Zen's words made me feel very difficult to deal with. What she meant was that we should not have any doubts about each other's thoughts.
Otherwise, the seeds of doubt in the mind will grow bigger and bigger like cancer, affecting the thinking of both parties until it reaches an irreversible point.
Her doubting my ideas will form the seeds of doubting her in my mind, and vice versa. We must completely trust each other.
However, I trust her, but she no longer trusts me.
It can also be said that she began to doubt me three years ago, which led to me not completely trusting her and often wondering if she was with other excellent men.
She even doubted whether she really had an inexplicable relationship with Gongsun Tianqiang.
And my suspicion will increase her suspicion of me, just like a snowball, and eventually we will become enemies and our relationship will break down.
I have to curb the idea of doubting her, otherwise the consequences will be disastrous.
However, it is difficult for me to do it now that my heart is in a mess. She broke up with me yesterday, which made me suspicious.
If she really loved me, how could she break up so easily without even giving me a chance to explain?
"You are one soul. The soul will not doubt that it is the most pure and beautiful love in the world. It is all caused by your ego." Zen's voice came again.
Yes, that’s right, it’s all the mind.
Xiao Mengxin suspected that I was having an affair with He Huanhuan, and after we broke up, it also led me to suspect that her feelings for me were not pure, and that she didn't like men like me, but excellent rich people.
Later, Zen said that because my soul is feminine energy, it is easier to return to the inside, so my emotions play a leading role.
In other words, I have to suppress my doubts about her and control my emotions, so that her emotions will gradually stabilize until she gradually trusts me completely.
If she is emotionally unstable and I become suspicious, it will simply add fuel to the fire and expand into a situation that cannot be ended.
"Huh..." I lay on the bed and took a deep breath, feeling that it was difficult to fully trust.
But I kept telling myself in my mind to trust her and force myself to trust her, so that she would be less suspicious of me.
But there is still a thorny problem. Even if I completely trust Xiao Mengxin, it is useless.
If she encounters external factors, such as someone gossiping in her ear and instigating our relationship, causing her to doubt me, it will deepen my suspicion of her again.
This is simply a vicious cycle. It is very difficult to achieve the level of complete trust in each other. It is as difficult as climbing to the sky.
This makes me depressed, and I even want to give up on the path of twin flame union.
Then I asked Zen if there was a simple and convenient way for both parties to completely trust each other so that they would not be suspicious even if someone else was trying to sow discord.
Zen says there is no way. First of all, I have to restrain doubts and other distracting thoughts until the meditation practice deepens and completes the success of unity.
At that time, no power will be able to destroy our relationship.
I sighed and closed my eyes tiredly, and fell into a deep sleep. I had a lot of random dreams, which made me dizzy when I woke up.
The voice of He Huanhuan calling me to eat came from outside the door.
It's already seven o'clock. Today's plan is to send He Huanhuan to work in the morning, then go to see her elder brother, and then go to Xiao Mengxin to explain everything in the afternoon.
After washing up and sitting at the dining table to eat, He Huanhuan acted like a normal person, not letting my question about her liking me last night affect her mood at all.
"Brother An, what time will we be there later?" He Huanhuan looked at him and said with a smile.
"They go to work at nine o'clock, so we can just go out at eight-thirty." After I finished speaking, I added, "You can go to the dormitory today."
"Oh, okay." He Huanhuan pouted.
After eating, it was almost half past eight, and the eldest sister went out to work. She seemed to be in a bad mood, as if she was still struggling with Xiao Qilei's identity.
After eight o'clock, I helped He Huanhuan pack her daily necessities and went out. She put on the new clothes I bought yesterday, which looked very good.
After leaving the community, we took a taxi and headed towards the entrance of Fanli underground shopping mall.
Fanli is a well-known underground shopping mall in Hualian City. It is very large, with an area of more than 20,000 square meters, and has three floors. Most of the products on the underground floor are food, and there are many shops such as food courts.
Most of the second floor is electronic products and clothing, while the third floor mainly sells clothing. When I arrived at the location and went down from the entrance, I was completely stunned by the scene inside.
The crowds are very lively, and the people shopping in the mall are all young and handsome women. There are many couples holding hands, and it is full of sunshine and vitality.
Although the decoration style is not as good as that of high-end shopping malls outside, it is very fashionable and unique.
And when I walked inside, I found that the female saleswomen selling clothes were also very good-looking and fashionable. Not to mention their slim figures, most of them were wearing shorts with their legs exposed.
Or they were wearing black stockings, which dazzled me. I thought the temperature in this underground shopping mall was warm enough.
It's winter outside, but it's completely the same as summer inside, which makes He Huanhuan and I look a little silly in cotton-padded clothes.
I immediately dragged the cotton clothes off, and the same was true for He Huanhuan.
Da da da...
Suddenly, a beautiful girl with yellow hair wearing black shorts, with her belly button exposed on her upper body, ran past me and entered a nail salon.
"hiss..."
My arm suddenly felt pain, and I saw He Huanhuan squeezing my arm. I asked curiously, "Why are you squeezing me?"
"Huh." He Huanhuan glanced at the nail salon behind him, "Brother An, you really like beauties wearing black stockings. Your eyes are about to fall off."
