"But I can understand you, sir." An Yu raised his head again, looking at Qin Zhilu with his golden eyes calmly, "Others say you are the most unpredictable, but I understand everything about you. I know how others treat you. Which statement is wrong? I know your true thoughts deep in your heart, but I also know that you don’t care about being misunderstood, and I even understand why you don’t care. Although... I will care a little myself and care for you." An Sumima pursed her lower lip and lowered her voice, "I believe that I am the only one in this world who has achieved this."
"I've never felt sorry for anyone else, sir, and rarely for myself. Except when I'm facing you, I've always stood still. My socialization has never progressed."
Qin Zhilu's Adam's apple twitched, "So?"
An Yu felt that those words were already on his lips, "So I think I love -"
"You can't have personal feelings for me." Qin Zhilu interrupted him decisively.
An Yu was confused for a while, "Why?"
"Do you know the significance of the existence of supervision objects?" Qin Zhilu's face seemed to be calm, "You are a high-level reserve, a reserve for my position."
An Yu murmured: "Is this inconsistent with falling in love with you?"
"Of course it's a contradiction." Qin Zhilu's tone suddenly rose, "Because I originally selected you for this position, and you must take it in the future..."
He paused suddenly and did not finish his sentence.
Only then did An Yu realize that his chest was rising and falling violently, and there seemed to be a fierce struggle in his eyes, which was only hidden by his cold eyes and windbreaker.
"What do you want in the future?" An Yu asked.
Qin Zhilu did not answer. An Yu waited for a while and then whispered, "No matter what you want in the future, I will never be your reserve. I said in District 99 that I will work with you unswervingly." You’re on one end.”
Qin Zhilu's smile was a little moving, but even more lonely, "But I had already answered you at that time. This was a very naive promise."
He opened his palms to the sky, "For example, this snow has been roaring like crazy for two months. You thought the wind and snow were eternal in this era of disaster, but it finally stopped."
Qin Zhilu finished his words, but saw An Yu's shoulders slightly flinching, just like the day they first met Xueyuan.
It's just that that day he was afraid, but at this moment, those evasive golden eyes could no longer conceal his loss.
Qin Zhilu said in a low voice: "If you really want to know - the loss of control in that scene that day was indeed no accident. An Yu, I love you very much, maybe it started a long time ago. I really want to kiss you , I have thought about it for a long time and restrained myself for a long time, but we cannot fall in love, or at least, you should never fall in love with me, you..."
Qin Zhilu couldn't continue talking at this point, because he saw the confusion in An Yu's eyes getting thicker and thicker, accompanied by sadness, just like those clear eyes, pure sadness.
His Adam's apple twitched for a long time before he finally repeated what he said at that time, "An Yu, there is no eternity in the world."
Qin Zhilu knew that his explanation was poor, but he could not say more. He could only say "Let's go" and turned around to stride back to the minaret. But the moment he turned around, he saw a drop of tear falling from An Yu. It came out of his eyes, although An Yu immediately raised his hand to wipe it away.
This was not the first time Qin Zhilu cried when he saw An Yu.
He had seen him burst into tears many times due to pain, he had seen him deliberately sobbing and acting coquettishly, he had seen him cry for Ling Qiu, and he had also seen his flushed eyes after meeting Ling Qiu AI.
But nothing affected him as much as this tear.
Because not only was he sad, that person was too sad and aggrieved. He was standing on the snow, so haggard that he seemed to disappear in the next second.
Qin Zhilu was in a daze for a moment, but what flashed through his mind at that moment were countless scenes of decisive battles in An Yu - in front of him, it seemed that there had never been that arrogant corner who had already stood on the top of the main city and the spire. Although An Yu was pretending to be docile and sometimes even stronger than him, the An Yu in front of him was always the same An Yu when they first met, very fragile, and particularly vulnerable to injury in this disaster world.
He walked back unconsciously in a trance, until he came to stand in front of An Yu. The golden eyes immediately stared at him, with tears still in his eyes.
Qin Zhilu looked at An Yu's chest that was heaving more and more violently, as if he was back to the state when the stress in Area 53 was most severe. His mind was very confused. He had never been so confused before. He had not thought about what to do when he suddenly came back. An Yu didn't say anything, but suddenly heard a biting wind howl.
It was as if the vacuum world was suddenly opened, and the gust of wind suddenly came to him from afar. He felt a chill in his brows, and looked at the snow that was suddenly howling all over the sky in amazement.
