The frequency of updates has dropped recently, and I'm really sorry.
Mainly because other workloads have increased, taking up a lot of energy and time. There were a few nights when I finished other work and started writing updates as scheduled, but I couldn’t write anymore...
Because I don’t want to reduce the quality of the story and text, and don’t want to be too polished, my updates will take more effort. In a state of fatigue, what you write cannot pass your own test, which leads to the situation of "cannot write anymore".
Then, as the workload increased, symptoms of eye fatigue appeared again. My job is to stare at the computer and write. After the writing task is completed, I read. The day often passes in a flash - it means that my eyes have not rested for the whole day.
So I plan to deliberately control my working hours these days and give my eyes a rest.
On the other hand, I have recently started trying to observe myself. Then, I discovered something special:
There has always been an element of paranoia in my work.
In short, you just can’t stop, and you will feel anxious if you stop.
Working hard every day can give you a sense of satisfaction, which I think is healthy.
However, not allowing myself to rest and feeling guilty when I stop seems to me to be abnormal.
From this, I thought of a sentence: What can be stopped is called life, and what cannot be stopped is out of control.
I have always had strict requirements for writing. I am not allowed to write typos or wrong sentences. While the story is exciting, I even try to require that what I write has a certain degree of literary quality (this has not been done yet) OK, it’s just the direction of my efforts)
In addition to writing, I also require myself to read widely.
The reason is because I want to keep doing this. I am not satisfied with the current level, I want to do this better and keep growing.
I want to be able to write better works, and I don’t even care so much about other rewards besides understanding readers and their love.
From this, I realized that what I wanted to pursue was "better", not the amount of updates.
And the "stop" that I am anxious about is conducive to a long journey worth enjoying.
Also, I'm sure I need more reading time.
So, with this in mind, I'm going to adjust my status.
Enjoy your work, but be brave enough to stop.
Due to eye fatigue, I have to rest today and see how things go tomorrow.
Then, due to the increase in other workloads, it will not decrease for a long time, and the energy is limited. After that, the more rhythm may be to work on two or three days off, or update every other day.
I still feel a lot of apologies for not being able to update every day. I can only hope that I can write better to give back to those who have fallen in love with me by mistake.
