Yu Sheng has always been unable to understand Qin Huan. It cannot be denied that Qin Huan taught her a lot, but he also gave her the depression accumulated over time.
The Yu family and his wife recognized Yu Zhihuai when they were picking her up. At first, Yu Sheng didn't want to recognize her, but for some reason, they ran to Qin Huan and cried.
Yu Sheng talked about the reason why she was abandoned in the first place, but Qin Huan only told her that her parents had been so kind to her. Qin Huan was really eloquent and knew a lot of truths. His words moved the heavens and the earth, and Yu Sheng felt soft. , I accepted it.
Qin Huan said, they are your biological parents, and they have their own difficulties. As a child, you should not bear grudges against them.
Yu Sheng also hopes that they have their own reasons for their difficulties, and also hopes that their parents are by their side, not asking them to take care of them, but only asking them not to give up on themselves at certain moments without hesitation.
For the first time, she carried gifts with trepidation and went home for the holidays. As soon as the things were put down, they were asked to light a fire for cooking.
People can understand the true feelings and false intentions of others.
Later, she was able to understand her parents' difficulties and their decision to give up a burdensome decision when faced with hunger and cold. She could even praise their hard-heartedness and reason, as well as their unyielding loyalty to their masters, which can be learned from the sun and the moon.
She understood, but never forgave.
If she is forgiven, how should she explain the years when she was wandering between life and death.
She had always been a light sleeper and would wake up at the slightest movement. It wasn't until she entered Qingbai Mountain Society, and until she was good enough to study under Qin Huan, that she felt a little more at ease.
But Qin Huan gave her another kind of urgency.
As a teacher who appeared in Mr. Yangming's study, didn't he know the purpose of the Yu family and his wife?
Knowingly, why let it, or even acquiesce.
Yu Sheng was silent for a while and then said with a cold face, "If I give up my quota in exchange for the separation of father and daughter, will I change it?"
Yu Shu scolded her for being heartless and shameless. Yu Feng grabbed his wife and said impatiently, "Excuse me, remember your words. Go tell Mr. Yangming now."
The Yu family couple were worried and kept supervising her until she entered the Ming Jing Pavilion.
Yu Sheng came to Mr. Yangming's study again, and this time Qin Huan was not there.
She bowed and said, "The student voluntarily gives up his qualifications for recommendation."
Mr. Yangming put his hands behind his back, walked to the bookshelf and pulled out a box, "Do you know what I came to see you for today?"
"I don't know."
Mr. Yangming placed the box on the desk with Si Tianjian's seal on it.
Inside is the recommender’s credentials.
Seeing that Yu Sheng was silent, Mr. Yangming softened his tone and said, "Can you tell me why you gave up?"
His intuition was related to Qin Huan's words to ask her to go home first, but he couldn't interfere in other people's private affairs at will.
"Yu Sheng, this is a rare opportunity. You should know how important the people who are recommended are. You cannot compare with those who are admitted."
Being recommended by sociology represents the approval of all teachers and is Si Tianjian's primary concern.
Yu Sheng remained unwavering, with a hint of determination, "I give up."
Mr. Yangming couldn't, "As long as you don't regret it."
He watched the student leave, paced a few times in the study room, and summoned the teachers from the cultural group, "Yu Sheng gives up the quota and chooses again."
Yu Sheng was recommended by a majority of votes, so the merits of Fan Siyuan and Yu Zhihuai could not be determined based on the number of votes, so they had to be recommended again.
Mr. Lin couldn't believe it, "How could she give up when she is so good? With her temperament, she is not the kind of person who insists on proving herself through the unified examination."
"Don't mention this matter." Mr. Yangming glanced at Qin Huan, who seemed not surprised, and frowned secretly, "Let's recommend one from Fan Siyuan and Yu Zhihuaizhong."
"Fan Siyuan, Wangmei Ju's number one, has good moral character and a clean life experience. Now he has acquired martial arts skills."
"I chose Yu Zhihuai. His knowledge is among the best, he is highly motivated, he respects his teachers, and his cultivation foundation is not bad."
Each of the gentlemen made recommendations, and when it was Qin Huan's turn, he chose Yu Zhihuai.
In fact, no one was surprised. In the last recommendation, he chose Yu Zhihuai instead of his own disciple. Everyone just thought he was avoiding suspicion.