It's snowing again. The snow is heavier than in the past two months. It's heavy and chaotic, making the brief snow stop just now even more unreal.
It also made it a bit funny that he used snow to refute An Yu's arguments not long ago.
The wind and snow swirled in the air, and even a snowflake rushed into An Yu's eyes, but An Yu didn't react. His golden eyes stared at Qin Zhilu. He was trembling and choking, and said quickly and incoherently: "Say After so many, not one of them is a real reason. Therefore, you are still like the resource officer of District 53, as Ling Qiu concluded. You are very immoral, have a bad character, and are unreasonable. You must be in the I thought, it suddenly started snowing again, what excuses could I use to convince me that there is no eternity. But whether there is eternity or not has nothing to do with my falling in love with you. I had already decided to stand firmly with you before I fired. "
Qin Zhilu's breath was faster than his, and he grabbed his waist and fiercely pulled him to his face, and kissed him hard.
The accusations stopped suddenly, leaving only the howling wind.
Even more fierce and arrogant than the day we first met.
Qin Zhilu's mind had never been so confused. He clearly knew that he had made a huge and irreparable mistake.
But he's also never been so lucid.
"I'm sorry." He held the back of An Yu's head with force and gentleness, as if he was holding something precious. "I said a lot of nonsense. I take it back. Just remember that sentence."
I love you very much and want to kiss you. I have thought about it for a long time and restrained myself for a long time.
But, I won’t be restrained anymore.
He didn't know whether the heartache at this moment or the heartache in the future was more serious, but he finally gave in to those choked sobs, perhaps just like a year ago, he softened in the heart of that person's carefully performed tears and sobs.
All this seems to have been doomed.
He hated himself for making An Yu sad and crying, and for making An Yu stand helplessly behind him for so long.
An Yu was right. It had nothing to do with snow. Snow was a bad metaphor. Because no matter whether the snow can stop or not, there is nothing eternal in this world. Planets, galaxies, universes, beyond the universe...all things will eventually move towards chaos. They are just the resisters of an era. The insignificance of this era is like the fleeting halo of light in the universe.
Not even a halo.
However, even if they fail completely, even if the chaos is finally unstoppable, it will come in this era.
He will also kiss him in the midst of disaster.
The author has something to say:
[Scrap Book Pages] 37 Eternity
What is eternity?
There are a hundred roads in front of you, ninety-nine of them lead to the same ending, and only the last one leads to a completely different outcome.
From a probability perspective, if the number one hundred becomes infinite, then this single outcome is an impossible event. But if it does happen, it means that it can be regarded as eternity.
Later, people always recalled the snow on the winter solstice in 2148. They said that the snow brought a turning point.
But that snow brought only a glimmer of hope.
The real turning point occurred at the winter solstice in 2149.
That winter solstice, there was a brief revival of heavy snow.
In the blink of an eye, mankind's victory is destined.
And he and he also became eternity.
A silent eternity that wanders beyond human cognition and memory.
Chapter 97 World Line·97
The depths of the swamp are filled with mist and mysterious heavy breathing.
The rainforest has completely lost its original landscape. An Yu lowered his body and slowly scanned the things wrapped in mud. It was difficult to distinguish even animals or plants, like ghosts.
A sound of wind suddenly came from behind, his pupils shrank suddenly, and he appeared a few meters away in an instant, avoiding the fierce whipping.
The mud whip was whipped hard into the swamp, black mud splashed everywhere, and a drop of swamp mud splashed on his face, spreading quickly and spreading, as if it was going to cover his entire head. An Yu showed no expression. After a moment, the black mud silently shattered and disappeared on his face, just like those greedy deformities in the past.
The giant wings fanned away the moist mist, and the familiar smell of leather enveloped him.
Qin Zhilu spread his wings and pulled him into his arms from a distance, and whispered: "Be careful."
"It can't swallow me, sir."
"You will always get hurt if you are hit." Qin Zhilu said, "If you are not used to using the flight aid, just stay in the wings."
"good."
An Yu obeyed and let the dark wings curl up and surround him. He grabbed the smooth and neat feathers and looked at the mud whip that had been submerged in the swamp - it was different from Lumen's previous description. There was something here. The mud whip was covered with thorns, and rich black roses bloomed on it. In An Yu's blink of an eye, the swamp mud covered the rose, but after a while, the rose broke out of the mud again, and then was covered again, one waxing and waning, the other growing, and it started again and again.
