During the fight, Chu Yunsheng's hand gradually left her lips.
But she did not dare to cry out for help. Once others knew about it, she would not be able to behave as a human being, and she would not have the courage to face her daughter.
Although her clothes were stripped off, she was unusually calm. She was not a woman with ordinary intelligence. After the initial panic, she quickly realized that the more she struggled at this time, the easier it would be to stimulate the attacker's crazy nerves. She tried to delay time, and try to be as gentle as possible:
"Xiao Chu, aunt can give it to you, but it's too unhygienic now. Can you take a shower first?"
…
Nothing worked, Chu Yunsheng was still tearing her clothes apart.
Faced with failure, she was not discouraged and immediately changed her mind and said:
"Xiao Chu, you are still young. You cannot ruin your life because of impulse. If you need it, aunt will introduce you to a girlfriend. She will definitely be prettier than aunt and suitable for you."
…
She said the word "aunt" very hard and her tone was sincere, but it still didn't seem to have any effect. Chu Yunsheng began to tear at his own clothes.
The situation has reached a critical moment, and the next step is...,, faced with another failure, she still did not give up. As long as she did not cross that step, she still had a chance. She held Chu Yunsheng tightly with both hands and unbuttoned his pants. The hand he held changed his angle again and said:
"Xiao Chu, think about it, if you do this, what will your friends think of you? How will Yingying think of you? How can your aunt and uncle in the hospital believe that you would do such a thing? And your Cousin and cousin, you are the elder brother, what do they think of you?"
…
This time, her words seemed to hit a vital point in Chu Yunsheng's heart, causing his frantic, excited and ferocious pupils to shrink slightly, and the movements of his hands slowed down as a result, as if he was hesitating and struggling, or in other words, struggling with something. Amplified uncontrolled passion for fighting.
Discovering the subtle changes in Chu Yunsheng, she was smart and immediately understood where Chu Yunsheng's weaknesses were. Let go of the left hand that was basically trying to stop Chu Yunsheng in vain, and do something more meaningful. He took the photo frame of Song Ying from the bedside and held it in front of Chu Yunsheng. Take your time and say:
"Xiao Chu, you have relatives. If you do this, it will not only hurt you, but also hurt them. I also have relatives. You will also hurt me and Yingying."
Chu Yunsheng gradually stopped there, his hands and feet locked in a stalemate. The sound full of lust was still overwhelming, because it felt that it would not hurt anyone, so he struggled fiercely. However, his reason and calmness were like running away from the angry sea. A small boat, nothing more. It no longer seems to collapse as quickly as before.
She shook the picture of Song Ying while the iron was hot, and continued: "Xiao Chu, think about it, if you really do this, how do you want me to face Yingying, how do you want my daughter to see me? Also, You are still young and will have children in the future. How do you want your children to treat you and their father in the future!?"
The last word. As if a sharp sword had hit Chu Yunsheng's critical point, he jumped up from the bed in "fright" and took several steps back!
In my mind, a calm and rational voice echoed across the sky:
You really can't hurt anyone! ? So how will you face your daughter? Are you worthy of being a father?
…
That huge voice carried an extremely cold and murderous aura. It trampled out from the billions of fragments, like the piercing cold blade in the hands of the most heroic warrior, and pounced on the instinctive aura in the consciousness. With the full assistance of the black energy energy, both sides barely managed to bring their arrogance to the sky. The sound of temptation was suppressed forcefully.
The external force that seemed to have suffered a heavy blow seemed to be silently relieved. He sighed even more worriedly and retreated without a trace, as if he had never appeared before.
At the moment when the sound of temptation was about to disappear, Chu Yunsheng heard in a trance a very small, almost fleeting, wonderful girl's singing voice. It seemed to come from the distant fairyland and the divine realm. It was the most beautiful melody in the world, mysterious but extremely mysterious. It is so beautiful that one can't help but feel a sense of yearning.
Then, he felt a kind of loosening of restraints in the depths of his soul, as if he was suppressed in a damp and suffocating dark swamp, and suddenly a trace of clear air came through.
Unfortunately, the singing could not be understood, understood, or even remembered. The moment he woke up, it disappeared without a trace, as if the door from which the singing came out had been closed again.
…
"sorry!"
After regaining his sense, Chu Yunsheng turned his back, faced the scattered desk, and searched for words, but in the messy scene in the room, all words seemed pale and feeble, and he could only say these three words.
His guts were filled with regret, and he wished he could kill the thing that caused trouble. Anyway, in the world of fake monuments, this thing has basically no effect other than causing trouble. However, he actually knew very well in his heart that the thing that really caused trouble was not this innocent thing. , whether it is hormones or sex hormones, physiological stimulation cannot cause him to lose his mind, let alone make him behave like a beast.
The problem is with himself! To be precise, it comes from his self-awareness.
Whether it is the voice full of temptation, the panic and anger that drives the black energy, or the huge and cold accusation at the end, it is his own voice, his own thoughts, his own concepts, consciousness and emotions, and It was not imposed on him by anyone or any external factors!
