Chu Yunsheng was stabbed through the shoulders by several inexplicable people for no reason. Although he successfully fought back brilliantly and shocked the audience by flying off the helmet of the golden-armored woman, he could not even say a word. After asking for explanation, Lao Sun and others quickly took him out.
Of course, he couldn't ask even if he wanted to. His torn throat couldn't make any normal sound at all. However, when he saw and heard, Lao Sun nodded and bowed to the man in golden armor, apologized constantly like a grandson, and immediately expressed "a thousand thanks" for Chu Yunsheng, who could not speak, for "injury expenses".
Chu Yunsheng fell silent for a moment. Lao Sun's intelligence was wrong and he offended forces that Team 9 could not afford to offend. He needed to apologize to protect himself. He understood that there was nothing to say. However, he was attacked for no reason until he was bleeding and injured, but he still had to express "a thousand thanks" to the perpetrator like his grandson, which made his chest feel uncontrollably like a ball of cotton.
He could not overturn the fact that here, in this plant forest, as long as he still wore this mask, Lao Sun, as the captain, would always represent him.
This was nothing at first. He could always do anything to survive, but after the darkness fell, he escaped, escaped, acted indecently, pretended to be dead... etc., he had done everything, but he had never been so cowardly. , was attacked, but still had to humiliate "Thank you thousands of times". Even in the Battle of Huangshan, facing powerful enemies as numerous as stars, he would rather die than surrender. How has he ever done this! ?
However, among so many people, this feeling of being useless that was stuck in his chest, and which was unique to him, suddenly made him see himself clearly from another angle for the first time since the Dark Ages.
Immediately, he understood why he had to learn to be "numb" and learn other people's way of living. He needed to "learn", instead of being like that woman, who naturally faced all disasters and naturally smoothed out all the knots in his heart.
Because no matter how he keeps reminding himself and telling himself, he must have self-knowledge. He had to know how much he weighed, but in his heart, there was always a trace of pride hidden in him, a trace of pride brought by ancient books.
This pride was buried deep in his heart like a seed. From the beginning, he separated himself from others and treated everyone from a "condescending" perspective that he had never noticed, whether it was friends, relatives, brothers, or enemies and people he hated.
Regardless of the sunshine age. It is still the dark age. Even the most incompetent people have a sense of "self-admiration" deep in their hearts, and they can always find something "different" for themselves as a self-consoling "pride".
This thing, in the Sunshine Age, was literally called "dignity"!
Everyone has their own self-esteem and pride, even if no one else acknowledges it. He would also confirm to himself that Chu Yunsheng had the same mentality in the sunshine era, but since entering the dark era, this thing has undergone wonderful changes that he has never noticed.
As his power became stronger and stronger, each talented awakened person was defeated by him, and the seed of self-confidence took root deeper and deeper. When even the ice and fire aliens and the insect min from the divine domain could not defeat him, this The pride hidden in his heart has actually reached its peak.
But it is not a good thing. When a person's "pride" and "self-esteem" hidden deep in his heart are too strong, the reality still cruelly makes him suffer a lot of loss and loss again and again. When nothing can be saved, this contrasting sense of hurt and frustration can make people feel confused and painful.
Chu Yunsheng was put on the arm of the masked man's teammate, and he became more and more comfortable in a trance. From the beginning, this hidden pride made him think that he could save Yu Xiaohai, but he watched Yu Xiaohai disappear before his eyes; then he thought that he could save his beloved family, but then he watched the entire Jinling City disappear. ;...In the end, he thought he could keep his brother-in-law Silly Dachong, but he once again watched Silly Dachong commit suicide.
After every loss. He began to practice desperately, desperately improving his strength, seeking an extreme, so his strength became stronger and stronger, and his pride became more and more self-hiding, but in the end every time, he still couldn't keep what he thought he could keep.
When the tears have dried up, the grief has nowhere to hold it, and even the hatred has come to an end, just because there was once a trace of pride and self-confidence that concealed his heart, in the end, what is still tormenting his soul is the strong self-blame. I hate myself for not living up to expectations!
Pride is too strong, but ability is too weak, and it is the source of all contradictions and pains.
He has always been aware of only one side of the contradiction, so he only immersed himself in a desperate race against the cruel world, trying every means to improve his strength and ability, but he never really looked back to examine his "pride" and "self-esteem" that were increasingly divorced from reality.
This thing is like an "inner demon". The stronger the ability, the stronger it becomes, preventing him from accepting the cruel reality he has to accept, torturing his conflicted mind, and affecting his every move and behavior.
The woman carrying the corpse could numbly accept her situation because she had no ability to struggle or resist; the woman holding the bow could not get rid of her obsession with the bow until her death because her power gave her blind pride; and he , so why not! ?
Chu Yunsheng suddenly woke up as if he had woken up from a nightmare.