Not far away, a violent whipping sound suddenly exploded. One mud whip severely broke another one, and a few rose petals scattered in the air, slowly sinking into the swamp with an arrogant attitude of victory.
Qin Zhilu took in all this and thought: "The mud whip repeatedly switched between mud and rose branches. When it was pulled down towards us, the thing was in the mud form. But what is interesting is that the rose form has always been there. Attack the other side.”
Although he spoke interestingly, his dark eyes were cold and dark.
"Chief Yan is competing with Black Goat for power. Black Goat wants to completely merge with Chief Yan, while Chief Yan is frantically strangling Black Goat." An Yu lowered his eyes and whispered: "You are right, this is completely It’s a repeat of the situation Ling Qiu faced in Area 53.”
Ling Yu swept the palm of his hand. An Yu felt Qin Zhilu's silent comfort and said, "The fog is too heavy. I don't know where Mian and Lu Ming are now."
No signal can be established in the swamp, and even the team channel cannot work. Before landing, they located the location of the Black Goat based on the energy fluctuations. However, as soon as they fell into the fog, before they had time to clearly see the behemoth in the distance, they were attacked wildly by the Mud Whip, and several of them were scattered.
Qin Zhilu raised his eyebrows and said, "Mian is a very mature law-abiding person. I'm only worried that Lu Ming will lose control of his mind."
*
"This thing is indeed a fusion of the chief and the black goat."
A broken and decaying mud whip was tied up in the air by a few strands of long silver-white hair. The dried rose branches were mixed with the mud and meat of an indistinguishable texture. Mian looked at it for a long time before letting go of the hair and letting it fall into the swamp. .
"It has grown completely mosaic and has begun to merge."
Not far away, Lu Ming watched the last rose petal sink into the mud and whispered: "Jin Xuyan..."
Cold sweat caused the hair on his forehead to stick to his cheeks, and his pale face due to exhaustion made his eyes even more sharp and bright.
They are getting closer to the black goat. Mian's aberration gene is water lily, and the seeds it emits can isolate the sludge. But despite this, the road is still difficult, and the sharp claws of Lumen Leopard are almost worn flat by those mud whips.
But even though he was embarrassed, his attacks became more decisive and fierce every time.
It seemed as if the fog, the sky and the land were being torn apart.
Mian looked at his profile - he didn't have time to change out of the all-black vest and trousers in the solitary room. He only wore a bright red blouse, with the collar pulled up high, covering half of his face, only revealing the To bright eyes.
Before Lumen came to the Minaret, Mian had seen Jin Xuyan browsing his performance videos. That day she was standing in front of Yan's desk to report on the task. After she finished speaking, Yan turned the screen around and said with a smile: "You said this world After all this, how come he still has such bright and proud eyes, as if the troubled times and disasters in this world have nothing to do with him."
She still remembers her surprise when she saw Lumen's performance at the beginning of that day - the superstar in red was so bright and gorgeous that it was indeed a light that was difficult to bury.
Lu Ming raised his wrist to wipe the sweat from his chin, "I'm sorry, I'm so embarrassed, I made you laugh."
"No. You look good in red." Mian retracted her gaze, "But red is too eye-catching in the swamp. Almost all the mud whips along the way are aimed at you."
"Heh." Lu Ming laughed and whispered: "Otherwise, how can I let him know that I am back?"
Mian was stunned for a moment when he heard this. He was a little unsure whether the "he" with a slightly mocking tone referred to the chief or the black goat. She has been busy on one mission after another, rarely returning to the minaret, and has only seen Lumen and her superiors interact with each other on a daily basis a few times. In my impression, Lu Ming always spoke with thorns, but for such a rebellious person, he tried to run back to the swamp countless times in the past two months. Even the good-tempered Tang Feng was annoyed by him, and he threatened coldly: "Any more Once, I'll break your hand."
"You cut off my hand, I still have to go back to the swamp." Lu Ming in the solitary room laughed dryly and murmured to himself like crazy: "I can't owe him so much, leave him there and come back alone. .”
Mian is an orphan, a mercenary, and the worst at reading people's hearts. All she knew was that even during the days when Lumen was forced to join the Order, he never tried to escape from the Spire.
Mian came back to his senses and said solemnly: "The black goat is too difficult to eradicate. This swamp is already a part of it."
"Then don't eradicate it." Lumen said simply.
