Agnes hesitated and stood still.
"What's wrong? Agnes, what's the problem?" Mr. Conti asked strangely.
Agnes thought for a moment and said, "Mr. Conti, you know that my illness is related to dreams."
"Yes, Ms. Olivia told me. What's wrong? Did you dream last night? How do you feel? Do you need me to help you contact the church? No, have you told your mother?" Mr. Conti stopped. He stopped what he was doing and looked at Agnes seriously.
"No, no," Agnes waved her hands and said, "I feel very good now. What I want to ask is, I had a dream last night, and then there seemed to be some changes during meditation this morning."
Mr. Conti put down the paper in his hand and asked: "What kind of change?"
Agnes thought for a while and described: "What I saw when I meditated yesterday was darkness, but when I meditated this morning, I saw overlapping blocks of bright colors and illusory fog."
Mr. Conti breathed a sigh of relief and said: "This is something you can only see if you meditate successfully. There is no problem."
Agnes added: "But what I saw today made me feel a little dizzy and a little nauseous."
Mr. Conti thought for a while and said: "I will go to the church to ask today and give you an answer in the fighting class tomorrow. But it shouldn't be a big problem. It may just be that I am sensitive to colors and I am not used to it. Don't worry too much. ."
"Okay, thank you Mr. Conti." Agnes smiled a little, looked at Mr. Conti and nodded.
"Okay, the chat is over, we are going to start testing." Mr. Conti said with a smile.
Next, Mr. Conti tested Agnes’s music theory foundation, sight-singing and ear training, and finally asked Agnes to play an etude.
"It can be seen that your foundation is very solid, especially the basic knowledge of music theory. Your piano playing skills are also very skilled. As long as you continue to practice, there will be no problem." Mr. Conti commented thoughtfully.
"Did your old teacher ever think of teaching you composition?" Mr. Conti asked.
"Mr. Miller taught me some melody writing methods," Agnes replied.
Mr. Conti nodded, "Have you ever created anything yourself?"
"I have created some fragments." Agnes nodded.
"Play a piece and let me take a look." Mr. Conti sat down.
Agnes started playing, and Mr. Conti listened carefully, tapping the time and frowning gradually.
"Okay, stop, that's enough." Mr. Conti said with a frown, and Agnes stopped.
"Can you play "The Knight and the Shepherdess"?"
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"Try playing this one." Agnes followed the instructions and began to play.
"The Knight and the Shepherdess" is a very popular piece of music by Fenebaud. It tells a sad and sad love story. The melody is very simple, but it is very contagious. There are many instrumental versions.
Agnes played a piece and Mr. Conti made her stop.
"I understand the direction I should teach you in the future." Mr. Conti said.
"Your biggest problem right now is that you don't invest your emotions in the music. This can be clearly reflected when you play "The Knight and the Shepherdess". Its melody is simple enough and does not require too complicated techniques, but it requires The performer invests his emotions to tell a sad story and guide the audience's resonance. You obviously do not invest enough emotions. Similarly, this is also the most obvious problem in your creation. You have many gorgeous techniques, but you only use these Techniques pile up a gorgeous and empty piece of music, without enough emotional core in it. It seems mechanical and stiff, lacking a certain degree of musicality, and has heavy traces of experimentation. Of course, this may also be related to you not having enough life experience."
"You don't need me to teach you more techniques, you just need me to guide you to feel the emotions in the music." Mr. Conti said.
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"February 28, 1328"
"I have been taking the potion for a month, and my fighting skills training has gone very smoothly. Mr. Conti even gave me additional courses on how to use firearms. However, the training of my abilities given by the prisoner's potion did not meet Mr. Conte's expectations." Mr. Ti thinks this is because I lack actual combat training. He thinks I should go on a few missions with the Heart of Nature team.
"According to Mr. Conti, in a situation like mine, the default is to join the church, but currently the church does not seem to have any intention of contacting me. Is it because I am too young or have a previous illness? Or to some extent, there are also some of my Identity reason? But Mr. Conti said he would communicate with the heart of nature."
"The dizziness I felt when meditating has almost disappeared. Maybe I am really just not used to bright colors. I remember that the answer Mr. Conti got from the church at that time was that there might be some phobia. Even after so long , I still have to say it again: It’s outrageous!”
"Mr. Conti taught me some basic occult knowledge and some practical rituals during this time, but to be honest, most of my rituals now need to rely on spiritual materials. Mr. Conti mentioned that he actually does not I was good at these, and suggested that I ask my mother or Ms. Jones directly for advice. In fact, my mother was already teaching me this. During this time, I learned ritual magic, made several amulets, and asked someone to bring one to Penny and Frank. I don’t know if they will take it with them.
"Actually, the most fundamental problem is that my spirituality is not strong enough, and the spiritual enhancement effect of the prisoner path is not very obvious. But even if there is such a problem, I should still know something about these rituals, after all, I am prepared. Unfortunately, it is estimated that in I won’t be able to master divination for a long time.”
"During this time, I asked some about what Mr. Conte experienced during Sequence Nine. Combining these fragmentary information, we can roughly deduce several key points of Mr. Conte's role at that time:
"① Excluding impulses, emotions, etc. that are unacceptable to consciousness, as well as inappropriate desires, from consciousness. This is one's own active suppression. It requires clear self-awareness to understand what one wants and what one cannot accept. . You also need to have a clear understanding of the present moment, and understand when to restrain your desires and when to let go. Mr. Conti’s experience of fighting wits and courage with other criminals and guards in prison is a good proof. I must praise Mr. Conti here. He tells stories very vividly and adds his own psychological activities.
"② While breaking the rules, you must also abide by the rules. Since the prisoner is a person imprisoned in the prison, he must have broken some kind of rules. But since the prisoner can be imprisoned in the prison, no matter whether he is active or forced , he is still abiding by certain rules. This may be the difference between prisoners and criminals. Mr. Conti said that his tendency to lose control became worse after killing people due to some impulses, but after being arrested and imprisoned, his tendency to lose control seemed to decrease. alleviate.
"Then there is a problem here. Mr. Conti said that at that time, his tendency to lose control increased because he indulged his desires and impulses to kill people. He used this as proof to illustrate the importance of restraining desires. But if indulging in desires will cause an increase in tendency to lose control, then the indulgentists are How do you get through the prisoner stage? It’s impossible for all members to be criminals, right?
"Mr. Conte said that his tendency to lose control has lessened after being imprisoned. Is this implying that I am acting as a law? The church does not strictly require him not to disclose it?"
"Spring break starts tomorrow, and my brother should be back."
