He looked at her, who had been calm for a long time, and gently slipped to the ground along his clean clothes.
Looking at her miserable posture, with her hands lying on the cold ice-like ground and her head hanging down, she did not cry, but just sighed - "What kind of life have I been living these years? I have suffered so much since I was a child. With a cold eye, my own father treated me like I was just another family’s daughter. He was so harsh and beat and scolded me, which made me worried every day. But this is not the most heartbreaking thing. The most heartbreaking thing is that he treated my brother, He doesn't treat my third sister like this, nor does he treat my fourth and fifth brothers like this, but he is the only one who has the heart to be cruel to me.
He even took me as a gift to the royal family. At that time, I was so young and he married me. "
"And my mother, who I cared about the most, became heartbroken and died of depression after knowing that I was deeply persecuted! So I endured all the suffering and eked out an ignoble existence inside these four walls. I thought , I am the one who has been abandoned by the world, but I met the empress, and she is my warmth."
She raised her hands, put them in her arms, and sneered, "But this warmth is fleeting."
"Empress, she is gone, and so are my flesh and blood. Everything I care about has left me."
Xiyi suddenly stepped in by mistake and saw her lying on the ground in such a fragile posture.
Feeling affection in his heart, he said anxiously: "Girl, get up quickly. You have just had a miscarriage and the ground is cold!"
These sad words made the prince, who was already feeling guilty, clench his hands and squat down to help her. Unfortunately, Yi came to comfort her at this moment, but she remained motionless and murmured - "I'm fine." !」
Unfortunately, the situation was different, so he bowed his head and left.
She straightened up slightly, turned around, crumpled Wan Yanyong's fine clothes into a ball in her hands, and tugged on the jade ribbon around his waist. She raised her head and looked at him. The hazy mist had long been mixed with hers. Love and hate were intertwined, and she whispered: "Wan Yanyong..."
She didn't call him "King", but called him by his first name.
"Do you know what I care about? Have you ever cared about what I care about? You always say that you care about me, that you want me to be happy every day, and that you want me to be the most carefree one, but What’s the truth?”
"When I didn't want to come to the palace, it was you who forced me to come. Back in Liaoyang, bandits entered the palace and robbed and killed Yun Chaan, who died in infancy and the empress had a miscarriage. You never left her side, but I played on the porch all night. Feng, you never looked at me. You gave me your dead child and asked me to make arrangements for him. You were afraid that your mother would be scared and sad, but do you know? I was only sixteen years old at the time. When I hugged him, Covered in blood, how scared and helpless am I? Have you ever cared?" New
"I just stayed on the porch all night. On the second day, my aunt saw how embarrassed I was and put a blanket over me."
"As time goes by, when you think about this, you still say that Mrs. Li is indestructible and as strong as a rock, but the truth is that no matter how strong I am, I am still a human being, a woman, an ordinary woman."
"You care about me, so you want to occupy me. You care about me, because you saw Mr. Li frame me, and I just fought back, and you said that I am ignorant and vicious; you saw that my idiot father was here I was beaten into that state while I was pregnant, and there was nothing you could do about it?"
"You care about me, so you let your beloved concubine spread scented feathers, criticize me, and plot against me; you let your eldest daughter insult and slander me; then you see me as pregnant, don't you? I know how to send some people to stop the imperial concubine from returning..."
"There are many more things! Many, many things. They are all heart-breaking things. So Wanyanyong, tell me, what is love? What is affection?"
"You mean, hurt me hard? Hurt everything I care about?"
"You said you would let me be free, but all the rules are made for me. I have never been your exception..."
She gently took off the jewelry on her head and placed it in Wan Yanyong's hand. Then she took off the gorgeous clothes on the outside and the gauze clothes on the inside. Her loose hair sticks to her collarbone, and that look makes your heart flutter.
"Wan Yanyong, I don't want these fine clothes, gold or silver, I don't want them. I want myself. I want you to see clearly that I am a human being, a living person."
After saying that, she only put on the thin blanket placed on the imperial concubine's couch, sat in front of the dressing table, and stared at her figure and face in the mirror.
She knew that she was no longer that girl, but a real woman. These changes had a lot to do with her body. She had never noticed that she had become plump before. Her proud and upright figure, Appearing in the bronze mirror.
Wan Yanyong stood and looked at her for a while, then put down the things in his hands and walked out.
She gently opened a wooden box, took out the pair of seven-treasure necklaces that Ming Xuanlin had left, and placed them on the case.
Wanyanyong had been out for a long time, and when he reached the corner of the corridor, he suddenly saw a wooden prayer sign hanging on a pomegranate tree. He reached out and pulled a piece of it, with the inscription on it: "Buying clouds and good days, predicting good times. The name is Ru." "Yan" is the word "Ru Qiu Si". I am gentle and respectful day and night, thinking about it now. I still miss Kong Ji, and I am here! Li Ye gave birth to a son, and suddenly I asked for fire."
