For a young girl who has just begun to fall in love, it must not be difficult to understand that even a casual relationship can become the lover of her dreams, right? Shuangye also sighed, and then slowly said:
"And for a woman who has just lost her parents and has no relatives... She has been looked down upon for a living, and she is full of poems but can only copy those boring official documents. She lives in the grief of her parents' passing every day. Every day seems to be just for the sake of being able to eat tomorrow, and every day I am squandering my remaining dignity just to live.”
"For such a woman, the man she once met is like a straw for a drowning person. He is the only embellishment in her miserable life that can make her laugh and give her life hope and meaning. . The world is so difficult. Everyone living in troubled times seems to be rootless and precarious. The past is full of sorrow and the future is full of suffering. Without some pursuit, people cannot survive. "
"Every time the little girl feels like she can't live anymore, she doesn't want to continue such a meaningless life, she doesn't want to reunite with her parents in her dreams again and again, only to find nothing when she wakes up... Every time this happens, the little girl I will always think of His Highness, and imagine that I can be in love with such a harmonious and elegant husband like you for the rest of my life. Only by imagining that wonderful future can I have the motivation to continue living..."
Even when he knew that the two of them were destined to have no future, Shuangye's eyes still glowed with longing when talking about the dream marriage life. In fact, she is very beautiful, with delicate and delicate facial features and a fascinating bookish air. If Imagawa Yoshimoto had never met Ginkgo...
Imagawa Yoshimoto shook his head - such an assumption is meaningless, and even thinking about this idea will make him feel a little unhappy. Yes, he just met Ginkgo, no ifs. Therefore, he and Shuangye were destined to have no chance.
And Imagawa Yoshimoto also understands Shuangye's "pursuit" very well. Isn't this what he said to Ginkgo?
In this troubled world, separation and death, family breakdown and death have become commonplace. Even if you are a prime minister or a famous person, you don't know if you will see the sun tomorrow - even if you don't have to face foreign enemies approaching the city, you still can't prevent the "lower overcoming the upper" that is popular all over the world. A surprise attack or rebellion by a small person may cause the big man to die without a burial place - not to mention the millions of people in the world who are not even small people...
For them, just surviving is already extremely difficult. A random rebellion, turmoil, or even robbery would be enough to kill them.
Nothing lasts forever, nothing lasts long-term, nothing lives and works in peace and contentment... Everyone's tomorrow is full of variables, and everyone doesn't know what the future will be like or where life will go - the sense of stability that human beings need most is exactly the same. It is the most luxurious object of this era. The unknown and fear of the future hang over everyone's head, making them uneasy and trembling.
If you are allowed to be dominated by this fear day and night, thinking about what to do in the future day and night - only to find that no matter what you do, it is impossible to be complete, or even powerless - what a painful and torturous life it will be?
Therefore, countless residents in troubled times have learned to be numb, naturally avoiding discussions about future dangers, and living one day at a time - human shortsightedness, isn't it a form of psychological self-protection? Because the longer you look, the more despair you will feel.
But what is the difference between a life of muddling through and a domestic animal in captivity? Therefore, there are many people who are unwilling to accept that their lives are like this. They feel that living like this is worse than death. What is the difference between living like this and the walking dead? So they have pursuits - power, fame, money, wine, beautiful women... all kinds of pursuits.
Since you can't pursue a stable future, then do your best to enjoy the beautiful things in the world. Only by fantasizing about these pursuits can people have the motivation to work hard to live - because if they die, they will not be able to enjoy it.
That's why Imagawa Yoshimoto said to Ginkgo, let her find some pursuit, because without pursuit, she can't survive in troubled times.
What does Imagawa Yoshimoto himself pursue? Unlike those secular warriors, he, an arty monk, is more romantic, not about vulgar fame and fortune - but about flowers, birds, romance, poetry, songs, famous mountains and rivers, and of course family happiness. For the past twenty years, he has worked hard to live for these reasons. Every time when his life was hanging by a thread, he always thought, "If I die, I will never enjoy those good things again", so he had the motivation to continue fighting for survival. Now, in addition to those pursuits, there may be a family responsibility before him.
What is Shuangye pursuing? In fact, she is very similar to Imagawa Yoshimoto. She does not care about worldly things, but like a romantic literati, she longs for a beautiful love. Not marrying a strong man who can do farm work and support the family, but a romantic and talented man who can match her talent and can compete with her poetry. Maybe it's a little unrealistic, but the pursuit is always unrealistic. The reality is already so cruel, how can we not allow people to pursue some extraordinary things?
Both parents died, and a woman was left alone, having to bow her head in order to survive - the hardships of the past few years were really too cruel for a talented literary woman. That's why she immersed everything in her pursuit, relying on the love in her fantasy to support her through every day.
