"Huh..." I took a deep breath with lingering fear, thinking about going home early tomorrow morning. It would be too dangerous to be outside.
Feeling a cold touch in my chest, I took out the Seven-Star Universe Card given to me by my grandma and murmured, "It seems that this treasure can only cover my cultivation realm, but not my aura, otherwise that thing You won’t even notice me.”
"Hey." I sighed and looked out the window dully. The moonlight was like cold water. After the shock just now, Xiao Mengxin's figure appeared in my mind again.
Lying on the bed, Xiao Mengxin's body fragrance still lingers on the quilt, which makes me love and hate it very much.
"Although you feel uncomfortable now, it would be fine if you really cultivated to the point where you can renounce love and desire." Zen comforted me and said: "By then, love will no longer be everything to you, but just an embellishment. Xiao Mengxin will also take the initiative pursue you."
"She took the initiative to pursue me?" I looked stunned.
"That's right, when you focus on spiritual improvement, she will want to return to her soul and want to be with you urgently. By then, you may not be willing to be with her."
Zen paused and said again: "Because you no longer need feelings, the road to unity between twin flames is also a process of pulling and chasing each other. Now you miss her, after a while she will miss you and pursue you, and then you may Become the character of rejection.”
"Would I reject her?" I couldn't believe what Zen said. I still couldn't wait to be with her. Would I really reject her?
At least now I have no objection to her idea.
The dull pain in my heart made me uncomfortable. I asked Zen again why she would cause such serious physical harm to me when she left me. It was too scary.
Zen said that she is another me. After meeting, the energy has been temporarily integrated. When we are separated, it is like a person being cut in half. My heart will naturally hurt.
However, Zen also said that if my heart hurts, it may open the heart chakra, which has endless wonderful uses.
I looked at my heart and felt the stinging pain in my heart. My heart said that her leaving would still open my heart chakra?
"Could it be that heartache is the process of opening my heart chakra?" I guessed.
There are seven major chakras in our body.
My grandma mentioned before that the chakras from bottom to top are the Muladhara Chakra, the Belly Chakra, the Navel Chakra, the Heart Chakra, the Throat Chakra, the Ajna Chakra and the Crown Chakra.
Each chakra plays a vital role in the body. For example, when I practice, the energy enters the mind from the crown chakra.
The ajna chakra is the perception level of the yin and yang eyes and the heavenly eye, and the throat chakra can play a good role in communication.
The heart chakra has its own magical functions.
Everyone will have slightly different effects on themselves after opening their heart chakra, but now is not the time to dwell on these.
I lay in bed, tossing and turning, waiting for daybreak. I couldn't sleep all night, and it wasn't until dawn that I seemed to slowly fall asleep.
Vaguely, I seemed to dream of Xiao Mengxin again. She was walking slowly in front of me. The trees lined both sides of the path and the scenery was pleasant.
"Mengxin." I chased her back happily, but at this moment, a tall and burly man suddenly appeared on her right side.
Standing over 1.8 meters tall and wearing a suit, under my angry gaze, Xiao Mengxin took the initiative to hold the man's hand.
"No!" My heart hurt and I ran forward faster. I wanted to kick that man away.
But no matter how hard I chased, I couldn't catch them. They were walking on the path like a couple, talking and laughing, and looking at each other from time to time, tender and sweet.
"Ah, no, Mengxin, why are you like this?" My heart ached violently, and I chased like crazy. Suddenly, my eyes lit up.
I found myself lying on the bed, with the blazing sunshine shining through the window, cloudless and sunny.
However, my mood was as heavy as a cloudy sky, and my heart was in severe pain.
"Ah, it hurts." I clutched my heart and cried out, gritting my teeth, "I actually had that kind of dream, Xiao Mengxin, are you really with another man? You traitor to the soul, I'm going to kill you! !!”
A overwhelming hatred filled my mind. I have never hated someone so much.
"What did you dream about?" Zen suddenly asked.
"I dreamed that Xiao Mengxin held a man's hand. I hate her. Zen, is she with another man?" I asked urgently.
"I don't know, it's possible, but not necessarily." Zen gave me an ambiguous answer.
"Ahhhh." I roared angrily, "If you are really with another man, not only will I kill you, I will also kill that man."
I roared viciously, my eyes red.
"You have to control this thought and enter a state of meditation. You have to give up on her!" Zen instructed.
"No, give up on her? Don't even think about it, I will destroy them!" Anger surged in my chest like a sea.
Normally speaking of freedom of love, even if a couple breaks up, it is their freedom to be with other people, and I have no right to interfere.
But it was really unbelievable to me that I had such a huge hatred for Xiao Mengxin and even had the idea of killing that man.
But I really hate it.
"This is the weird thing about twin flames. Love and hate have reached two extremes. For love, you can give your life to each other. For hate, you will kill her. That's normal!" Zen said.
I gasped and looked at the time and was stunned. It was already past eleven o'clock. I picked up Xiao Mengxin's letter and the photo, put them in my bag, and whispered darkly, "Xiao Mengxin, I must find you. Ask for clarification..."
I want to take this letter and question her face to face.
Although I knew in my heart that I should give up on her, I couldn't help but hate her in my head, and I kept struggling with this matter.
After a simple wash, I took my bag with fruit and went downstairs to check out of the room, then walked to the bus terminal. I ate nothing last night and this morning, and I had no appetite at all.
After getting in the car, looking at the scenery passing by quickly outside the window, I thought to myself, what should I tell my elder brother when I get home? It's so embarrassing.
My head was buzzing all the way, and when I got out of the car and walked home, my mood changed from anger to sadness, and tears welled up in my eyes.
Like a walking zombie, I walked to the door of my grandma's house in a daze. Looking at the door, I was too embarrassed to go in.
At this moment, grandma came out of the house with a sink in her hands. After seeing someone standing at the door, she asked in confusion: "Who, who is standing there?"
Grandma took two more steps forward, put her right palm on her forehead and looked for a moment, then exclaimed, "Xiao, Xiao An? Why are you back?"
After grandma finished speaking, she hurriedly walked towards me.
When I was discovered, I walked into the yard with a red face and shame...
