegetable market with him to buy vegetables and meat. She remembered that he especially liked to pick out meat from an old butcher in his sixties, because the old butcher would always show it to him. Give a few more pounds to the young man who likes you.
The dumplings made by the old lady are particularly delicious. Every time he comes here, his first task is to chop the purchased pork into fillings.
At that time, she would stand next to him, disdainful of his weak strength, and make the old lady laugh with various jokes.
When they left, the old lady always wiped her tears and said in a dialect she didn't know where she came from, "My daughter really got to know two good babies. If you two weren't here, I really don't know what I would have done."
He can disown his brother and sever ties with her, but he will not leave this old lady alone.
"Dong dong dong."
She knocked on the door, and the iron door made a hoarse and dull sound under her hand, as if it had become an old door.
After a long time, the people inside came out.
"Who?"
This is a rich old woman, wearing colorful clothes, as if she had just taken a nap.
"Excuse me, is the old woman who lived here before still there?" She gestured to the air as she spoke, "She is about this tall, with gray hair and wearing a pair of reading glasses."
"She, her grandson is promising and has moved away long ago!"
The old aunt waved her hand impatiently, "Go away quickly, don't bother me."
...
Too.
No one will stand still.
Everything will change.
I thought it would be easy to find him.
After all, he has the kind of physique that will cause trouble just by standing there.
I even gave him a name, what was it called?
She drove into traffic, remembering.
Oh, I remembered it.
Supporting character physique.
He always attracts the attention of weird people.
The son-in-law who stepped in the door, the poor student who didn't study well, and the gangster who joined the society.
Lots and lots.
There is one last way left.
She sighed, took out her phone, and opened her address book.
The name at the bottom of the blacklist finally came to light, and she dialed the number with extreme reluctance.
After a long time, the number was connected.
It was very noisy there, and the person who answered the phone seemed to have a high status. Even if the call was connected, he kept directing others to do this and that.
"Hello? Who is this?"
She hesitated for a moment, then told the scumbag her purpose.
This is a traitor.
He's a despicable, law-of-the-jungle bastard.
It was obvious that everything he had now was given to him by others.
But just such a person was once his best friend.
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a long time, probably because he had forgotten about the fool who gave him the opportunity he had worked so hard to get.
When she had given up hope, a depressed voice came from the other end of the phone.
"At the end of Tangxin Street, Beicheng District, Wuhua Blessed Land, No. 3632."
"Where does he live now?"
Beicheng is almost a suburb, with a remote location and a dangerous environment.
How could he live there?
"Well, you are...his sister, right?"
"right."
"Although it's strange for me to say this, I hope you can... take more people to see him." The man seemed to have found a quiet place to talk to her. For some reason, his voice was unusually low, "He knows him." There are really not many people, he...I'm sorry for him, I don't have the right to see him."
If I had known this, why did I do it in the first place?
"I see."
After saying that, she hung up the phone.
Is he so miserable? They all live in the suburbs.
It seems like he has to drag someone to find him a job.
All in all, there is finally news. Let’s find the person first.
Knowing the specific location, she felt very good.
She hummed a song, accelerated, and drove towards Beicheng District.
She remembered that as a child, the man would keep the beets in the bowl just for himself.
She remembered that the man liked sweets, but as long as the dean gave out sweets, she would always get two portions.
She remembered that the man was very gentle. During her first menstrual period, he bought the best brown sugar and sanitary napkins in the store with the money he earned from distributing flyers for a day.
She remembered, she always remembered.
Her experience with her ex-husband was actually very rough, just like those romances in the ancient times.
She is the female protagonist and her ex-husband is the male protagonist.
And he, just like the name he jokingly gave his unlucky physique, is a ridiculous supporting actor.
I need to apologize properly when I see him later.
After all, I was so willful when I chose, and so decisive when I left.
"Auntie, please tell me how to get to Wuhua Paradise?"
She opened the car door and asked the aunt passing by.
The aunt looked at her face and felt that she didn't look like someone who was going there.
"Why do you ask?"
"I'm looking for someone."
"Go to Wuhua Paradise to find someone?"
"Yes, the communities in Beicheng District are too scattered. I couldn't find them using navigation."
"...You go over there." Auntie pointed to the west, "When you see the intersection, go in and go around the small forest and you'll be there."
She looked over there, and it didn't look like there was anyone there.
"Really?"
"Really, little girl, really."
The aunt looked at her strangely, then sighed and walked away with her hands behind her back.
wack.
She closed the window, thought about it, and decided to go behind the woods and take a look.
What if his current job requires him to work in the countryside?
She accelerated, ignoring the vague feeling of uneasiness in her heart, and moved forward.
The woods are beautiful and lush, cicadas are chirping and birds are chirping, and the breeze is picking up.
Where is he?
Around the woods, there is a wilderness.
Where is he?
Empty and unusually quiet.
Where is he?
In the wilderness, there are scattered rows and rows.
Where is he?
tombstone.
Wuhua Blessed Land, number 3632.
She didn't know how she got out of the car.
Maybe he took a job as a tombkeeper?
Then he really neglected his duty. He was such a serious person, but he managed this place like a mass grave.
Number 3632.
She started counting from number one.
One, two.
three...four...
She counted very slowly, as if she was trying to memorize every name on the monument, and her eyes would stay on each name for a long time.
The dazzling sun gradually faded, and the crimson haze slowly climbed up to the horizon.
Three six hundred and twenty-nine, three six hundred and thirty-one, three six hundred and thirty-one.
The dark red light climbed up her neck, making her white skin even warmer.
Three six, three two.
She stopped.
When love turns into family affection, it means that he is about to enter your life, and everything about you will be infiltrated by the shadow of another person. Before you have time to react, the instinctive rejection and unwillingness will be like an allergic reaction. Generally, when burning arises, you either choose to accept self-change or self-destruct and fight to the end, until everyone is bruised and tired of everything about each other, love turns into obsession, desire turns into reluctance, and letting go turns into relief.
This is the end of all relationships, so when she understands what a beautiful relationship there is between her and the smiling person in the black and white photo in front of her.
They were family members from the beginning.
As early as they were conscious, they had integrated each other's shadow into their hearts.
I don’t put you in my heart because I love you, but I love you because I have you in my heart.
The dean hoped that everyone would have a happy, healthy and peaceful life, so he gave everyone the surname "Ning".
She hoped that the child who was always worried and worried that everyone would have nothing to eat could be more free and unrestrained, like a cloud, leisurely and easy-going, so she named him "Yun"
He was worried that this girl who was always pestering him and who was not as willful as the girl from the orphanage would mess up a lot of things without him, so he hoped that she could envelop his cloud like smoke so that he could protect her at all times. So he named her, "Smoke"
How wonderful everything should be.
"You said that, right?"
Ning Yan squatted down, touched the person with a bright smile in the photo, and murmured.
Those books and TV dramas all talked about what happens when people encounter life and death, but now that this kind of thing really happened, she only found it funny.
Even if the tears have already burst.
Parting in life and farewell in death.
The smoke disappears and the clouds disperse.
