Dr. Lu seemed to want to sit next to Qin Jue and give her a hug, but after a brief consideration, he stopped getting up.
Qin Jue did not miss this moment of kindness and thanked him in surprise.
She put away her bright and artificial smile, her face was clearly young, but at this time it was full of untold vicissitudes of life.
"Review over."
After saying something softly, Qin Jue put down the pen and paper.
There is already a lot of content on this white paper and it is filled to the brim.
The format of the middle part is still very neat. The left is the specific time range, and the right is followed by the corresponding keywords. Then it gradually becomes chaotic, and finally it looks like irregular graffiti. There are writings in the blank places, occasionally mixed with a few or The simple drawings that were blackened out or remained, changed from neat reports to messy scratch paper.
Dr. Lu added warm water to Qin Jue, then left the living room and returned to the inner room to print out the monitoring results of the bracelet, leaving Qin Jue enough time and space to be alone.
With a slight "click", Qin Jue bit into the chocolate, and the sweet taste spread between her teeth. She didn't like it very much, but she was too lazy to frown, so she just chewed mechanically, lying on the sofa languidly, her eyes empty. Yes, there is no focus, just staring at the wall in a daze.
After a while, Dr. Lu came back with his slippers in hand, holding a thick stack of reports.
She raised her hand to signal, and Qin Jue shook his head slightly, indicating that he had no interest in reading.
So the heavy report and the thin review were placed side by side on the coffee table. As soon as Dr. Lu's eyes fell, a sigh overflowed in his heart.
In black and white, the actor's journey from his debut to the present is presented in an understatement.
Two-thirds of the pages are devoted to "Qing Qing".
Either a casual and leisurely continuous stroke, or a slow calligraphy stroke by stroke, each word with great emotion.
Dr. Lu has provided psychological counseling to many artists in the industry so far, but Qin Jue is the only one who cares about fans to this extent.
In the past, celebrities who had emotional ties with fans were either deeply troubled by their fanatical illegitimate behavior, or were suffocated by their sincere love and expectations, and were distressed under heavy pressure.
Only Qin Jue cared about his fans.
Care about their status, changes, and even the growth and development of their personality.
I have never seen such an artist before.
There are a lot of fans who chase stars and have true feelings for them, but actors who have true feelings and make fans worry about them are rare.
Doctor Lu closed his eyes.
This person, Qin Jue, is both special and typical. She has a strange and compassionate feeling in her body. Mother's love that was abnormal since birth, father's love that she had and then gradually deteriorated, domestic violence, gender cognitive dissonance, school bullying, and disillusionment. The first half of her life almost included the big things a child goes through in childhood and adolescence. Some common and uncommon sufferings. Since then, she has been on her way as an actress, coexisting with mania and depression, and reconciling with herself. The journey has been arduous and continues to this day.
Losing control and hitting the wall in "Daytime Rain" and being rushed to the hospital;
A gut-wrenching rendition of "The Crucible" that disregarded the vocal cords;
The Wia fight scenes were almost non-stop during the filming of "Feiyan";
"FROZEN" runs continuously from preparation to performance.
There are many things that can be objectively judged as "hard".
However, in the process of narrating and reviewing, Qin absolutely did not mention this at all. Even when he mentions it, his words are full of ease and calmness after experiencing thousands of sails.
At first, Dr. Lu thought of this sentence:
"You were so brave and quiet that I forgot you were in pain."*
Then he saw the profound difference - Qin Jue was not hiding suffering, but he didn't feel that these were sufferings from the bottom of his heart.
Like a black hole, it absorbs and swallows all pain as a matter of course, and becomes accustomed to it.
But such a respectable, tough, and strong man is so "son-daughter" that he exposes all his delicacy and vulnerability when facing fans.
Can't stop, can't let go, can't let go.
The essence is that you care too much.
Dr. Lu was speechless for a while.
Silence spread quietly between the two of them. Qin Jue slumped quietly, like a breathing virtual doll. Countless words passed through Dr. Lu's mind, and he was almost indifferent when he spoke:
"According to the results, the people who can trigger the most intense emotions in you overall are your fans."
Qin Jue slowly came back to his senses and said "Yeah".
""The Cage" began to slowly accumulate fans, and the V-blog live broadcast set the tone for getting along. During the filming of "Daytime Rain", we established a 'family', and then reached the current emotional peak during the live broadcast of composition." Dr. Lu simply summarized.
Qin Jue did not refute.
The friends on the other side of the screen accompanied her to regain the physiological function of crying, and witnessed her reconcile with herself through the song "Servant of Death". This experience was the most important in her life after her rebirth. Unparalleled importance.
"In the first three rounds of "Entertainment Intern", the number of fans increased steadily, with a small increase. During this period, the relationship between you and your fans became deeper and deeper, and you became more and more real. The confusion, numbness, and emptiness of the past gradually disappeared, and the whole person became There must be smoke and fire, and before you know it, you are a living person with flesh and blood." Dr. Lu continued.
Qin Jue nodded.
That late night when she was sitting in the catering service area of the shopping mall, the ladies took her back to the human world.
A song "To Your Majesty" expresses all the ripples on the heartstrings.
"Since then, the popularity of the work has gradually increased, the exposure has increased, and more fans have poured in."
Dr. Lu paused at this point, "The advancement of an artist's career will inevitably be accompanied by the expansion and expansion of the fan base. This is in line with the development laws of the domestic entertainment industry environment and is an inevitable phenomenon."
"...I understand." Qin Jue said.
Doctor Lu did not repeat what happened next. After a few seconds of silence, she said:
"There is a common processing method in the industry, which is called 'cutting' as the saying goes, but it can also be called 'purification'."
