Maybe it was the huge pain and sadness that caused me to lose my ability to think rationally.
At this moment, I suddenly felt that she was playing with me.
Otherwise, why would she be with me, happily looking forward to a bright future, and then abandon me? Isn’t she playing with me?
This is my first love, and she is also my first woman. She simply cannot understand how much I love her, even more than I love myself.
However, as much as you love, you will also hate as much as you love.
At this moment, I really felt ready to kill her. No, even killing her felt like it would be easier for her.
I want to chop her up and feed her to the dogs, no, I want to chop her up and make dumplings to eat so that we won’t be separated.
"Xiao Mengxin." I was like a madman, my eyes were red, like a beast, and I squeezed out words through my teeth, "I will definitely find you, I will kill you, you traitor, you traitor of the soul!"
Yes, traitor, she is a traitor!
I felt that since she was my other half, she should have been with me, but she actually abandoned me.
So what is not a traitor?
I must find this traitor and ask her what she really thinks. I will pinch her neck and ask her harshly.
The words in the letter came to mind again. She actually said that she likes men who are older, mature and stable than her. Doesn't this mean she dislikes my young age?
Damn it, I don’t dislike her for being old, but she dislikes me for being young?
Besides, if you dislike me, why are you having sex with me?
Since you like older and mature men, you should be with an older man.
No, to be precise, she might have had a sweetheart for a long time, so after comparing me with that mature man, she finally abandoned me and chose him?
I was completely carried away by anger, and I actually started imagining scenes of her being with other mature men, or even having sex.
The more I think about it, the more my heart hurts and the overwhelming hatred becomes stronger.
I stood up suddenly, looked out the window, and had the urge to buy a ticket to Hualian City immediately.
Even if I have to dig three feet into the ground, I will dig out Xiao Mengxin and ask him to find out.
What I want to ask most is, why do you still have sex with me if you don’t want to be with me?
She also asked me to meet her parents and said so many happy and sweet words.
As a result, she just left.
This is like harming me.
Wait is wrong.
It suddenly occurred to me that the affectionate eyes she looked at me, the sweet words she said, and her request for me to meet her parents didn't seem like she was lying.
But why did she leave suddenly without saying goodbye?
Do you simply think that I am young, think that we are not suitable, or dislike me for being poor?
But if you dislike me for being poor and young, why would you want to have sex with me?
My mind was completely confused. These two questions were constantly colliding in my mind like a vicious circle, giving me a splitting headache.
"Xiao Mengxin, I must find you and find out!" I was shaking and about to rush out of the hotel.
But suddenly, a sharp pain came from my mind, causing me to fall on the bed again, as if I had been hit by a hammer into my mind.
There was even a clicking sound like a broken cup, and then under my shocked inner gaze, I found that the illusory pill bead that had just formed in my mind was shattered into pieces, disappearing like a burst of smoke, and then I was weakened by the tide. , spreading throughout the body.
I was shocked to find that my cultivation level suddenly fell from the Great Perfection state back to the later stage.
"How could this happen, how could this happen!" I screamed unwillingly. I didn't expect that Xiao Mengxin's departure would not only cause severe pain in my heart and head, but also my realm would drop.
It was as if she had really never been here, and I had nothing left.
"Xiao Mengxin! Ahhhh, I hate you!" I went completely crazy, took out the big brother in my arms, raised it up and was about to smash it to pieces.
But he stopped halfway when he dropped his hand. This big brother was thirty-six thousand, so he was a little reluctant.
Suddenly, the words Xiao Mengxin said to my eldest brother came to mind, "Xiao An, this is not thirty-six thousand, this is my friendship for you. Can you accept it? This is a token of love."
"Xiao An, you are the man I deeply like."
"Xiao An, from now on, I am your woman."
"Xiao An, no one can stop me from being with you, not even my parents."
Xiao Mengxin's words echoed in my mind like a lingering ghost. What were once sweet words have now become sharp weapons that hurt me, piercing my heart one after another.
"Ah ah ah, Xiao Mengxin, you are not human!" I shouted and threw my eldest brother hard on the bed.
Then, I lay on the bed like a corpse, staring at the ceiling helplessly.
The scene after meeting Xiao Mengxin kept flashing in my mind like a movie.
Sometimes I cry, sometimes I laugh, sometimes I curse loudly in anger.
What makes me cry is that after she abandoned me, I felt like I had lost my home. As a result, I was like a child wandering under the dim street lights, unable to find a home, helpless and confused.
The smile was a happy giggle remembering our sweet words.
What makes me angry is overwhelming hatred. I hate that she abandoned me like this and was so heartless.
Wait, that’s not right!
I sat up suddenly and whispered like a demon, "Xiao Mengxin, this is too sudden. She must be joking with me. How could she have the heart to leave me? It must be like this, yes, it must be like this!"
I broke down in tears and laughed. Her affectionate gaze was the only belief that supported my glimmer of hope. After all, eyes are the windows to the soul. Her love for me must be true, and eyes cannot lie.
"Mengxin, you must be kidding me, right?" Like crazy, I picked up the mobile phone tremblingly and dialed Xiao Mengxin's number, but the number that came through was still an empty number.
Reluctantly, I dialed her number over and over again. As the number sounded empty again and again, despair gradually filled my body again.
The terrifying feeling of the sky falling surrounded me again.
"Is this true, not a joke?" My voice trembled, my whole body trembled, I scratched my face in despair, tears welled up again, and the corner of my eye suddenly turned to the two bedside tables.
"Will she leave something for me?" I don't know why, but such a strange thought suddenly came to my mind. It may be a spiritual connection between the two, or it may be that I understand her.
I quickly opened the drawers one after another, and finally found an upside-down photo in the bottom drawer.
"Mengxin, is that you?" With tears and snot running down my face, I slowly stretched out my trembling hand and picked up the photo, and then slowly turned it over in my excitement and fear.
A girl wearing black mink velvet, black pants and black high-heeled shoes, with hair parted in the middle and large silver earrings, with a noble temperament, a hot body and a beautiful face, came into view.
The girl was very beautiful, with a smile on her face, and her eyes looked at me very affectionately, but in the deepest part of her eyes, there seemed to be deep sadness hidden.
She is none other than Xiao Mengxin, but the background behind her is indeed the door of the hotel. It was obviously taken when she was leaving today.
Xiao Mengxin, are you leaving a souvenir for me?
"Mengxin." I couldn't help but hold the photo in my arms, just like I was holding her, and I couldn't bear to let go, as if she was right next to me.
But in an instant, the deep love in my mind quickly disappeared and was replaced by overwhelming hatred.
I looked at her photo fiercely and said bitterly: "Xiao Mengxin, since you asked me to forget you and treat it as a dream, why did you leave me this photo? It will only make me sink deeper and deeper, you..." Scum, beast, you devil, devil!”
"Devil!" I yelled bitterly and wanted to tear the photo into pieces, but I didn't want to let it go.
But my overwhelming hatred prompted me to hold her photo upside down on the bed, punch her hard twice with my fist, point at her and curse, "Xiao Mengxin, you devil, I must find you!"
