Wang Mengkai was slightly startled. Xiao Xu was his class monitor in high school, one of the recognized school belles, with a beautiful country.
She was also talked about by many men after class. Many people also pursued her, but they were all rejected.
As a normal teenager, Wang Mengkai naturally likes beautiful women. However, his grades have always been poor. If it were not for the 12-year compulsory education, he might have graduated and gone to work long ago.
The low self-esteem caused by doing this for a long time made Wang Mengkai very timid. If he spoke out, it would probably spread to the group of friends around him.
Wang Mengkai just had a crush on her, watching her from a distance, and did not confess his love until graduation, because he knew that once he did, the relationship between classmates might be very awkward.
As Wang Mengkai's deskmate for many years, Zhang Lei also saw some clues. In the self-study class one afternoon, she finally learned the news through hard work.
"No more guessing, come on, come on." Zhang Lei shrugged to give up, and then she changed to a warmer map.
For ordinary people, there may not be much difference when entering the space of Guixu, but it is different for her. Zhang Lei is different from most people. She chose brain-computer interface surgery, so she will Feel the temperature and pain to be immersed.
Of course, you can also set it to reduce the contact feeling and open an interface receiver at the back of your brain. Only she knows how determined she is.
Zhang Lei knew that Wang Mengkai liked the forest because he liked silence. She touched the air with her finger and selected a large virgin forest covering her feet.
"Zhang Lei, I...I'm about to die. Before I leave, I just want to say goodbye to you." Wang Mengkai looked at Zhang Lei's expectant eyes and finally chose to say it helplessly.
Zhang Lei's originally smiling face suddenly froze, and she gradually became serious: "Old Wang, please don't lie to me. Is this... true?"
Yes, what can you do if you hide your illness? Can you hide it from your friends for a lifetime? After telling the truth, Wang Mengkai felt much better, and his depressed mood seemed to be relieved, but the discomfort was transferred to Zhang Lei.
Wang Mengkai didn't say much, he just showed her the medical records and report sheets. At this moment, Zhang Lei's world seemed to be shattered and washed away by endless floods.
"Then get treatment as soon as possible. If we don't have any money, we'll lend it to you... You, you stay up so late at night, you're looking for death!" Zhang Lei was a little incoherent, her tone was trembling, and her eyes were fixed on Wang Mengkai.
"Am I going to drag my family down for the rest of my life? My disease is already in the advanced stage and I have missed the opportunity for treatment." Wang Mengkai's eyes were bright. In the past few years when he went out to work, he also knew that spending money was much easier than making money.
Zhang Lei was a little anxious and wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Wang Menkai. "Zhang Lei..." Wang Mengkai's eyes were like mist, making people unpredictable.
"Um?"
"I just came to say goodbye to you. You know, I can't help you." Wang Mengkai laughed at himself with a chuckle.
"But, you can't be too selfish! You give up other people's concern for you just because of your thoughts. You are too selfish!" Zhang Lei's words were like a sharp knife, piercing deeply into his heart.
Yes, so selfish. Sometimes, most people will have this idea. They want to be better to their friends and family around them, but if they don't handle it well, they will get the worst of both worlds.
Wang Mengkai nodded calmly: "Yes, I am very selfish. But thinking too much about other people's thoughts is tantamount to giving up your own position. I am almost dead. I just want to make the decision I think is right!"
"Let's be real, we've all grown up!"
When the conversation changed, Wang Mengkai suddenly said softly: "Promise me to forget about me and act as if I have never appeared in your world..."
"Wang! Meng! Kai! Do you know how I have lived these years!" Zhang Lei suddenly burst out emotionally. She gritted her teeth and asked sharply, causing Wang Mengkai to stop suddenly.
"Do you know how I have lived these years?" Zhang Lei repeated what she just said, this time her voice was slightly softer, "Do you still remember the self-study class in our senior year of high school?"
"That afternoon?" Wang Mengkai stiffened. He vaguely remembered that after Zhang Lei stalked her in the self-study class, he became impatient and told her about his crush on Xiao Xu.
After telling this incident, Wang Mengkai also felt a little regretful. He struggled for a lesson, thinking that the news would go viral by her.
But after Zhang Lei learned the news, she didn't laugh as usual. She became very calm, giving Wang Mengkai the illusion that he was making her angry.
"Yes, that was the day... Do you know how I felt when you told me that you liked Xiao Xu?" Zhang Lei looked at Wang Mengkai with her two big watery eyes, so that the latter did not dare to look at her, " I actually felt sad. That feeling of loss was something I had never encountered before. My heart became so uncomfortable and messy that I didn’t know what to say at the time, whether to encourage you or tease you... "
"Later, when I went to college and saw my roommates and best friends falling in love, I realized that I had already fallen in love with you! Why you, why you, you big idiot!" Zhang Lei said calmly, But it made Wang Mengkai's heart tremble violently, and his pupils shrank like needlepoints.