At this age, he will not refuse to admit that something is wrong with him, let alone bury his head in the sand to escape reality.
He needs to analyze and analyze where the problem lies?
He does not deny that he has an "evil wolf" in his heart. He does not understand the question of whether people are inherently evil or inherently good. He only knows that the reason why humans are different from animals, and the reason why normal people are different from extreme people, is because the human brain is a kind of restraint. Balance, knowing what can be done and what cannot be done. Once the balance is broken and a certain consciousness or emotion takes over, such as hatred, anger, lust for power, lust, even doting, jealousy, etc., some actions will be taken. Unreasonable extreme behaviors, such as murder, rape, deception, entrapment, etc., may seem unreasonable, but they do follow the universal law that what kind of consciousness controls what kind of actions.
He has also been angry, desperate, and extreme. He has always thought that this is normal, an outburst of emotions and needs, but if he becomes more and more angry, desperate, and extreme, he will become more and more angry, desperate, and extreme. That's not normal.
It was not until today that he almost made a big mistake due to impulse, that he realized and faced this problem for the first time, and what happened today also provided him with the best opportunity to discover the problem, which was different from before. This time he could always clearly remember the entire process of what happened, including the various emotional conflicts that fiercely clashed in his consciousness.
He remembered that a psychologist said that consciousness and emotions are also a kind of energy, but they are invisible and intangible, but his current thinking is exactly the opposite. From the incident just now, he guessed whether energy affected consciousness and emotions and amplified them?
He didn't have much information, so he could only speculate from the black energy. He didn't know whether the black energy was destructive energy, but he did know one thing. The black energy could absorb panic or cause panic, amplify anger, and even cause panic. And so on. There must be some kind of energy that he doesn't know that amplifies the "evil wolf" in his heart, or the desire to stimulate hormones.
Perhaps it was precisely because of the intervention of these messy energies that his head was unable to maintain the established balance, sometimes amplifying his anger and sometimes amplifying his desire. Every explosion that broke through the balance put him in a fatal predicament.
If the root of the problem lies here, then there are only two solutions he can think of.
One is to extinguish its roots. The rootless fire has a base of zero. No matter how much it is enlarged, it is in vain. Although this method is effective in eradicating the weeds, it is simply impossible to achieve. Chu Yunsheng does not think that he is a bad guy. But it can't be eradicated that evil thoughts will pop up from time to time, and various conscious thoughts and emotions are themselves the colorful meaning of life. If they are all obliterated, it is better to die.
The second way is to treat others in their own way. Now, the energy of indulgence is getting stronger. The black energy that could suppress it was declining, which led to the big mistake that almost happened today. Therefore, compared with the cultivation of the vitality realm, it was more urgent to find ways to strengthen the black energy.
In the previous fierce ideological confrontation, he found that what he said was right. He had also realized that when he was in the plant forest before, his strength became stronger and stronger with the cultivation of vitality, and subconsciously he became more and more proud. He is self-confident and conceited, so he is actually the first to break the behavioral balance. He cannot rely on others. Energy is just an amplification tool used consciously and unconsciously.
The root of everything lies in himself!
Perhaps it was only at this moment that he truly understood what some seniors had repeatedly said: all external objects, including slime-producing substances, weapons, exercises, etc., were just tools, and cultivating oneself was the foundation.
He is unable to achieve the state of mind of his predecessors. Extremely strong force, changes in environment, and a world of solitude... these have a great impact on his psychology. Compared with the peaceful state of mind of his predecessors, it is not an exaggeration to say that he is naive. Maybe Only the birth of a spirit can finally solve this problem, but he also understands the reality very well. His current level is far from reaching the peaceful state of his predecessors, and he cannot quickly solve the problem in the most correct way. This is a long-term process. At the moment, It can only rely on external intervention.
Therefore, if he wants to restore the original balance, he must use the black energy as a regulating weapon. This is the only tool in his hand that can manipulate and interfere with the balance.
It's just that the source of the black energy is not yet known, and whether it can be cultivated is still a mystery. There are no textbooks and examples to learn from, and no one can give guidance. He needs to explore everything by himself, or even create a brand new system. .
Fortunately, he didn't have any clues. The black energy was related to his own changes in consciousness and emotions. He knew this, but he would not use his own emotions to cultivate the black energy. It was completely self-harm and suicide, which was absolutely undesirable. The only clue he found was the strange effect of the Yuan Juan Talisman when he shot an arrow through the sky above the Arctic base.
However, even so, the risk is very huge. It is necessary to understand the difference in principle and the side effects of using black energy as energy instead of vitality talismans.
This is also a complex project that requires long-term and unremitting research. The current embarrassing situation is completely inappropriate.
From the small black bag spread out on the table, he saw an exposed business card, with the word "Su Su" written on the Chinese side, which must have been her real name. At this time, a calm voice came from behind:
"Turn around."
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