In Pei Yourong's eyes, An Youzhen has always been an easy-to-understand person. Although she looks cheerful, she is actually very sensitive.
She often looks at other people's faces and is very concerned about changes in the surrounding environment, thus neglecting self-regulation, so she always displays immature emotions on her face.
Likewise, because of her sensitivity, she is easily hurt, often makes pessimistic guesses, and is always tormented by thoughts of one kind or another.
Therefore, An Youzhen would sometimes make a sad expression unconsciously, with her lips pursed tightly and her brows furrowed, which even she herself was not aware of.
Like now.
Pei Yourong felt that this world was really magical. It was obvious that Pei Yourong was not Pei Yourong, but An Youzhen was still the same An Youzhen.
Still so kind.
When he sees himself sad, he will also make a sad expression inexplicably.
Even though she doesn't know her name here yet.
But Pei Yourong doesn't want such kindness, she doesn't want such pity and sympathy. She still wants An Youzhen to be like before, running over and shaking her arms while shouting "Ooni, Ooni!" , two shallow dimples were drawn on one side of the face.
Although the An Youzhen in front of her now is still An Youzhen, it is no longer her "An Youzhen". The An Youzhen here is more mature.
Also stranger.
The round and tender look that once covered this face has disappeared now. Such exquisite makeup unexpectedly fits her, and is particularly suitable, making her look more like a big star now.
Also, Pei Yourong heard that she became the captain, appeared in a particularly popular variety show, and had myopia surgery not long ago.
Time has changed many things.
However, Pei Yourong still stayed where he was.
Pei Yourong couldn't help but wonder, would An Youzhen like this still pester someone and act coquettishly?
But even if there were, the target would definitely not be her, right?
"Excuse me, I really have a lot to say to you."
When Chao An Youzhen broke down in tears and smiled, Pei Yourong lamented in his heart.
Many emotions emerged from all corners of his heart, with mixed feelings. Pei Yourong knew for the first time that there were so many categories of regret.
And when he told An Youzhen his name, the regret faded a little.
Just some.
Pei Yourong was always satisfied with this meeting. In a strange world, it was not a comfort to be able to see someone he particularly cared about.
However, this comfort is too cheap.
Everyone can meet up if they buy a ticket.
But now that I'm here, I have to do something worth paying for.
After all, she borrowed money to sign the book.
So Pei Yourong held An Youzhen's hand.
Hold tightly.
"Now, do you remember my name?"
she says.
…
An Youzhen finally went to the hospital.
After that book signing, her symptoms became more severe.
Thinking of the vague remarks made by her manager and teammates, An Youzhen, who was walking in the corridor of the hospital, began to feel regret again. Maybe she shouldn't have been so impulsive, and she shouldn't have come to the hospital alone so rashly.
And just such a moment of confusion caused An Youzhen to get into trouble. The moment she wasn't paying attention, she bumped into someone who was also walking in the corridor.
"I'm so sorry!" She apologized subconsciously.
But the other party seemed to be indifferent and left without looking back.
Suddenly a gust of wind blew, blowing the long hair hanging next to the man's face.
An Youzhen recognized that the lost figure was the trembling and sobbing girl at the book signing.
That name was like a brand, and it was firmly imprinted on An Youzhen's heart from that day on.
"Why is she here too?"
An Youzhen, who was in a mess in her heart, walked into the consulting room with doubts, as if something was helping to pull her away. After sitting on the chair, An Youzhen looked at the doctor in front of the doctor's desk with her eyes bewitched. A medical record sheet.
"Is this An Youzhen?"
"Inside."
"Is there something uncomfortable? Or is there a special symptom?"
"Well, doctor nim, I want to ask a question first."
"Speaking."
"How is your condition?"
It only took a moment for An Youzhen to make the decision to inquire about information. In order to win the doctor's trust, she deliberately used an affectionate tone to call the girl who she didn't even know how old she was, hoping to confuse the other person. audiovisual.
But what even she didn't know was how smoothly she would shout out "Yourong Ernie".
The doctor seemed to trust An Youzhen because of this, feeling that she was really a relative and friend of the previous patient, so he spoke in a slightly solemn tone.
"Your friend is not doing well."
"The initial diagnosis is schizophrenia. She seems to have two personalities. One personality was well in the orphanage before... well, let's call it alive."
"The other personality probably appeared recently, and its characteristic is that it believes that it comes from another world."
"But you also know, how is such a thing possible?"
"So we think she also has strong hallucinations."
Schizophrenia, hallucinations.
Such terms are both distant and unfamiliar to An Youzhen, and they also make her feel inexplicably scared.
There seemed to be a voice in her heart that was constantly shouting, resisting, and resisting accepting these disease terms.
No, it's definitely not like that. How could she have a mental illness?
But what kind of person would cry like that when he sees himself?
"Wait, did you just say orphanage?" An Youzhen thought of another term.
"Don't you know? This patient seems to be an orphan."
"I grew up in an orphanage since I was a child."
"By the way, I see that she still has symptoms of malnutrition, which are a bit serious. It seems that she hasn't had a good rest or eaten for a long time."
"I just asked her to go to the medical examination department for examination."
"As her friend, you should also advise her to live a regular life."
…
Pei Yourong was once again in a dilemma of lack of money.
Eating, taking a taxi, signing autographs, and going to the hospital.
Everything was like a worm, desperately sucking the blood from her body.
She could skip meals, or deliberately ignore the doctor's advice and buy expensive medicines and nutritional supplements, but she had to pay back the money lent to her by the store manager.
Although the store manager said that the money could be deducted from her future salary, Pei Yourong did not intend to repay it like that. What she needed was a new and faster way to obtain money.
Because she probably can't wait until the day when her salary is paid.
After receiving such a ridiculous diagnosis from the doctor, Pei Yourong felt particularly homesick and was ready to go home.
She is ready to leave this world.
