Meng Dongxue's sudden hug made my smile suddenly stiffen. My hands were spread out like chicken claws, and I didn't even know where to put them. She cried so freely, and I could only let her hold me and cry.
Her face was pressed against my chest, and I tried hard not to let my heart beat faster, because it was still a bit embarrassing. But the more I think about it, the more I can't control it. A few minutes later, she was still crying, and my half-raised hand was almost stiff. If the old couple walked to the door at this moment, they would probably close the door for us silently.
I tried to use my sense of humor to resolve the embarrassment at the moment, so I said, stop crying, you will wet my clothes. Aunt Xu will laugh at me and drool later. This trick really worked. Although Meng Dongxue was still crying, she was still amused by my nonsensical words. Then she gradually stopped crying. After she stopped crying, she put her hands on my shoulders and moved her head away from my chest. But when she left, she didn't look at me at all. Instead, she sat on the edge of the bed, silently lowering her head, stroking the hair on her forehead, and said nothing.
I must admit, I quite like this girl. Maybe my love is very superficial, firstly because of good looks, and secondly because of kind-heartedness. But in that era, there are some things that I can only stop at. She and I have both come to this village temporarily, and sooner or later, we will leave separately.
So I stood up from the floor, whistled in a relaxed manner, and walked around the house aimlessly. Meng Dongxue always lowered her head, either playing with her fingers or rubbing her hair. But from her face, although her eyes were a little swollen from crying just now, the expression on her entire face, apart from being frightened, There is also a shy look. I don't know if her shyness was due to her temporary temper and my hug just now. In fact, it wasn't really a hug, because she was holding me from the beginning to the end.
In order to relax the awkward atmosphere in the room that was about to explode, I smiled and said to her, just now... uh... don't take it to heart, I understand, you are afraid. I owe you a favor tonight, and I'm really sorry for causing you so much irritation.
Meng Dongxue still didn't raise her head, but nodded slightly and said "hmm" softly. The atmosphere once again condensed due to her cold appearance. So I smiled and said to her again, now I have taken care of everything here, and it is just past midnight. Let's go back to Aunt Xu's house now, and we can rest a little longer. So I walked to the door and signaled that we could leave now. After hearing this, she got off the bed, still lowering her head, and rubbing her hair with both hands, as if twisting it. When I walked to the door, I pointed to the soul-calling flag leaning against the wall and said, all the ghosts here have dropped their flags at this moment. I just need to wait until dawn tomorrow and find a corner to send them away.
I also said that these people are not bad people, but they were defined as bad people in that era. Just like me, I am not a bad person per se, but in times like this, I am at least not a good person. After saying that, I smiled bitterly, because the person I rescued tonight was someone who thought I was not a good person.
Meng Dongxue then spoke. She said, don't say that, you are a good person and you are willing to help others. After speaking, he looked up at me timidly, then quickly lowered his head.
I am also an inexperienced young man. Why do I seem to be much thicker-skinned than her at this moment? But her words made my heart feel warm. Because what she said was exactly the promise I made to my master when I became a disciple. I wanted to be a good person and I wanted to help others. Over the years, although everyone knew that I was helping others, Meng Dongxue was the first person to tell me in person in such a tone, which made me very touched and happy.
So I took her downstairs to leave. It was already too late now, and we didn't want to make a fuss between the old couple. If anything happened, I would just come back tomorrow to explain it specifically. But just when we walked downstairs, God went crazy and it suddenly started raining heavily.
On a dark winter night, walking on a muddy mountain road in heavy rain is undoubtedly an act of seeking death. So Meng Dongxue and I stood silently by the cowshed to hide from the rain, waiting until we were younger before leaving. But the rain seemed to show no sign of stopping. It was very cold outside the house. The two of us stood upright by the cowshed. The old man and the old woman would probably treat us as ghosts when they came out to use the toilet. So I suggested, otherwise, we should go back inside and wait for a while, it's windy outside.
