Backlund University, office floor of the History Department.
In the large office of the lecturers, Valeera sat in her semi-independent office area, supporting her chin with one hand and staring straight at the table, looking like she was in a daze.
No one knew that she was actually sorting herself out and adjusting her mood.
Her recent state of mind is actually not stable, and overall she is on the negative side. She relies solely on the "Happiness" Witch's ability to control herself to maintain the apparent stability.
There are two main reasons for her state.
One is that there is a problem with the performance of the "Happiness" potion:
After returning from Tingen, due to Dunn's help, her speed in digesting potions has actually improved significantly some time ago.
Unfortunately, this state of affairs did not last long.
From the past few days, she could no longer feel any signs of digestion, but she felt that her digestion progress was only half way at most!
She had a bad suspicion about the situation, and it weighed heavily on her mind.
The other is the torture of self-awareness:
After being promoted to "Witch", he spent most of his time acting as Valeera, a female, which made him feel more and more depressed.
At the beginning, maybe it was because of the heavy traces of the performance, or because of the curiosity... In short, it didn't feel that bad; but as he gradually became familiar with the female identity, the performance became more and more smooth, and even natural, and his psychological pressure It also started getting bigger and bigger.
The most terrible thing is that he has no way to release his suppressed emotions, so he can only deal with it in his heart, even taking into account the constancy of his outward appearance.
It's so uncomfortable.
too painful.
It wasn't until recently that he deeply understood the reason for Qili's psychological change——
That's not just because you don't know the precautions for "acting"! I'm afraid... the main reason is cognitive suffering.
This pain goes straight to the depths of my heart and is endless.
If he didn't know that crucial note, I'm afraid he would have started to waver now.
After all...as long as you accept the physical transformation and achieve physical and mental reconciliation, the cognitive suffering will fade away or even disappear, and you will usher in a new life as if you were reborn.
Isn't this easier than being a psychopath?
Unfortunately, the right path is often not easy, and the "Witch" path is no exception.
No wonder...
He somewhat understood why witches like to collect photos of themselves as men.
Because it really works!
Perhaps, "they" are similar to him. Only when they are alone, looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar selves, can they temporarily put aside reality, immerse themselves in those deep memories of the past, and find their true selves.
But at the same time, he didn't understand why those witches could devote themselves to "pleasure" without any hesitation, even if it was just an act.
He really couldn't understand it at all.
Because let alone men, he doesn’t even dare to get too close to women!
When he was first promoted to "Witch", his mentality was relatively tolerant...but as time went by, he began to become more and more sensitive, like a frightened and suspicious little beast.
This also exacerbated the fragmentation in his heart and performance.
Not long ago at the Cragg Club, he and Crane shared a close embrace.
Although this was his deliberate design, it was a necessary performance to stay away from Klein——
Only by showing closeness and understanding can we bring out enough strangeness through contrast and contrast, so as to reasonably distance ourselves.
However, his resistance and discomfort with this hug were still far greater than the last time.
If it weren't for the "Happiness" Witch's super control over her own state, he wouldn't have been able to complete this performance.
It's so hard.
Only now did he have enough space to calm down
state of mind.
…
Jingle bell, jingle bell.
The wall clock in the office rang, bringing back Valeera's wandering thoughts.
It's time to get ready for class.
Valila calmed down, regained her usual smiling expression, picked up the teaching materials prepared on the table, and walked out of the office with greetings.
Suffer it...
Just hold on...
The difficult turning point has passed. As long as we overcome another difficulty, it will be sunny after the rain.
Valeela walked out of the office building, looked up and saw a rare ray of sunlight shining through the layers of clouds, and the curve of the corner of her mouth gradually became more natural.
…
After dinner, Klein was originally going to use "Communication Cream" to contact Valeela, which was their agreement.
But an unexpected guest rang his doorbell.
Amidst the clanging sound, Klein tensed up, put on a coat made of various materials with extreme vigilance, and walked towards the door.
He will not forget the coming danger!
Standing behind the door, Klein waited for a moment. Relying on the "clown's" intuition, the scene outside naturally appeared in his mind.
The red moon loomed in the sky, and the elegant gas street lamps on both sides of the street illuminated the wet road. A boy wearing an old coat stood there, his bright red eyes deep and slightly confused.
Yin Wright?
Isn't this the revelation picture I saw in my dream divination? !
Did the signs of danger appear so quickly? Klein opened the door and took two steps back warily.
"Detective Moriarty." Yin took off his brown dome hat and bowed, "I'm here to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting you involved in such a dangerous incident."
…
"Please allow me to say sorry again." Yin En bowed deeply, "It's time for me to go. I have to disappear for a while, otherwise I will probably be thrown into prison."
After saying that, Yin En put on his hat, said goodbye and left.
Klein didn't stop him and watched him disappear into the crimson moonlight.
Through the conversation he had just had with Yin En, the client, he finally understood the cause and effect of the whole matter——
Because of a manuscript of the third-generation differential engine, he was accidentally involved in the dispute between the intelligence agencies of the three countries in the northern continent.
Among them, the dead Detective Zerrell is on the side of the Fusac Empire, and Yin En can barely be counted; Ambassador Backlund and Meursault and others are on the Intis side; as for the military and MI9, there is no doubt that Represents the Kingdom of Loen.
Both sides who are still fighting know the whereabouts of the manuscript. It seems that the fight will end tonight... It seems that the crisis I foresee is indeed the retaliation from the ambassador... Just hold on until Beckron is successfully assassinated. , this matter should be completely over for me...
Thinking of this, Klein even began to look forward to the arrival of the attacker... May the goddess bless him, the best one to come is the Extraordinary of the "divineer" path!
After a while, the tinkling sound echoed again——
Someone rang the doorbell again.
