Unknowingly, Bai Xingshuang seemed to have returned to Fox King City, and she suddenly remembered the days in Fox King City.
She has been away from Fox King City for so long, and she rarely thinks about the past. For a person like her who is cold and unfeeling by nature, she probably doesn't like to remember things. Maybe she only knows what missing is after she has been away from home for a long time.
She doesn't know what her mother Bai Mengzhu is doing now? How is she doing? When her younger brother Jun Xingzhou ascended the throne, she didn't even stay to watch the ceremony. She just handed him the Fox King's ring and hurriedly left the Fox King's city.
She left so hurriedly and decisively, just because she didn't want to regret it, and she didn't want to make each other sad by procrastinating.
For her, a child who has never come out, home is sometimes a constraint. It restricts her growth and makes her cling to her own will, becoming a frog in a well and a flower in a greenhouse.
She doesn't want to be bound to Fox King City her whole life. She wants to go out and see the world and find what she really wants in her heart.
Over the years, she has been pushed to the highest position in the fox clan. She has been the fox king for so many years, but she doesn't know what she wants?
Many choices are not what she wants. Many choices are the result of having no choice.
She became the Fox King because her mother wanted her to become the Fox King. She needed to protect her mother and younger brother, and keep her position as the Fox King of the Jun family. Almost none of it was her own choice.
Growing up, the only thing she could choose for herself was the bunch of candied haws.
Her elder brother, Jun Xuelou, took her young daughter to Demon World City. It was the most lively carnival day in Demon World City every year - Demon Carnival.
Because she was too young, she could not see the lively feast. She sat on her brother's neck, and his small hands were tightly held by him. She was a step above everyone else, so she could clearly see the bustling scene in front of her.
There was an old man selling candied haws in the crowd. The children around him all gathered around him, looking up at the candied haws he was selling with greedy eyes. They grabbed the adults' hands and begged them to buy them for themselves.
The strings of bright red candied haws, in the eyes of children, are like some kind of temptation in the world, with bright and warm colors, looking so coquettish and charming in the noisy dark night.
The alluring sweetness floats from the air, with the fragrance of honey and the faint fragrance of flowers, making the children jump for joy. If they get it, they seem to have the most beautiful things in the world.
Human greed often starts with a bunch of candied haws.
She pointed to the old man selling candied haws in the crowd and asked her brother to buy her a bunch of candied haws for the first time.
Bai Xingshuang has almost never asked for anything from others since she was a child. Perhaps because of her status, her family members are very careful with her, for fear of hurting her, so they are always extra kind to her and pamper her.
And she seems to have been particularly precocious since she was a child because of her special status. She knew why they tried so hard to please her and be nice to her. It was because she was always different from them. She was not the biological flesh and blood of the Fox King's father.
Because she knew that she was not Fox King's father's biological flesh and blood, she became particularly sensitive. She warned herself that the Jun family was good enough to her, so she couldn't ask for anything from them? I should try my best to integrate into this family, and I should try my best to be like the daughter of Father Fox King.
The first time she asked her brother to buy her a bunch of candied haws, he also smiled so broadly.
He reached out his hand and rubbed her head lovingly. Seeing her immersed in eating candied haws, a relieved smile appeared on his face.
Perhaps sometimes, her demands from others can actually make the other person feel at ease, because she finally treats him as a family member and is no longer so cautious and wants nothing.
Thinking of Jun Xuelou's smile to her back then, she couldn't help but smile, and a line of clear tears slipped unknowingly from her tightly closed eyes.
Then she thought of Lan Jin again, and how many times this female commander had stood in front of her. No matter how strong she was, Lan Jin would stand in front of her at all costs to protect her from danger.
These seemed to be what she, the commander of the royal city's guards, should do, and she, the fox king, had always thought so. But at some point, she felt that even if Lan Jin was the commander of the guards, there was no need to do this. She almost He risked his life to protect her, the fox king, every time without hesitation or thought.
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After all, Lan Jin is a living being, and she should be afraid in the face of danger. She should not sacrifice her life in vain for others, but every time she will stand in front of her desperately, and her perseverance always makes people feel sad. move.
Then she thought of the cave in the Valley of Evil Spirits, Lan Jin's unspeakable words, and the rainy night before parting, Lan Jin holding her hand on the corridor, reluctant to leave.
All of this has long gone beyond the duties of a royal city guard commander. She doesn't know if she was right in choosing her to be her guardian?
When Lan Jin said that she didn't want to be the guardian of other fox kings, but only wanted to be her guardian, she seemed to understand some things at once, but those feelings were not deep enough to scratch her. Heart, piercing her bones.
