On the day Su Mingzheng learned that her mother had cancer, she collapsed and called Zhou Yunruo frantically.
Then, within two or three days, Su Mingzheng heard the news about Zhou Yunruo's relationship with Zhang Daide. It was said that it was the parents of both parties who brought them together, and they were a perfect match for each other.
Su Mingzheng drove directly to the office to find Zhou Yunruo. Zhou Yunruo's workaholic became even more serious and he did not leave the office until late at night. Su Mingzheng blocked her on the street late at night.
"Yunruo, my mother is sick, can you stay with me?" Su Mingzheng has become accustomed to Zhou Yunruo's company, just like everyone has a spiritual pillar in their heart.
"Su Mingzheng, we're done." Zhou Yunruo's tone became even stranger after not seeing him for a while.
"What can we end? We never started! Or do you want to say that we are friends? Do you want to break up the relationship?" Su Mingzheng went crazy.
"Then... let's break off the relationship." Su Mingzheng held Zhou Yunruo's hand in formal professional attire, but did not move a step.
"Mom is really seriously ill, can you stay with me?" Su Mingzheng didn't even realize what kind of blow she had suffered, and she still wanted to drag Zhou Yunruo away.
But she couldn't pull her, and Zhou Junruo didn't want to. Once Zhou Junruo didn't want to, how could she force her? Later, Zhou Junruo's colleague who also returned late came out of the door of the building and interrupted the two of them.
In the days that followed, while Su Mingzheng took care of her hospitalized mother, she was filled with sorrow and pain all the time. She could not sleep at night. She had to turn on the lights and stare at the incandescent fluorescent lamps to fall asleep in an extremely uneasy state. And I always wake up as tired as when I went to bed.
Soon Su Mingzheng lost weight rapidly, and she looked so haggard that even Su's mother, who was really sick, was worried about her. But at that time, Su Mingzheng didn't know her mother's worries, and she forced her smile to encourage her mother to be brave enough to receive treatment. .
Mother Su accepted the treatment tenaciously and was determined to defeat the disease. With all the resources of the Su family, various therapies were used on Mother Su. Although it increased the stakes for overcoming the disease, it was also a heavy torture.
Su Mingzheng had a very good relationship with her mother. She saw her mother being tortured by chemicals injected into her bloodstream, causing her to vomit constantly and losing her appetite. She saw her mouth ulcerate and her hair fall out in bunches due to strong radiation exposure.
She was afraid...very afraid...she was afraid that her mother was going to die.
It happened that Zhou Yunruo came back to school at this time, and Su Mingzheng once secretly broke into her dormitory late at night. In order to make full use of the school library, Zhou Yunruo chose to live in the school dormitory, but in a single room.
Under Su Mingzheng's frantic knocking, Zhou Yunruo was forced to open the door.
As soon as the door opened, Su Mingzheng hugged Zhou Yunruo's shoulders tightly, rested her head on her shoulders, and cried wildly with excitement.
"My mother is dying...can you not leave now...don't break off our relationship now?"
Mother Su and Zhou Yunruo are the two most important women in Su Mingzheng's life.
Zhou Yunruo remained motionless and silent from beginning to end. He didn't speak until the end: "It's very late. Can you leave? Don't disturb the people in the dormitory next door."
Desperate and depressed, Su Mingzheng just wants to grab any straw. At this time, she has no self-esteem, only countless entanglements that abandon her dignity.
There were more than one late-night break-in, and it became increasingly difficult for Zhou Yunruo to drive people away. Su Mingzheng always begged in various ways and kept detailing every detail of the past between the two. One time, Su Mingzheng drank wine before coming over. After being pestered for a long time, she even knelt down to Zhou Yunruo.
Su Mingzheng, who had been proud since childhood, not only put aside her pride, but also voluntarily rolled with the dust.
At this moment, Su's mother's worry finally broke out. She told Su Mingzheng her concerns on the hospital bed and asked what happened to her beloved daughter. Su's mother also noticed Su Mingzheng's abnormality.
Only then did Su Mingzheng realize how incompetent she was as a daughter, who actually made her mother, who was struggling with illness, worry about her.
She thought about it all day. At night, Su Mingzheng stayed with her in bed, and the mother and daughter had a secret conversation beside the hospital bed. Su Mingzheng told her mother that she liked a girl.