Just like that, Meng Dongxue and I went upstairs again. It's just that after I sent her to the house, I didn't follow her in. I said you should rest first while I cool off outside. After saying that, I closed the wooden door, but didn't lock it. In fact, it's not that I'm not afraid of the cold, but I'm afraid of the embarrassment of you being silent and me being silent. It's better to give her some space to avoid getting along with her when we meet in the future.
I sat on the floor leaning against the wall next to the door. There were no stars in the rainy sky, it was pitch black, but I always focused my attention on that darkness. I don't know what I'm looking at. Maybe my eyes are looking forward, but my heart is thinking about other things. But if I were asked to recall, I don’t remember at all what I was thinking in my heart at that time, or nothing at all. I only remember that about an hour later, the rain still didn’t stop, but Meng Dongxue opened the door and walked out, sat next to me, and without saying a word, she rested her head on my shoulder.
That night, we stayed like this in silence until dawn. It was raining outside, and after being soaked by the rain, the air was mixed with the fragrance of earth, but it also contained the stinking smell of cow dung and urine from the cowshed below. There was also a summoning flag beside me that did not suit the scene. In the night wind, accompanied by the night, it sways gently. This seemingly weird scene turned out to be the first warm and romantic memory in my life.
When Meng Dongxue was leaning against me, she seemed to have taken a nap for an hour or two, because she would occasionally twitch her shoulders slightly. But I didn't sleep all night. After dawn, I heard the sound of the old couple opening the door in the distance, so I excused myself to pee, and Meng Dongxue took her head away from my shoulders, leaving only a long pressure on my shoulders. The touch of life and the smell of her body.
I told the old man that everything has been solved, but your bullpen probably needs to be moved. Regardless of whether you want to move away, you still have to find a way to dig out the ground under the cowshed that has been soaked in feces and urine for many years, because there are many dead people buried there. Covering humiliating human corpses with feces and urine, there is no guarantee that something will happen in the future.
The old man also confirmed another guess of mine. He recalled that when he suppressed bandits decades ago, those bandits were indeed killed in this month and almost within these days. After explaining all this, I asked Meng Dongxue, do you want to go back to Aunt Xu’s house with me? She still acted like a shy little girl and said, let me go back first and she would leave later.
Although I didn't understand why she did this, I left first. Originally, I thought that if the relationship between me and her was separated by a piece of paper before, then everything that happened last night should be said to be a bit broken. Even though before yesterday, I only had a one-sided crush on Meng Dongxue, I had no idea what she thought of me. But the hug last night, and her coming out on her own and leaning against me without saying a word, wasn't this expressing something to me? Or maybe it's all my own fault, and maybe the little girl is just scared.
That day I returned to Aunt Xu's house and told Ji Youan and her roommate that I had cleaned the house, so they could rest assured. They thanked each other again and again, especially Ji Youan, whose overwhelming gratitude could not be faked. Now I feel that at least the misunderstandings between her and I have been eliminated because of this help. As a thank you, I don't know what was wrong with Ji Youan. She actually took off the leader's badge on her chest and said she would give this to me. I was too embarrassed to say anything, so I accepted it without a smile. From then on, I had this little thing in my bag that I never took out again.
I didn't sleep all night. Ji Youan and the others occupied my bed, so I could only go to the door and sit on the chair to sleep. But I couldn't sleep no matter what. I got up to read a book, but I couldn't read it. Occasionally I walked to the door and looked around, but I didn't see Meng Dongxue on the way home. In short, this was the first time I felt anxious like this, which troubled me very much. However, I didn’t know where all this trouble came from.
I stayed anxious until the evening, when Aunt Xu's big yellow dog barked in the distance. When I saw it, it was Meng Dongxue who was back. For some reason, I stood up without any fuss and stood stiffly like a receptionist. When she passed by me, I originally wanted to ask her where she had been today and how she was doing, but she just gave me a slight smile, then passed me directly, and went into the room to chat and laugh with Ji Youan and the others.
Hey, it seems that maybe I have thought too much.
