Su Yonglin found Xiao Cui's preparation a little funny.
Is it possible that Xiao Cui thinks that he is a terrible guy and has a terrible mysophobia?
Otherwise, why can’t we see even a few daily necessities?
Haha, interesting.
When he saw Xiao Cui, Su Yonglin looked at Xiao Cui and this strange woman.
She has an average appearance, a thin figure, and two thick braids. She has a rather rustic atmosphere and gives people a simple and reliable feeling.
However, the two big eyes were bright and shining, which was different from the lower class people Su Yonglin had seen before.
There was no numbness in her eyes, only hope.
This is good.
But seeing her nervous look, Su Yonglin felt that it was necessary to calm her down, so he smiled, sat on a chair, and started talking. .
"I'm not some man-eating monster, why are you so nervous?"
Xiao Cui stared at Su Yonglin for a long time and moved his lips, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't.
"Am I terrible?"
Su Yonglin didn't take it seriously and asked with a smile.
Now Xiao Cui spoke.
"No, no, no, it's just...it's just that I'm not as young as the chairman, and I'm pretty good-looking..."
Su Yonglin was stunned for a moment when someone suddenly told him that he was young and good-looking, and then he burst into laughter.
It wasn't that he found it very interesting, but he suddenly remembered that he was also a young man after all, and he had indeed not realized that he was a young man for a long time.
Perhaps it was because he had shouldered the burden of a country on his shoulders so early that he did not dare to slack off, so he unknowingly ignored this point.
He spent every day carefully, carefully formulated every policy, and planned a long-term path for the development of the Ming Dynasty.
He fights against the inertia of human nature and history every day, challenges this era, and tries his best to bring people out of the whirlpool of history and the pull of reincarnation...
So much so that he gradually forgot that he was only a twenty-six-year-old young man after all.
If he had a different identity, if he had never been to the Shandong Rebellion, never started this great revolution, and just wanted to be an ordinary official, drifting with the crowd, and constantly falling into the environment of the Southern Song Dynasty, then he must be very comfortable now.
If he had lived in the Southern Song Dynasty, he would have passed the imperial examination and become an official. He would have had a wife and several concubines. He would drink with literati and poets all day long, fight with fellow officials, and have wives and concubines. They have fun.
He might become a young literary giant in the Southern Song Dynasty, or rely on his only conscience to do some good deeds to benefit the people, leave a good reputation, and then expand his property, do business with white gloves, go overseas to make a little money, etc...
Anyway, he must be very happy, and he must be able to enjoy and indulge to his heart's content.
Instead of being like now, shouldering the heavy responsibility of leading a country out of the law of historical cycles, and not daring to slack off at all.
He felt that he seemed to have gradually lost the person Su Yonglin himself, and became more like a symbol, a symbol of trying his best to make this country break out of the historical cycle.
He knew that he was conducting an unprecedented experiment, which was unprecedentedly intense, unprecedentedly dangerous, and unprecedentedly difficult.
So he can hardly think of himself as a person.
Think about it this way, is he Su Yonglin, or is he a representative of something else?
When was the last time someone evaluated me simply as a person?
Thinking back for a moment, it seems that when I was a little younger, when my grandfather and father were around, and when guests came to the house during the New Year, I would have commented on myself like that.
If you say that you are smart, you will definitely be admitted to the imperial examination, become famous, and bring glory to your ancestors.
At that time, Su Yonglin was just Su Yonglin.
As for now...
Forget it, it's better not to be himself. If he wants to be himself, he won't have time to govern the country. He has many, many things he wants to do.
Sitting in this position, it is destined that he must completely restrain his desires and cannot indulge himself. Once he indulges himself, the entire revolutionary situation will have huge twists and turns.
He couldn't withstand such setbacks.
The cost he had invested before was too great, and he was completely reluctant to part with it. He had to restrain himself and let himself be the leader, not Su Yonglin.
Perhaps, when he retires from the throne, he can be himself again, but for now, he must be the omnipotent [God] in the eyes of everyone.
Perhaps in the eyes of many people, he is the omnipotent god, so he has never heard of anyone commenting on him like Xiao Cui.
Quite interesting.
Smiling, Su Yonglin let out a long sigh.
"The last time someone said this about me was when I was eleven or twelve years old. At that time, my father and mother were still there, and so was my grandfather. The family was happy and happy, and there were always endless happy things to say.
Later, my father died at sea and my mother died of depression. I seemed to have become an orphan overnight, leaving only my grandfather as a relative. Later, my grandfather also died of illness, and I was left alone. From then on, I never looked at myself as a person again. "
Xiao Cui blinked.
"Not a human being?"
"Uh... Hahahaha, you can put it this way, I don't see myself as a person, and that's why I am today."
"What did you do?"
"What should I do...? Thinking about it carefully, I don't know very well. I only know that I am not alone. I have the lives and expectations of too many people on my shoulders. From the moment my grandfather passed away, I have been burdened with Hundreds of people in the entire Su family died.
I can't stop for a moment, not even for a moment. If I stop for a moment, I will feel a strong sense of guilt, feeling that I am committing a crime, that I have done something wrong, and I must keep moving forward, even to the point where I can't stop for a moment. Forward. "
Su Yonglin clenched his fists involuntarily.
This feeling still exists today. He always feels that his time is not enough. He does not know how long he can live. He only hopes to take this country forward and make this country go further while he is alive.
The further you go, the harder it is to turn back. When you reach a certain point, you can only continue walking without turning back.
So he's very urgent.
But when Su Yonglin saw Xiao Cui's half-understanding eyes, he burst into laughter again.
"Why did I tell you about this kind of thing? You probably can't understand, right?"
"I don't quite understand, but I seem to understand... Officer... No, Chairman, Chairman looks very tired."
Xiao Cui changed his words in time and did not call out "official family". Su Yonglin was very happy because he didn't like the term "official family".
However, could Xiao Cui actually see that he was tired?
"Can you tell I'm tired?"
"Well, I feel very tired, but I don't want others to see that I am tired. My mother is like this. Every time I ask her if she is tired or hungry, she always says she is neither tired nor hungry..."
As he said this, Xiao Cui's voice was choked up and he couldn't speak any more.
Su Yonglin was silent for a while and patted her hand.
"I know all about your experience, so I hope you can come to Zhongdu."
"Well, that's why I'm here."
Xiao Cui nodded: "I saw a lot of different things, many things that I didn't even dare to think about. It turns out that the Ming Dynasty is so big, and the city can be that big."
"That's right, go out more, increase your knowledge, broaden your horizons, and people will be different from the past."
Su Yonglin smiled and said: "A woman like you has always been trapped in one-third of an acre of land at home. Let alone a woman, it's a man. How can he know anything if he is trapped in one-third of an acre of land? No. If you go out, don't see much of the world, and read more books, you won't be able to achieve anything big in the end.
So I hope that women like you can go out more, see more of the world, and do more things within their capabilities. So I set up workshops and recruit women to work. I want you to leave your family and get away from your family like men. Opportunity to allocate land.
In the factory, you can live a completely different life. You can learn to read and receive some enlightenment education together with the men in the factory. Then you can discover your own value and support yourself through working with your own hands without relying on anyone. "
