Gugu... late stage of internal friction

It's no longer possible. I've been struggling until now, and I feel like my brain has been hollowed out.

The feeling of Kawen is really as if the mobile phone becomes laggy when using it, and I don’t know when it suddenly stops being able to move (Despair (＠_＠;)

My condition is a bit bad, and it is really disturbing to keep doing it this time and again. It will probably be a year, and maybe my focus is gradually leaning towards reality, and my time and energy are still not well coordinated.

And the long-term internal friction is really tiring...it affects your mood and overdraws your mental energy. It's like a vicious cycle - the later it gets delayed, the later it gets delayed (bushi... Thinking about it now, although there are always those sudden troubles at the beginning, they keep popping up frequently and irregularly, which makes me I'm getting more and more anxious and irritable, but now, it's really just the beginning of the day, and I feel exhausted even if I haven't done anything.

Maybe in the past, chopping wood was just chopping wood, and cooking was just cooking...

But now I worry about cooking when I'm chopping firewood, and I worry about chopping wood when I'm cooking... That's about it.

So after thinking about it, I feel that maybe I should be more decisive. I can't continue to suffer such ineffective torture on my body and mind. Let's stop for a while and give myself a real vacation... completely relax my brain. , adjust your mentality well, and concentrate on the things at hand first.

I also hope that no one will encounter such a situation, will not be confused, and will be full of motivation at all times. After all, this state is really suffocating... Thank you. (ノへ￣、)