Qin Jue's expression already gave her answer to this suggestion.
Dr. Lu's eyelids drooped slightly and he changed his statement:
"You are now the 'Four Specials' actor, and your reputation and status are completely different from before. Correspondingly, your fan base is not the same as before in terms of composition, interests and needs, including emotional needs.
“Currently, the best way is to distance ourselves, emphasize the difference in supply and demand between artists and fans, and maintain the boundary between the two at just the right level.
"Being related to each other, being close but not intimate, is the most appropriate and stable relationship."
Qin Jue listened carefully. After listening, he smiled bitterly and only said five words:
"I understand everything."
What Dr. Lu is talking about now is not personal psychology, but overall operations. Qin Jue must admit that what she said is clear, cold and effective, but still, she understands the truth.
She is quite stubborn, and even has some wishful thinking that she wants her cherished friends to think independently, to be a person who is clear-headed and rational, not bound by the many rules of the rice circle, and not bound by inherent thinking, and to be someone who can trust each other and have nothing to say. Don't talk about friends, but be relatives who have equal status with her, and only care about each other and have no debt.
The new fans who joined later were just "strong in numbers". Qin Jue was so familiar with those Qingqings that she could remember even changing their IDs several times. She really didn't want to see them change their appearance little by little and become unpleasant. Dare to recognize each other.
This feeling is very complicated.
To use an inappropriate metaphor, it is like the elders in the family watching the younger generations they love and care about "fail to learn well" and "degrade", losing their former innocence and innocence.
It’s hard not to worry.
Dr. Lu had already anticipated Qin Jue's reaction and did not insist. He just sighed softly with a faint smile.
This is one of the most common situations in psychological counseling - the person sitting opposite has a clear understanding of the situation, but he just can't get past his own hurdle.
The knot is difficult to resolve and it all depends on the individual. Persuasion and advice from an outsider alone are of no use.
Especially patients like Qin Jue who can see things more clearly than a psychiatrist. If she was "obsessed", she might be able to learn from the pain and make changes after being awakened, but Qin Jue was "soberly trapped", and it would only be harder to get out of this self-imposed prison.
Dr. Lu no longer dwelled on fans and said warmly:
"In this case, we might be able to change our thinking."
Qin Jue raised his upper body and listened attentively.
"When we are unable or inconvenient to treat the root cause, treating the symptoms is also a good choice."
Dr. Lu said eloquently, "The second one in 'digestion' is 'relief'. Miss Qin, have you noticed that the music that makes you feel happy and relaxed seems to have not appeared in your music for some time?" In life?"
Qin Jue was startled.
"...Indeed." Her voice showed a rare hesitation.
Dr. Lu consciously kept silent and gave Qin Jue time to think on his own.
Qin Jue lowered his head to look at the piece of paper, recalled everything along the timeline, and found the reason in a short time.
Whether it is "FROZEN" or the two idol groups, she serves as a composer and fulfills the responsibility of providing songs or performing songs.
The reason is simple. The song is not her original work. It is enough for the porter to hide behind the scenes and keep a low profile. Publicizing it in public is disrespectful to the original author and also indulgent to herself.
Especially after being severely shaken by the cheers from the audience at the Huang Ensemble's concert, Qin Jue paid more attention to this aspect, suppressing his love for music and singing almost like an ascetic, and also deliberately reduced the frequency of public performances.
Before Dr. Lu pointed out this matter, Qin Jue had always regarded these changes as "emphasizing his own positioning and not letting his status as a singer, songwriter, etc. overshadow his true duties as an actor."
But she didn't realize that she had scruples about it in her heart.
While this scruple allowed her to control herself, it also deprived her of a channel to soothe her emotions.
Does Qin Jue like music? certainly.
Looking back on those days, her ideal, her future plan for herself, was to become a behind-the-scenes musician after graduation.
Only then did Qin Jue feel like he was enlightened:
"Thank you."
She can sing and practice piano in private. She doesn't have to go to such extremes. She just wants to avoid plagiarism and transfer, so she just avoids enjoying the music itself.
Dr. Lu smiled sweetly.
"Although it is a 'delay strategy,' diverting attention is an effective way to regulate emotions."
She said softly, "Give yourself more time and energy."
Qin Jue nodded slowly and seriously.
"As for the other piece of advice, I don't think I need to say much."
Dr. Lu continued, "In the review just now, all your descriptions of acting and co-creating literary and artistic works reveal your sincere concentration and enthusiasm, so I think that when you feel upset, put things aside and concentrate on studying the characters. , it should be perfect for you to practice your acting skills."
Qin Jue smiled and said, "That's true."
Dr. Lu's two methods treat the symptoms but not the root cause, but they remind Qin Jue that she is not the only one who needs to care about her; the fan ecology is a worry that she cannot let go of, but it is not the whole of her life.
In plain English it is nothing more than:
"Don't worry about others, focus more on yourself."
Qin Jue couldn't help but laugh after thinking about this.
"I am..." she said in a long voice, leaving all the unfinished words unfinished.
Dr. Lu smiled.
People who are too responsible will always think of others first, but their own feelings are often unconsciously ignored because they are subconsciously "unimportant" and "indifferent".
The atmosphere in the living room relaxed. After waiting quietly for a short while, Dr. Lu glanced at the paper full of words and the physiological indicator monitoring report, and spoke softly:
"We have almost talked about the crux of the matter that is exposed on the surface, so... maybe we can try to talk about the problems under the water now?"
*From Hemingway's "A Farewell to Arms"
3500+, which adds up to 2800+ in the previous chapter, totaling 6300+. In addition to the updates of 4.2 and 4.3, an additional update of 3.26 has been added.
There is another chapter today (4.4).
