"I like you. Even now, my heart beats faster when I see you."
Gu Jie is a shrewd person with many clever ideas and is lewd and dissolute, but such people generally have a good heart.
When facing the person he likes, Gu Jie's shrewdness and wretchedness are gone, leaving only a good heart, which is the so-called sincerity.
For the person you like, you will be nervous and your heart will beat.
"I thought it would be a cliche story between us. I would lick my face and pursue you, and you would keep rejecting me, and then you would be in danger, and then I would appear, a hero saving a beauty, or risking my life to save someone. , let you be moved, change your view of me, and finally be together happily."
"But what you said back then completely woke me up. It was me who was too naive, it was me who was too despicable, and it was me who ignorantly thought that I could be favored by heaven like Sister Bujin, and everything would go smoothly. Those who go with the flow are the protagonists in the world and can occupy a big place in your heart. It’s me... the toad wants to eat the swan meat."
Gu Jie cried and laughed twice.
"No, no, you are not a toad, and I am not a swan. You are not wrong. What happened back then was my fault. It was because I didn't understand how good you were to me. It was because I was arrogant. It was because I pretended to be noble and looked down on you. I It's my fault to judge people by their appearance and treat you like that, it's my fault, I don't ask you to forgive me, but I beg you not to take the blame on yourself!"
Lin Xue quickly shook her head and said. At this time, her face became more humble and pleading.
"I thought that was all I would do in my life. I had no ability and could only rely on being funny and making fools of myself to gain a sense of existence. I didn't have a bright and smooth road. My road was much darker than Sister Bujin's. Until... Hitomi appeared."
"She is like a goddess living in the heavenly palace, full of glory and nobility, and I am like a domestic pig in the pigsty in the lower world, eating and waiting to die. Suddenly one day, the goddess came to the pigsty and said that she wanted to have sex with her. Do you think it's nonsense to think that domestic pigs live together as a couple? Even you are unattainable in my eyes, let alone her?"
"If you were to marry me, I might be ecstatic, but Hitomi's decision to marry me makes me at a loss. I can't sleep all night. This pie is so big that I don't even dare to eat it, let alone eat it." , I’m just a **Silk, I know all about it.”
"But fate is so interesting. I really married such a woman that I never dared to marry. I slept on the same bed with her, ate at the same table with her, and even had children. I lived a life that would make many people jealous. , in the past twenty years, I have not dared to disrespect her at all, and I have never been careless in front of her. Although we are an old married couple in name, she is still the goddess in my heart, sacred and noble."
"I have average strength, dirty looks, and no temperament. Why do I act so carelessly? Isn't it just because of my own inferiority? What else can I do? It is precisely because of the inferiority complex in my heart that I can never get rid of. I dare not face my feelings for her."
As he spoke, Gu Jie walked toward the abyss with his eyes dazed.
"She is my wife and has lived with me for twenty years. How could I have no feelings for her at all? But I don't dare. I don't deserve it. She looks cold and arrogant, but in fact her heart is ten times softer than you. She is calm and wise, and is much smarter than you." The situation is much bigger. She is virtuous, delicate, and thoughtful...She is much better than you. If she has any shortcomings, then I feel more comfortable, but she is too good, and In the face of this, my feelings for her seemed insignificant, ignored, and covered up by my inferiority complex."
"I'm really nothing. Because of my pitiful low self-esteem, I only enjoy the care from her, but I don't dare to care too much about her. I think she is omnipotent and has a rock-like heart. She doesn't need me to be like this." The care of an incompetent husband, if I could have it all over again, even if she was rejected, I would tell her all my feelings and love boldly."
In the past twenty years, Gu Jie felt that he was a useless husband. Not to mention whether he had any achievements outside, he was not qualified when it came to treating his wife.
How can a man be considered qualified if he doesn't even dare to love his wife?
It's ridiculous that I'm worried about being rejected, so I don't dare to care about her too obviously for the sake of my pitiful self-esteem.
I really regret it.
"Hitomi......"
When he came to the edge of the abyss and looked at the hell scene with countless ferocious evil spirits below, Gu Jie smiled.
After so many years, he has never said the most important and common words between husband and wife to Wuliang Nu.
Maybe he didn't think it was necessary, or maybe he was feeling inferior, so he didn't dare to say it, and Wuliang Nu might not care. Gu Jie didn't want to act too sentimental, and it would be embarrassing.
I just didn't expect that in the blink of an eye, life and death would be different from each other.
I didn't expect that our life would end so soon.
Looking at the blazing fire in hell, Gu Jie's eyes were a little dazed, and the image of the Infinite Girl seemed to be reflected in the fire.
"I love you."
With these three words, Gu Jie took a step forward and fell down.
"Gu Jie!!!"
Lin Xue rushed to the edge of the abyss like crazy, watching Gu Jie fall, her heart suddenly sank to the bottom.
As if all the strength in her body had been drained away, Lin Xue slumped on the ground helplessly, and the last light in her heart finally dimmed.
She gave up everything and even became a servant in Shangting Palace just to be with Gu Jie, but now she has nothing.
Gone.
Nothing is left.
"Aren't you happy? I don't think you need it. That man likes you, but he loves his wife."
Xinlong's figure appeared beside Lin Xue at some point, and he sat down naturally.
"It's actually very easy to like. It only takes a moment. When you see someone right and you feel happy in your heart, that's when you like them."
"But love is complicated. The basis of love is companionship, which requires long-term cultivation. I like to feel worthless in front of love."