But last time he just gave his name, this time he gave an unprecedented reason, "This son has a tough mind, dares to take responsibility, values love, and can take on big responsibilities."
Mr. Lin sneered, "How do you see that he has a strong heart, just because he relies on you?!"
Qin Huan was not angry and said coherently, "I didn't choose Yu Sheng because she lacks gratitude and tolerance and can't handle family affairs well. If even her parents think there is something wrong with her moral character, then what qualifications does she have to enter?" Si Tianjian, how about managing the affairs of the world?"
"Yu Zhihuai has a strong desire to learn and respects his teachers. His family, servants and friends are also very united and harmonious, which shows that he cultivates himself and manages his family."
"Are her parents called parents? Leave your good disciple alone and worry about nothing. If you have the ability, take Yu Zhihuai and give me Yu Sheng!" Mr. Lin was so angry, if he hadn't overslept in the first place. , can make people take good care of their children as their disciples.
"It's a waste that you are so familiar with history that you are blind!"
"Mr. Lin, calm down and calm down." Everyone advised him again and again.
Qin Huan looked on with a cold face, "I know my students well, so I won't worry about you."
"You should say less." Mr. Yangming tried his best to bring the topic back, "Let's decide on the recommended candidates first. Mr. Lin, who do you recommend?"
Mr. Lin was getting angry and blurted out, "I believe Yi Zhan, his political sensitivity is much higher than yours. Not to mention Si Tianjian, he can also go to the elders' meeting!"
Mr. Yangming did not expect that a third person would appear, "This..."
Over there, Yu Sheng was walking along the mountain path. She knew that her years of depression had reached the critical point, and then the Yu family couple broke out under the teacher's hint that was not heartbreaking. This explosion was silent and continuous, so much so that she felt Burnout about the past and the future.
She needed sound to wash away this emotion, so she came to the mountain stream, where the water rushed down from the rocks and made a rumbling sound.
Suddenly her eyes were fixed, and there was a fishing rod stuck in the crack of the rocks on the shore, with a thin line hanging down into the rushing water.
Who is so stupid as to fish at the upstream outlet?
Yu Sheng hugged his knees and sat beside the fishing rod, looking blankly at the fishing line. This line was so thin. Sometimes it undulated softly with the water, and sometimes it was pulled by strong waves. The entire line was stretched straight, and even the rod trembled slightly. It seemed like he would be sucked into the water in the next breath.
She seemed to have seen the reality of an era. Fishing lines were like people, and the structure of survival was like rushing water. It was not up to her to adapt to the circumstances or be broken and destroyed.
She looked at it for an hour, and the sound of the bell startled the birds.
"What are you doing here?" When Zhan Changfeng came over, he saw such a dull girl, like duckweed in the waves.
She knew that Yu Sheng didn't have to attend class every time. After all, Professor Lan Xinting's progress was very behind for her. She mostly went to Mingjing Pavilion to open a small stove or discussed current affairs with Wangmeiju.
Yu Sheng turned to look at her faintly, making her eyebrows jump, "Girl, life is still very long, don't let your mind wander."
"..." Yu Shengfu looked at the flowing water again and sighed, "I'm a little confused."
Zhan Changfeng was slightly surprised, he didn't expect her to admit it directly.
Whenever Zhan Changfeng sees a person, he will subconsciously analyze the person's personality from all aspects of appearance, behavior, conversation, and temperament to ensure his predictability.
So when she first met Yu Sheng, she knew that he was a very tolerant person. Being able to make a forbearing person admit that he is unhappy shows that the string that is being tightened is about to break.
"After I expressed some confusion, I figured it out myself." Zhan Changfeng added, "I won't listen."
Yu Shengguo couldn't help but smile when he saw her sitting cross-legged and meditating, not listening to what was going on outside the window. "Are you comforting me?"
She put her chin on her knees and really laughed. A cold person was actually comforting her.
In fact, she had listened to the sound of water for a long time, and the emotional hurt caused to her by the Yu family and his wife had been diluted.
She was depressed for some deeper reasons.
Yu Sheng studied under Qin Huan when he was nine years old. Many of his cognitions were influenced by him, but he was full of doubts about the filial piety and self-cultivation he advocated.