Mother Su just touched her daughter's head.
"Who didn't encounter one or two failed relationships when they were young? Failure is the mother of success."
Mother Su, who had lost her hair and was wearing a headscarf, spoke in a calm tone and showed no fuss on her face.
"Ming Zheng likes Zhou Yunruo, right? It doesn't matter, you can meet someone better in the future."
"Don't let mom worry." Mom won't be able to accompany you in the future... Mother Su didn't say this hidden meaning, but Su Mingzheng had already started to cry.
Su's mother cried calmly, while Su Mingzheng's face muscles twisted and she cried ferociously. Mother and daughter cried loudly.
Later, Su Mingzheng stopped pestering Zhou Yunruo, settled down, and devoted herself to taking care of Su's mother, staying in the hospital almost all day.
During the three months in the hospital, she thoroughly experienced life, old age, illness, death, joys and sorrows. And Su Guoming often came to the hospital and sat there for hours. He looked older every day. Although he was rich, he couldn't save his wife.
The cancer that Su's mother suffered from was notoriously vicious. Even with all the treatments, it still took her life in just three months.
Su Guoming built an exclusive cemetery for his wife, named "Qian Yuan", and Su's mother was named Guo Qingqian.
Su Mingzheng participated in all the work of sending her mother off until the final funeral. Su Mingzheng wore black clothes at the funeral. According to people who saw her, she looked like a marketing figure.
After everything was over, Su Mingzheng recalled that Zhou Yunruo did not show up for the funeral, and she thought: Hey, it seems destined.
In the next two years, they were just best friends who had broken up with each other and had nothing to do with each other.
The period two years ago was the darkest day in Su Mingzheng's life. She lost two of the most important women in her life at the same time. She was able to survive it, and even her bad friends had to praise her in a roundabout way or outright.
Fang Fanghan said of her: "What a tough guy."
Liu Weiting said: "Ming Zheng is a strong girl."
She seems to have survived and recovered, and is still the proud queen Su Mingzheng, but──
When Su Guoming was about to marry Huang Wanying, she was really, really unhappy. If he hadn't been his father, Su Mingzheng would have rushed up to him and scolded him directly: Heartless! shameless! How could I forget my mother! ? How could it be...so fast...
Then she became single for Zhou Yunruo.
How can she fall in love when no one else can make her feel loved?
Feeling the salty smell of the sea breeze, Su Mingzheng faced the dark starless sky. The sea and sky were both black, and the boundaries were unclear.
She can miss and admire her mother all her life, but how should she feel towards Zhou Yunruo?
Hate is definitely there, it has always been there. I hated her ruthlessness and resolutely chose to end the relationship. I never looked back even once, even though I humbly begged her to come back.
At first, every time I dreamed about it at midnight, images of Zhou Yunruo saying: "I can't go on like this with you anymore" and "Let's break off our relationship." would come to mind without warning. Such heartless and hurtful feelings, for Su Mingzheng It's like a nightmare.
There was also Zhang Daide. At that time, whenever she thought of Zhang Daide's existence, Su Mingzheng's deep jealousy surged out like lava.
──Why can you easily get what I can’t get?
This kind of imbalance can make people hate everything in the world.
But two years later, Su Mingzheng no longer wanted to have any contact with Zhou Yunruo. At most, she would cause trouble for those two people when they met.
So, what is it that you can’t let go of?
The phone was still in Su Mingzheng's pocket. There were probably many more messages from Zhang Shanke, but Su Mingzheng didn't want to take it out at all.
Just like how she used to feel every time she dumped her experimental date.
There was an emotion in Su Mingzheng's heart, which should be a problem that everyone who has been broken up with will have -
Everyone who has been broken up wants to find out: "Has she ever loved me? Did she love me at that time? What is it that she doesn't love..."
Stuck in a dead end, dig into the answers to these questions, turn yourself into a love detective, and analyze the clues.
What's more, Su Mingzheng's partner is someone like Zhou Yunruo, who is too deep-set and self-respecting. She may seem weak but can be cruel. For example, she is very cruel to herself and urges herself to complete various tasks. A high standard requirement.
So it’s even harder to guess…
"Has Zhou Yunruo ever been in love?"
Even after Su Mingzheng gave up contact with her, this issue was still brought up over and over again to think about and examine.