Therefore, in the eyes of Imagawa Yoshimoto, he and Shuangye only had a few friendships, and the total time they saw each other was less than 10 days, so there should not be any feelings. But in Shuangye's heart, this is the love that she has thought about for more than two thousand days and nights - and this illusory pursuit is projected on the individual Imagawa Yoshimoto, giving him a love that he did not have. The meaning of it - it is all a girl's desire for beauty. Therefore, there will be a significant temperature difference in the relationship between Shuangye and Imagawa Yoshimoto - to put it harshly, Shuangye is too self-moved and self-defeated.
But Imagawa Yoshimoto understands Shuangye very well, and understands that her life depends entirely on that little pursuit. Why doesn't he live just for pursuit?
Thinking about it this way, it might be more cruel to force her to get married, have a husband and raise children. It would be more painful for her to accept the brokenness of the pursuit and to have to marry someone she didn't love than to live her life alone in a fantasy pursuit.
Thinking of this, Imagawa Yoshimoto let out a long sigh. Instead of trying to persuade Shuangye, he sat down at the table in front of her.
"Drink." Shuangye did not make tea for Imagawa Yoshimoto. Instead, he took out two bottles of wine from the cabinet, tried his best to squeeze out a smile and said: "It's Jiayan's Mingguo wine. I always said when I was a kid, it's... The little girl drank it when she got married... The family Yan didn't wait until that day, and the little girl probably wouldn't have another chance to get married, so she just drank it like this."
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By the time Imagawa Yoshimoto woke up again, it was already night.
Imagawa Yoshimoto only felt dizzy all over, and the pain in his head was as sharp as tearing - is Mingguo's drinking so strong?
He started to recall the details before he fell drunk, but found that he couldn't remember anything. He clearly felt that he didn't drink much - is this the fragment that Ginkgo often encounters when he wakes up and forgets what happened before going to bed?
"I didn't expect His Highness to drink so badly." Shuangye on the side handed Imagawa Yoshimoto a cup of tea as if nothing had happened. Only then did Imagawa Yoshimoto realize that there was a woman in the room, and he quickly looked at himself and Shuangye. Clothes - I breathed a sigh of relief when I found that they were all neat.
"I'm very sorry. I'm so rude. I've caused you trouble." Imagawa Yoshimoto endured his headache and bowed to Shuangye. Then he stood up and said, "It's getting late, so I have to excuse myself. I can't stay outside." overnight."
"This is the last time we meet, can't you stay with the little girl for a while longer?" Shuangye sighed, and went to open the door for Imagawa Yoshimoto with some sadness.
"I will come again next year." Imagawa Yoshimoto smiled hard, and while holding on to the wall and walking out of the door, he said to Shuangye: "I was too self-righteous before, and I will never force the young lady to get married in the future."
"Huh?" Shuangye was stunned for a moment, and the towel in his hand fell to the ground. He looked at Imagawa Yoshimoto in disbelief: "Why didn't His Highness tell you earlier..."
"I just figured it out not long ago..." Imagawa Yoshimoto did not ponder the meaning of Shuangye's words, but was focused on going home, "Farewell! I'm sorry."
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On the way back to Imagawakan, Imagawa Yoshimoto, who had a splitting headache, tried his best to control the horse and sat down. Several times he felt like he was going to fall off the horse - but in those days there was no concept of drunk driving, nor was it possible to drink without riding a horse, and without riding a horse. Drinking, so Imagawa Yoshimoto naturally has no awareness of this. However, after he almost fell down several times in a row, he not only began to doubt whether it was because of drinking too much that Uesugi Sadamasa, the head of the Ogitani Uesugi family, fell to his death after falling off his horse.
After returning to the castle tower, Ginkgo, the sleeping baby, had already fallen asleep, and Imagawa Yoshimoto's mattress was spread beside him. Imagawa Yoshimoto tiptoed and was about to get into bed, but found Imagawa Goro appearing outside the door.
"Goro, why aren't you asleep yet?" Imagawa Yoshimoto was afraid of waking up Ginkgo - although it is actually difficult to wake up a sleeping Ginkgo - but Imagawa Yoshimoto still lowered his voice and asked.
"Coming back so late and still smelling of alcohol, dad won't go out to find women, right?" Imagawa Goro looked suspicious, tilted his head, and stared at Imagawa Yoshimoto with his big eyes.
"What are you talking about? Go to bed." Imakawa Yoshimoto suddenly had black lines on his face - why is this little child so full of these things in his head? Sure enough, did he accidentally see the things in the whale house and enlighten him prematurely?
"Really not?" Imagawa Goro pouted, his eyes full of disbelief.
"Don't talk about this all day, you will spoil your younger brothers and sisters." Imagawa Yoshimoto covered himself with a quilt, looked back at Imagawa Goro and said, "Close the door for dad, and you should go to bed early."
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