This relationship that has not been open for many years was broken by Zhang Lei today. She pondered for a moment and was speechless, just like this quiet night.
The night would eventually be opened by dawn. Wang Mengkai was at a loss when someone forced him to confess his love. This was the first time he encountered such a situation.
Wang Mengkai said shyly: "Lei, I actually liked you back then...but I didn't have the courage to say it...did you know that Lao Li confessed to you back then?"
Looking back on those days, Zhang Lei was elegant, fair-skinned and beautiful, and was one of the top beauties in the school. It's just that she has been with Wang Mengkai as her roommate for several years, and she has never let this guy fall in love with him.
It's true that rabbits don't eat grass on the edge of the nest, which made Zhang Lei, who is confident and charming, depressed for a while. Doesn't she look attractive to Wang Mengkai?
Although high school is a direct admission system and everyone still has the same familiar faces, there will inevitably be new students coming in. In the second half of the first semester of high school, many people became familiar with her, and suddenly a man confessed his love to Zhang Lei.
At that time, Zhang Lei felt as if someone had hit a sore point when she heard the confession, and she yelled: "I treat you as a brother, but you actually want to fuck me? You are watching all the fun, get out of here."
She was so aggressive that people around her didn't dare to approach her. Fortunately, it was a self-study class and she didn't alert the class teacher, but her state lasted for more than a week.
Someone confessed to Zhang Lei and made Wang Mengkai realize the seriousness of the matter. Fortunately, she did not agree, which gave Wang Mengkai a sigh of relief.
Wang Mengkai actually likes Zhang Lei. With someone who has been at the same table as him for several years, it is inevitable that he will have feelings for her.
But after seeing other people's reactions, he didn't feel comfortable speaking, so he could only swallow his words again. Every time he saw Zhang Lei's face, he remembered that lesson.
"Ah...it turns out that's the reason. I thought I wasn't good-looking enough." Zhang Lei snorted and turned away, raising her head proudly.
"...
If I kissed you then,
I hugged you then,
Maybe the ending is hard to tell,
I have so many regrets,
So many expectations,
do you know?
I love you,
How clear it is,
What a strong faith!
I love you,
How warm it is,
What a brave force!
..." by "Faith"
"Lei, it's my fault that I missed so many opportunities... I regret giving up treatment, regret not confessing to you..." Wang Mengkai suddenly hugged the virtual Zhang Lei, and the two had close contact for the first time in Guixu. At this moment, Zhang Lei's heart completely melted.
Both of them cried. They were separated from each other by the virtual network, hugging the air, and really wanted to come to each other's side and touch each other.
"Is there really no other way?" Wang Mengkai came to the hospital the next day and pondered. He had a sleepless night, and his eyes were still full of energy on his haggard face.
The attending doctor shook his head. Even if Wang Mengkai is willing to spend money, he can't save it now. Some of it can only delay the time of death, but what's the use of it?
There is no regret medicine in this world. No matter how painful and difficult the path you choose, you must continue on. I just hope you don’t give up halfway!
…
As the days passed, Wang Mengkai went from being slightly fat to becoming thinner, and his appetite was almost gone.
Seeing their biological children in such miserable condition, not many parents in the world can eat and sleep in peace.
Especially Wang Mengkai's father, who has white hair all over his head. Time has not destroyed his spine, but now it is difficult to straighten his back.
Wang Mengkai also knew about the state of his parents, and felt uncomfortable. Since Zhang Lei confessed to herself, the two have also met, and she has been living with Wang Mengkai, and she wants to spend her last time with Wang Mengkai.
On a calm and peaceful afternoon, Wang Mengkai was sitting in the courtyard, the breeze blowing on his cheeks. He looked comfortable on the surface, but in fact, his body had almost reached its limit and he needed to take a lot of medicine every day to survive.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door, Zhang Lei was beside him, she pushed the rocking chair and walked to the door, opened the door and took a look.
There were three people, two of them were strangers, and the remaining one was Wang Mengkai’s former attending doctor.
The two strangers were communicating in low voices. Zhang Lei did not understand what they were saying, but she could confirm from a certain sentence that they were probably from country R.
When the attending doctor saw Zhang Lei, he immediately said in a deep voice: "These two are experts from overseas. Based on Wang Mengkai's current condition, we want to talk to him in person."
Although Zhang Lei was a little hesitant, for the sake of the attending doctor, she nodded and said, "Come in." After that, she opened the door.
The two people behind him walked into the hospital leisurely. After they saw Wang Mengkai's symptoms, they nodded to each other, came to Wang Mengkai to check the symptoms, and spoke some incomprehensible R Mandarin.
Then, one of them took out a translator and handed it to Zhang Lei. She took it, put it on her ear, and also put it on Wang Mengkai beside her.
ps: Wang Mengkai is my friend, and I only learned that he had a malignant tumor not long ago. There is nothing I can do but express my thoughts about him. I pinned the screenshot to the top of the post.
