Agnes watched herself grow up day by day, but before she reached a sensible enough age, her grandparents gradually stopped taking her to the fields.
She was well-behaved enough, and her grandparents gradually dared to let her stay at home alone. The village was full of people from the same family, so they didn't worry about losing her.
As for Agnes, who surrounded an area in the corner of the kang with pillows and would stay there quietly until they came back, what could not reassure them?
As the days passed, Agnes gradually grew up to three or four years old. During this period, Agnes only saw her mother two or three times.
Agnes watched her grandfather cut out triangular pieces of wood, polish them carefully, and then thread them on a thin iron drill to make an abacus and teach Agnes how to use it.
She watched her grandfather take Agnes' delicate little hand with his calloused hands and write the word "Huizhen".
She watched her grandfather holding a pencil and writing the words "Do good deeds to accumulate blessings, do evil deeds to cause disaster" for Agnes, asking Agnes to write it down over and over again and remember it.
She saw her grandfather sending her to the only primary school in the small village, and then being called by the teacher to help correct Agnes' pen-holding posture.
Agnes watched as her uncles and aunts, who were five or six years older than her, began to play with her.
She watched as she followed them up the low wall of the fourth master's house who was out on business, and then together they secretly picked the green fruits from the unattended apple tree in the yard, washed them by the ditch, ate them, and then vomited from the sourness. Tongue.
She watched as she followed them and fished out the eggs from the chickens raised by her cousin's uncle from under a pile of straw, and then Aunt Ninth secretly cooked them in a tin can at home and stuffed them into Agnes.
She watched her uncles add a portable part to the cans in winter, then pulled out a piece of charcoal of a suitable size from the stove in the room and put it in, letting Agnes carry it while they played together.
Grandpa no longer feeds Agnes the hydrogel-like substance. Instead, grandma wipes Agnes's vest with a liquid every night.
Agnes saw that her mother finally came back with her father, and this time it was to pick up Agnes.
"Dad, Huizhen is also five years old. I want to take her to school in the city. We will bring her back during the holidays."
"It should, it should." Agnes heard her grandfather repeating this sentence over and over again, and then he sighed.
Agnes saw herself following her parents to the city and enrolling in a primary school. Because she was a little short of the school age, her parents paid three thousand yuan to the school.
She saw herself trying hard to change her accent, which had a strong local accent.
She saw herself and her parents gradually becoming familiar with each other, and the barriers gradually disappearing.
She saw that she could never change her pen-holding posture, and eventually her parents gave up on correcting her.
She heard that a girl was born at her third uncle's house and was given to her grandparents to raise.
Agnes watched as her classmates teased her about her name, then complained to her mother.
"Mom, can I change my name?"
Mother stopped chopping vegetables and looked at Agnes.
"What's wrong, Huizhen, your name is very good."
Agnes saw her face flushing, and she held it in for a long time before saying, "My classmates all said my name looks like a nun's name!"
The mother sighed and said, "It was your grandfather who caused it."
Agnes saw herself taking advantage of the holiday to go back to her hometown and pester her grandfather to change her name.
Grandpa hesitated for a long time, and said while writing with difficulty on the paper: "Then change 'Zhen' to 'Zhen', the pronunciation is the same anyway."
Agnes saw that she was not very satisfied and pestered her grandfather, but he refused to change anything.
Agnes saw herself getting "three good students" in school again and again, and both she and her parents took it for granted.
She saw her grandfather begin to teach her a completely different language system from the current writing system.
She saw herself writing over and over again under the care of her grandfather, "The mind is so clear, but the heart is disturbed; the heart is so quiet, it is tempting to hold it."
She saw that her third uncle's little sister always watched her grandfather teach her with curiosity from a distance, and then came to pester her to take her out to play after her grandfather finished teaching her that day.
She saw that every morning when her vacation was about to end, she would always place a kiss on the forehead of her little sister who was sleeping soundly, and then leave.
She saw herself walking through elementary school and middle school, watching herself and her grandfather open the dusty ancestral hall together and walk in together.
"Who can stop the decline of the river! Time and fate..." Agnes sighed when she saw her grandfather carefully cleaning the tablet. He scraped off the dust on the tablet and collected it. Agnes found that even if It was cleaned up completely, but I still couldn't see clearly the words on the tablet.
Agnes saw herself walking forward to pay homage. Agnes suddenly felt that she had control over her body.
"When the time comes, you can do whatever you have to do. The final result can only be determined by God. Are you right, Huizhen?" Grandpa sighed.
"I don't believe it," Agnes said.
Agnes stood up.
Grandpa glanced at Agnes, but did not respond to her answer. Instead, he slowly wiped the tablet and murmured to himself: "How can anyone cleanse us from the filth and corruption? How can we clean up the sea of suffering and turmoil?" To give birth to Mingde?”
"The purest flowers will naturally bloom in the filth, and the sweetest sugar crystals will inevitably bloom in the sea of bitterness." Agnes took the tablet from her grandfather's hand and put it in its original place. She found that even if the tablet was held in In his own hand, he still couldn't see clearly the words on it, as if there was a force blocking his recognition of these words.
Grandpa suddenly laughed. He stared at Agnes, as if he could see the soul below through the body.
He suddenly said something unrelated: "Remember, doing good will accumulate blessings, and doing evil will bring disaster."
"Yeah." Agnes nodded.
Agnes helped her grandfather sweep away the dust on the beams and took out the soil in the cauldron. The strange thing is that although it seems that no one has taken care of the ancestral hall for a long time, there are no cobwebs, and the building itself does not have any damage.
Grandpa looked at the clean ancestral hall and smiled, but Agnes did not feel happy from it.
"Huizhen, it's time for you to go." Grandpa looked at Agnes and said.
"Well, it's time for me to go." Agnes nodded, and a trace of black gradually appeared on her body, floating in the air and spreading.
The colors of the already dark ancestral hall became darker and darker, and the colors gradually faded.
Agnes heard her grandfather say as if he was sighing: "The only treasure that can be known is wisdom..." Then her voice became vague and gradually became unreal.
Darkness gradually penetrated, and finally the picture in front of him shattered and disappeared like a mirror.