From the first day when darkness fell, he fell into this nightmare, an endless cycle of nightmares, and could never break free from its shackles. Until just now, in the voice of the masked man's "Thank you a thousand times" like a grandson, he All the pride and self-esteem were torn to pieces at this moment, leaving no inch behind. The cage that trapped his soul was finally opened, and from then on, everything was open! ! !
I have already done my best……
Facing the familiar shadows flying in his mind, Chu Yunsheng felt relieved and said "I tried my best", expressing the bitterness that he had suppressed for too long.
At this moment, his whole body relaxed, and a feeling of "relief" that he had never experienced before came to his heart, making him shed tears. These tears were not shed for anyone, but only for himself, only for himself. His long-imprisoned heart flowed out.
He allowed the masked man to pull him away and looked at the man in golden armor and the others. He wanted to laugh. He had not "really" smiled for a long, long time. His stiff mouth almost made him forget the feeling of smiling.
"Mute, can you still laugh?" The thin masked man looked at Chu Yunsheng's weird smile twisted on the mask in surprise.
Chu Yunsheng turned to look at him without changing his smile, as if to say, why can't I smile? I want to laugh!
"The mute is laughing at his own fate. If it were me, I would have to snicker. Commander Jin Jia, if you really want to kill the mute, how can the mute still survive? She can't even use her own weapons!
but. The mute really has you! You are in our masked man army, no, in the entire plant forest, except for our legion commander, the black-armored commander, and the green-armored commander. The first person in history who can take off the helmet of a golden-armored governor with one spear. I guess it won't be long before everyone in the entire plant forest knows about this, and you will become famous! Maybe the legion commander will even meet you in person! "The masked man driving Chu Yunsheng said with emotion.
The thin masked man looked at Chu Yunsheng back and forth strangely and carefully, and said for a while: "Don't say it, Sixth, it's really possible. We all underestimated the mute. I heard that when the mute was assigned, no one wanted it. . The big team forced their way into our 9th team. Now, Wang Datou from team 7 and Gao Laozhuang from team 10 will probably regret it to death. Our team is still so powerful!"
The result of Chu Yunsheng being stabbed just a few days after "going to work" was not without some benefits. In addition to receiving a so-called "injury fee" from the golden-armored woman, it also established his status in the 9th team. , although he actually didn't care about the last point.
A group of masked men who had been frustrated by their "blackmail" bandaged Chu Yunsheng indiscriminately. Immediately rushed to the next black market point, a place where the lowest level of human transactions in the plant forest city were needed. Although there was no big oil and water there, there was never any deep background.
I have to say that this black market hit the mark. If some people do have some backing, then Masked Man Team 9 is probably their biggest backing.
This is the struggle line of the lowest human beings, but it is the paradise of the Masked Man Team 9. No one here dares to disobey their wishes. They have the right to place a spy at will, but they openly deprive the other party of all their "property". body” or even “life”.
Chu Yunsheng felt that they were now like "city managers" on a small street in the Sunshine Era. Because as soon as Lao Sun and the others appeared on the street, he heard someone exclaiming: "The masked man is coming, run!"
Then, there was a flurry of chickens and dogs, cans and bottles being thrown, and the whole street suddenly became a mess. Stalls were being closed, carts were being pushed, and the warehouses were in a frenzy.
When they ran to the end of the street out of breath, the thin masked man standing third in the queue turned around from the corner and blew out a smoke ring at them with a piece of earth smoke in his mouth.
Facing the dumbfounded crowd, the thin masked man held the cigarette between his fingers and rubbed his itchy eyelids, and said calmly: "Old Seventeen, why are you so stunned? Take it! You are the unluckiest today, brothers. Let you choose first!”
He didn't use the robber word "rob", nor did he use the official word "confiscate", but he only used the word "take" very casually, as if he was at home!
Can you tell how corrupt this place has become?
Old Seventeen refers to Chu Yunsheng. After his position in Team 9 was firmly established, his first change was to upgrade from "Dumb" to "Old Seventeen". Old Sun was the boss, and the other original fifteen masked men were arranged in order. , the queue reached Chu Yunsheng, that is, the seventeenth old man.
Chu Yunsheng's eyes slightly glanced at the shabby crowd. They immediately lowered their heads and avoided Chu Yunsheng's eyes. They were afraid that Chu Yunsheng would notice the things in their hands and retreated timidly. The children's timid eyes looked from the adults' thin faces. The gap between his legs was exposed, and he looked at the masked man nervously.
He suddenly reached out and "took" the earth smoke in the hand of the thin masked man, leaned against the wall with the spear in his arms, inhaled, and felt the hot smell of smoke. He didn't want to get involved in anything here, he just wanted to enjoy his soul. This moment of peace after breaking free.
Moreover, he would not go so far as to rob a group of people who were worse off than him.
"Damn, you actually took mine!" The thin masked man rubbed his empty fingers, was stunned for a moment, and cursed: "What are you guys looking at? What's so good about you? You're looking for death! The men stand on the left, the women Stand on the right side, hurry up and stand for me!"
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