Since it is not too deep, there is still the possibility of change. Perhaps Lan Jin was just used to being with her, and when she followed Jun Xingzhou for a long time, she would transfer this loyalty to him.
Maybe it was all just her overthinking. Lan Jin was just a loyal person. Even if she was her own master, she had to obey him till the end.
She raised her lips and smiled, suddenly feeling that even though she and Lan Jin had been in the same royal city for so many years, she had never gotten to know her well.
What kind of person is she? What kind of past did you have? What kind of environment did Lan Jin grow up in? What family does she have? Are there any brothers or sisters at home? What was she thinking? Bai Xingshuang doesn't know everything.
It's not that she doesn't care about Lan Jin. It can be said that she doesn't care about anyone except her family, because she owes her family something and was born to repay them, so she has to be responsible for them. .
She never cared about the rest of the people. She built a wall in her heart and placed herself alone inside. She didn't want too many people to enter the wall. She had a strong connection with the people and things outside. Alienation.
Lan Jin was brought back to Fox King City by Queen Mother Bai Mengzhu. When she first saw Lan Jin, she was just a girl with a slim figure and melancholy eyes. It felt like a gust of wind could blow her away.
Standing among the female guards, she looked too weak.
Bai Xingshuang even thought that she was someone who couldn't carry a knife to kill. In front of a group of smart and capable female guards, Lan Jin would be squeezed out of Fox King City in a short time.
In the following years, they
Never met again.
She didn't know how much Lan Jin suffered in the Fox King's City. When she saw Lan Jin again, the weak girl had become a tall and heroic guard commander of the royal city.
She even doubted in her heart whether a woman could shoulder the heavy responsibility of protecting Fox King City? But Bai Mengzhu was optimistic about Lan Jin, so she never interfered in this matter.
After that, Lan Jin began to come into her sight, but more often, Lan Jin still appeared next to Bai Mengzhu. She seemed to have become Bai Mengzhu's confidant. Whenever anything happened, Bai Mengzhu would say to go to Commander Lan.
Lan Jin lived up to expectations. Under her leadership, the entire Fox King City was in order. This seemingly weak woman, a woman who needed others to protect her, turned out to be a powerful leader who could protect the city.
Bai Xingshuang misjudged this point, and afterwards, she also admired Lan Jin a little in her heart.
However, they still didn't interact much. The only intersection they had was when they met. Lan Jin saluted her and said goodbye in a hurry without stopping.
Sometimes he met her at his mother's place, and sometimes he met her on the corridor of the palace. Every time, Lan Jin bowed his head to her very politely.
She had never looked at the young female leader carefully until one time, when Lan Jin was saluting, she secretly raised her head to look at her. Unexpectedly, Bai Xingshuang's eyes fell on her this time.
As a master and servant, their status is very different. Logically speaking, she cannot look at Bai Xingshuang when she is saluting, but because many times, Bai Xingshuang never sets his eyes on the person who is saluting, and always looks at him coldly and arrogantly. ahead.
This time Lan Jin thought she still wouldn't look at her. She wanted to raise her eyes to take a peek at the cold and arrogant princess, but her eyes met hers.
Lan Jin hurriedly withdrew his gaze and lowered his head hurriedly.
But it was just a quick glance, and Bai Xingshuang was still shocked.
She unexpectedly found that the female commander was too graceful and quiet, and the white armor seemed a little out of place on her body.
She has gentle lips, a face with no sharp edges, and a pair of gloomy lavender eyes that are exceptionally soft. Her slender eyelashes are fluffy and hang timidly in front of her soft eyes. But when she frowns, There will be a kind of firm determination in his eyes.
At this time, Lan Jin was an out-and-out commander, and no one dared to doubt her speed in drawing the sword.
Bai Xingshuang let out a long sigh, her long and messy hair hanging outside the tub. She raised her slender right hand and looked at the white light-emitting contract totem in her palm. She didn't understand why she didn't cancel the contract totem with Lan Jin.
Maybe she just wanted Lan Jin to lift it by herself. When one day, she decides to become Jun Xingzhou's guardian, she will naturally lift this contract totem and serve her new king.
For Lan Jin, she didn't feel relieved. It was as if something was sinking into her heart, sinking deeper and deeper, making her feel sour and tingling.
"Lan-Jin-" She looked up at the contract totem in her palm and called out Lan Jin's name.
Then her whole body sank into the water. She wanted to be quiet, let the gentle water completely wrap herself up, and not think about anything, not think about anything...
Don't think about anything.