It seems there is, right?
right?
Every smile, every word before the relationship between the two broke off has incomparable meaning after the breakup. She must have loved her...otherwise, why would she smile like that? Otherwise, why did she say that? Otherwise, why didn't she push me away?
Why have you always cared about me for so many years? Why...why haven't you had a boyfriend or a girlfriend for so many years?
If Zhou Yunruo was in love... then when did he stop loving her?
I must have done something wrong.
If I do better, she won't love her anymore?
Why don't you talk like that to her, listen to her, and work hard, then you won't──
Lose her.
Yes, just losing her, Su Mingzheng felt desolate in her heart as she faced the sound of sea waves.
Maybe Zhou Yunruo is unwilling and unwilling to obey his family's arrangements. Is this possible?
Perhaps she has persisted for the two of them long enough, and Su Mingzheng cannot fully understand the pressure placed on her by the family behind her.
If my side did better, would the outcome be different?
It's not that Su Mingzheng doesn't have aspirations in this direction.
Why does she play the song "Mapleleafrag"? She can play it familiarly without any music score.
Is it similar to the reason why you can play "Gorgeous Song No. 1"?
Will Zhou Yunruo miss Su Mingzheng?
Missing secretly?
It was obvious that she was being sentimental, thinking that she was so heartless after breaking up the relationship, how could it be like this, and still thinking like this... Su Mingzheng wanted to laugh at herself, so she picked up the broken wood on the beach and threw it into the sea with all her strength.
But the memory of the crying little girl is still so clear.
The stubborn girl who stays alone after school to tidy up the desks and chairs for her classmates is still so heart-wrenching.
The girl relaxing and laughing in front of the piano is so beautiful.
The shy girl in the mountain villa is so evocative.
Even the woman in college who always took the initiative to care about her and nagged her every time she was disappointed made people feel that she was loved and loved so much.
Not because of hate,
It was love that sentenced Su Mingzheng to a sentence of loneliness, leaving Su Mingzheng single.
Why do people in the world think "love" that is warm, sweet, and makes people better can make people lonely.
Recalling the excitement, Su Mingzheng began to pick up broken wood on the beach one by one and threw it into the sea as hard as he could, as if he was throwing his thoughts into the sea, and unconsciously couldn't stop.
Su Ronghan has been staying by her sister's side, quietly watching her stunned on the beach. She has been like this the whole afternoon, and the initiator is Zhou Yunruo, and everything begins with Zhou Yunruo.
Su Ronghan had never been in love before. She didn't know that the power of love could be so great. Even two years apart, it could make a normal person almost crazy.
She spent the afternoon imagining: How influential can love be? It makes people just live in another world and forget about the people and things in the real world. Su Mingzheng was like a living model, allowing her to see it up close and personal.
So she stood quietly and watched Su Mingzheng from a distance. Because the light was dim, Su Mingzheng's figure was half-dark. When Su Mingzheng threw the first piece of broken wood, she was startled. He thought it would be a good idea to let the long-repressed person vent, so he stood there.
But when Su Mingzheng threw pieces of branches and broken wood one after another, with such force, throwing with all his strength, and when the number of driftwood thrown by Su Mingzheng exceeded more than ten pieces, Su Ronghan couldn't stand. Live──
She'll hurt herself!
Without thinking, Su Ronghan had already started. She ran to Su Mingzheng with all her strength and hugged her sister with all her strength.
Suddenly her movements were stopped and she was trapped. Su Mingzheng reflexively tried to struggle and throw the person away. She had a fitness habit and had studied martial arts, so it was probably not difficult to do so, but as soon as she moved, Suddenly, miraculously, she realized that the person buried in her arms was her sister. Su Mingzheng, who had entered a state of forgetfulness, stopped struggling for fear of hurting the little white rabbit.
Su Ronghan hugged her tightly and buried her face in her body, not wanting to let go.
Unconsciously, Su Ronghan started to cry and leaned on Su Mingzheng. Her tears directly soaked Su Mingzheng's clothes.
Feeling the wet and hot touch, and noticing Su Ronghan's shoulders shaking as she cried, Su Mingzheng suddenly thought: She has made her family worry again.
"Okay, don't cry." Su Mingzheng stroked the little white rabbit's fur. This was a completely normal sound.
