He laughed at himself when he said this, and Tang Yuanyuan looked at his bitter smile and asked worriedly:
"Although it seems a little late to ask this...do you really have nothing to do with it?"
She still hasn't forgotten the past things he mentioned to her when she first met Yi Huai. At that time, Yi Huai's obsession with finding people was still very obvious. From his words at that time, it seemed that that was the only thing she could think of. It can support his obsession that still exists, so in the past she has been worried that if this obsession is lost one day, Yi Huai may show a strong self-destructive tendency...
But now this bad future seems to have arrived early. Fortunately, the other party does not seem to fall into the worst situation she imagined, such as losing control.
Even on the surface, Yi Huai seemed to be much calmer than she imagined, but she had no way of knowing what the other person was thinking under this calmness.
Yi Huai didn't seem surprised by her question, but he still thought about it for a while. He looked into her eyes and hesitated several times, as if he was thinking about whether to answer, but in the end he seemed to have made up his mind. He opened his mouth as well.
"To say it, I feel a little strange myself." He laughed self-deprecatingly, "Although when you mentioned the boy's matter and I knew that these things had become a foregone conclusion, I did feel a sense of powerlessness, but I didn't Surprisingly... I'm not as desperate as I thought."
"To be honest...at a certain moment, I had a feeling that everything had settled. It seemed that I had finally witnessed the end of something...and a new beginning."
"Although I did feel confused after losing the goal of finding her, and felt that everything I did before was meaningless, but now I also feel that losing this goal is not as terrible as I imagined in the past."
"It's a good thing you think so." Tang Yuanyuan breathed a sigh of relief when he heard this, feeling that Yi Huai seemed to have finally figured it out on his own and learned to let go. At least it was not as extreme as in the past when losing a goal meant losing the meaning of existence.
Since he has already thought about letting go a lot, it seems that she doesn't need to worry too much, because as long as she can let go of the past, it means that she can look forward, at least she will not be trapped in the cage called the past. inside.
Thinking of this, Tang Yuanyuan sighed softly and released his hand holding Yi Huai's wrist. He was about to say a few words of comfort to him, telling him that even if he couldn't find "her" again, maybe he could wait a little longer. New encounters, or finding the truth of the past through other methods, and then doing something for "her".
But before she could say her comforting words, the hand she was about to withdraw was suddenly grabbed by Yi Huai. She was startled and looked up again, her heart trembled when she looked at Yi Huai's eyes that were staring at her.
"Didn't you just ask me why I always like to hang around you lately?" He held her hand and spoke again, lowered his eyes on her hand, and gently rubbed her palm with his fingertips, "Because I don’t know why, but staying by your side and being close to you makes me feel at ease.”
"At least when I'm next to you, I won't think too much about things that upset me... So I just want to stay by your side, even if I don't do anything but look at you."
What's happening here?
Tang Yuanyuan was a little confused when he heard Yi Huai's words.
Yi Huai's hands holding his were a little too warm, and the eyes he looked at him seemed too hot. If he were a human male, Tang Yuanyuan would definitely feel that these remarks were a confession.
But Yi Huai is not a human being. Even if he is similar to a human being, Tang Yuanyuan does not think that he will have the overly complex emotions of humans. Even if he has such strong emotions, they will only be something purer and human. Emotional expressions may not apply to him.
But no matter what feelings Yi Huai had for saying these words, she did feel an emotion from him that was close to attachment and prayer... There was even a bit of piety in his eyes when he looked at her, No matter what kind of emotion this was, Tang Yuanyuan could not question its authenticity.
It can't be that he regards himself as a new emotional sustenance, right? Why? Did you do anything that would have a big impact on him?
She was puzzled by this. Although she didn't find the answer, she didn't withdraw her hand because she still remembered the promise she had made in the past. She said she would help him, and if she could temporarily become him, he would change his state of mind. Emotional sustenance is actually not a bad thing.
So after a brief hesitation, she gently shook his hands back, which was considered her comfort and answer.
Yi Huai was slightly startled after receiving her response, then raised his eyes again, looked into her eyes and asked:
"Tang Yuanyuan, you said before that as long as you are still here, I will always have a place to belong to, and I will no longer wander aimlessly alone like in the past. That is not a lie, right?"
"certainly."
Tang Yuanyuan nodded in response. She would not break her promise and never thought of giving up on Yi Huai.
And the next second she responded, Yi Huai made another move that surprised her.
He suddenly leaned over, stretched out his hands to pull her defenseless into his arms, and then laid his head on her shoulder.
Tang Yuanyuan was shocked and subconsciously wanted to avoid this too close physical contact, but she soon realized that this was just an ordinary hug. Yi Huai put his hands around her back, not even daring to make too big a move. Without the strength, he just gently held her in his arms, lying on her body as if he just wanted to get closer to her breath and feel the warmth of her body.
It seemed like a large dog... Tang Yuanyuan couldn't help but chuckle when she thought of this. So she didn't push Yi Huai away, but stretched out her arms to hug him, leaning her head slightly against him. smiled and patted his back.
"Don't worry, I promise things won't change for you."
"As long as I exist, you will have somewhere to go, and I will not leave alone."
"As for 'her', we may not have nothing to do. For example, we can start with the boy to find out the truth about 'her' in the past."
"Perhaps when your missing memories are completed and all the truth is revealed, you can do something meaningful for 'her'... At least in this way, you can understand why she chose to leave in the first place."
She talked to him with such a smile, leaned into his arms and heard his soft response. She did not take the initiative to end the hug, but slowly turned her face to the floor-to-ceiling window facing the living room, looking at the twinkling city lights in the night outside the window. , goose-feather-like snowflakes fell in the night sky, and Nancheng ushered in the first heavy snow of the year.
She slowly closed her eyes looking at the snowflakes falling in the night sky.
"We still have a long, long future ahead of us."
Hearing her last whisper, Yi Huai hugged her without saying anything.
His life span is very long. Time and the future have no meaning to him. But when these words came out of Tang Yuanyuan's mouth, he suddenly felt as if his time began to follow her life. flow together.
But this kind of flow does not seem to be scary, because time has meaning, so there is a past and a future, and the future she said is very good, because Tang Yuanyuan is there and she is not lonely at all.
(End of Volume 1 of Binding Yuan)