——This is Tao Qian's poem "Mingzi", which mainly expresses the poet's expectations for his children.
Wanyanyong felt a sore nose when he saw this.
Looking back on these years, Li Qingya never really accepted him in her heart. Maybe he never really cared about her pain and only focused on his own struggle. Now, she was thinking about the birth of this child, but what she waited for was in vain. It would be heartbreaking pain for any mother!
Wan Yanyong felt guilty and really didn't want to abandon her, so he turned back, walked gently into the house, hugged her from the side, and put his hands on her rosy face.
"Qingya, what you don't know is that you have always been my exception, Wan Yanyong. You are the one who doesn't have to worry about so much and the one who doesn't have to suffer the least. You are my wife, although you have not I express my feelings, but I have gradually felt that you have moved closer to me. It is my fault. Over the years, I have only focused on maintaining family harmony and found a foolproof plan, ignoring your pain."
"I have not only affection for you, but also the responsibility of a husband. Qingya..."
He held her wet cheek in front of him: "Qingya, I think, how can I prevent you from being wronged in the future? It's in vain for me to talk about it now, I will slowly change and really make you feel , I, the Iron Prince, also have feelings."
"With the passing of Mingxuan, I have been responsible for her for the rest of my life, so I will cherish you with all my heart and take good care of you."
Qingya asked back: "Your Majesty, don't you feel bad? Do you love your wife so much?"
"My heart aches, I've been heartbroken, but what can I do? I can only live up to her death by being good and protecting what she cares about. I can only be good and gather strength to save Wan Yanliang's life." The forces pushed him out of power and pushed him to a point where he could no longer make a comeback!"
Qingya covered the tears in her eyes and sat quietly in front of him.
After a long time, he stood up, bent down and hugged her up. He glanced at the dazzling bracelet on the corner of the table and took it away. Then he picked her up and walked towards the bed.
At this time, his promise to Pusan Xiangling had been completely forgotten in the warmth.
At this time, Xiang Ling was leisurely teasing the fish in the water dish. The waiter next to her came to ask her if she wanted to prepare dinner, but she shook her head - "When have you seen this before? The king is gone." Have you ever come out to Li's place? Even if you prepare this dinner, it will be wasted. I have long been used to it!"
Hearing this, the waiter retreated, Xiang Ling's eyes gradually turned red, and she raised her hand to extinguish the lamp next to her.
The next day, Qingya woke up and found that Wanyanyong had left. At some point, she put on Mingxuan's bracelet on her hand, and on her right hand was another one, which Wanyanyong had given to her before, but she refused. That one. And her original bracelet was completely missing.
Without further investigation, she got up with the help of the maid. She sat on the corridor and looked at the fish swimming in the pond beside her. Then she saw Li Xianke and Cui He walking in. They were planning to do this. I will return to Liaoyang that day and come here to inform her.
After sitting for a while, Xianke touched Cuihe's hand. Cuihe presented some handkerchiefs and fur hats made by herself. She said with a peaceful face and a bit of reluctance: "Girl, I thought that when I came to Jinan, I would be able to Seeing you happily carrying your child, I also prepared some small ones
The clothes the child wears are ready to be given to you, but now, I dare not take them out anymore, so I can only keep them in the room. "
"Girl, you are hurting yourself too much. Seeing you in such pain, I wish I could stay by your side and take care of you!"
Qingya pursed her lips and raised a slight smile: "I just did what I should do, it's not a hardship. I have good food and clothing, and I'm much better off than many people outside, so naturally it's not a hardship."
"So you two, don't worry too much about me. On the contrary, the fourth brother came with you. I have been sick and haven't been able to take care of you properly. Now that I am feeling better, you have to leave."
Xianke, looking at her poignant posture, said deeply: "Sister, we don't care, we just want to see you, but Xianke... I have seen you these days, you are not doing well. "Xianke knows that he is ashamed of his mother for not being able to protect his sister. If my sister is really so wronged, can Xianke take you home with her?"
Qingya looked at him kneeling down, so honest and upright, with a slightly unpredictable expression on her face - "What do you think Xian'er calls home?"
"It's where parents are kind and children and grandchildren are filial. It's where people unite to build a fortress. It's the place where you can be most free."
"Then...that being the case, has Li Shici ever been free? Have I ever been free?"
Xianke was stopped by a word, and stood up with his face bare.
After a long time, she spoke again: "Xianke, you don't know. Women usually don't have a home. The queen of the middle palace even calls her residence a palace. In it, every word and deed is controlled, and every move is under the nose of others. .”