"Ahem, what are you talking about?" I coughed and quibbled: "The main reason is that most of the girls here wear shorts and expose their thighs, and I'm a little uncomfortable with it."
"So you just keep looking at their big white legs?" He Huanhuan showed an expression of dissatisfaction, looked at her own legs and said: "Brother, my legs are much smoother, more delicate and fairer than theirs. If you want to see them, you can look at mine. , wait until one night I put on black stockings and let you see enough."
"You!" My heart skipped a beat, and I slapped her little head and said, "What are you talking about? I'm warning you, I don't care what they wear, but when you work here, I don't allow you to wear shorts and expose your legs."
Those girls use the euphemistic name of looking good in shorts to attract men's naked lustful gaze. They are scheming sluts. I don't want my sister to become such a woman.
"Humph, you are so stingy, brother." He Huanhuan said reluctantly: "Look, most of the girls here wear shorts and expose their thighs. The temperature is still so hot, I..."
"If I say no, I can't!" I said unceremoniously and did not allow her to retort: "I don't care what other women wear. It's fine if they don't wear clothes, but you must dress conservatively, otherwise you will Go back to your hometown, I won't care about you anymore."
I took a few steps forward quickly and pulled her behind me.
"Oh, okay brother..." He Huanhuan said in a long voice and came up to hold my arm. "Isn't it okay for me to listen to you? But it's okay for me to wear shorts that go below my knees, right? After all, it's too hot here."
"It's okay, it's definitely okay." After I said that, I felt that the control was too strict, and I was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable, so I said again: "Huanhuan, do you know that I am doing this for your own good? Look..."
I pointed at the greedy gaze of a young man in front of me and said: "Look at how greedy and lustful that man looks at the girl's big white legs. I am a man and I know what he is thinking, so I don't want your big white legs to be exposed." These gangsters are watching, and besides, you wouldn’t be willing to see me wearing revealing clothes and being watched by a woman.”
Originally, for us men, this is really the case. Women in other families just don’t wear clothes.
But my wife must dress perfectly and not let other men see her legs or sensitive parts. This is a sign of love.
As my younger sister, He Huanhuan, I certainly don’t want her to have her big white legs stared at by wolf-like men all day long. I’m also worried that Huanhuan will learn bad things and wear more and more revealing clothes in the future.
"Okay, I get it, you ink stain." He Huanhuan rolled her eyes at me and stared at the nail salon again.
I thought about it and said, "It's fine if you get your nails done. Except that you don't wear revealing clothes and you're not allowed to go to dirty places in bars. You can do whatever you want. Of course, you can't associate with unscrupulous people. You... .”
"Oh, okay, okay." He Huanhuan frowned and looked at me, "Why are you more ink-stained than my mother? You look like an old lady. Take me to that clothing store quickly."
"Ahem, I'm doing this for your own good. Besides, I'm not restricting your personal freedom." After retorting unwillingly, I dialed Xu Xiangfei's phone number and asked him where the store where he worked was located.
Xu Xiangfei was very happy when he learned that I had arrived. He said that the store was in the middle of the third floor, called Aimeili Clothing Store. He also said that it was very busy now and asked me to find it by myself, or he would pick me up in person.
I took He Huanhuan's hand and said, "Let's go."
But until more than 20 minutes ago, I couldn't find the store where Xu Xiangfei worked. The main reason was that the underground mall was too big, like a maze.
Not only could I not find the place, but I couldn’t find the exit from where I was wandering, and I felt like I was lost.
"Brother." He Huanhuan's forehead was sweating. "It's too confusing here. You'd better call him and ask him to pick us up."
I had no choice but to take out my phone and dial. After Xu Xiangfei answered the call, he hurriedly asked, "Xiao An, I just wanted to call you. Where have you been? Why haven't you arrived yet?"
"We're lost. It's hard to find here. It's too big." I looked around, my eyes lit up and I said, "I'm in front of a Ruili hair salon. Come and pick me up."
"Okay, just wait for me. I'll be there in five minutes." Xu Xiangfei hung up the phone after saying that.
He Huanhuan looked at the girls styling their hair in the barber shop in surprise and asked me, "Brother, I can always dye my hair in the future."
She looked like she wanted to blend into the fashionable city.
"Dye it a darker color, don't make it colorful." I said.
He Huanhuan wrinkled her nose at me and said that she could just call me daddy, just like a parent disciplining their children.
"Am I not your parent?" I said angrily.
Soon, Xu Xiangfei's happy call came from behind, "Xiao An, Huanhuan?"
I turned around to look, and my eyes lit up. I saw Xu Xiangfei wearing half sleeves, black plaid pants, beanie shoes, and a top hat on his head, looking very fashionable.
"Haha, okay, this outfit looks like a magician." I praised him.
"Haha, where is it?" Xu Xiangfei looked at He Huanhuan again and smiled and said, "We haven't seen each other for a year. Huanhuan has become so beautiful. She is really a woman."
"Brother Xu, you are also very handsome." He Huanhuan said politely.
"Come with me quickly. Huanhuan's image will definitely attract customers, the performance will be good, and we can make a lot of money." After Xu Xiangfei said that, he led us inside.
While chatting on the road, I asked about the salary in the store. Xu Xiangfei said that the basic salary is one thousand two thousand plus commission. Although the basic salary is not much, if the sales are good, he can earn three thousand a month.
