What Hua Wuxie never understood in his previous life, in this life, after getting rid of some invisible constraints, he finally figured it out.
He finally figured it out——
What are the reasons for all those years of wasted time and madness? Is it really for a woman?
no--
But there is "someone" causing trouble and controlling his life!
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Hua Wuxie, who was born as a proud son of heaven and was romantic and passionate at a young age, never thought that one day he would become a "male favorite" who could come and go when a woman called him.
Yes, that's right, it's a male favorite. Sharing a woman with many men, and living with other men in a funny way, "calling each other brothers", isn't this a male favorite?
He even felt that he was not as good as the "concubines" he once had. At least these concubines were famous and served him willingly.
But what about himself? Probably even he himself didn't know why he hanged himself on that woman like crazy, wagging behind her and begging for mercy, and finally made himself so pitiful.
Now that his mind is clearer, and recalling his incomprehensible behavior in his previous life, he was so embarrassed that he wished he could kill himself with a knife like this.
Even though he had gone back in time, he could not deceive himself about what had happened. This will always be a stain on him, and a corner of his heart will never be able to hold his head up.
What on earth was he thinking? What did he do? Why did he do that?
Hua Wuxie was in a daze, feeling that the person who was alive in those years must be the fake him. It was just a shell covered in fake skin... However, he knew very well that that person was him.
The memories of those years are not fake. And those ridiculous things were done when he was conscious, and he knew everything.
Hua Wuxie:...
But here comes the problem. How on earth did he live like this? He even didn't understand his own death.
The headache continues to get worse.
As the headache symptoms continued to worsen, his mind became clearer and clearer. Many familiar and unfamiliar thoughts were unblocked from his consciousness, and those intense and unfamiliar emotions seemed to rebound one after another.
Hua Wuxie couldn't even tell whether these emotions belonged to him or to another soul that had been suppressed for many years and could not be released.
In the seemingly endless pain, Hua Wuxie fainted.
No one could see that the moment he fell, it seemed that half of his gray shadow was half pulled out of his body. Then, as if there was something invisible and tight, the taut thread suddenly broke, and the gray half of the shadow quickly returned, arousing a wave of demonic energy to escape around.
When I woke up again, it was still very bright outside and there was no one in the room. He shouldn't have been unconscious for long, otherwise he shouldn't have woken up in this inn, but in the Baihua Palace.
My head no longer hurts, and my whole body feels relaxed. My whole body is as soft as recovering from a serious illness, but I have never felt so relaxed before.
Hua Wuxie was silent for a moment, sighed softly, opened her eyes, and looked at her hands.
They were a pair of well-proportioned and strong fingers, with a healthy and rosy complexion, not as dead and white as before, exuding the freshness of youth.
Hua Wuxie had never realized so clearly as now... that he was back. Go back to your youth, the time when she didn't exist.
He is back!
He covered his eyes with a strange smile on his lips. But the fingertips he clenched at the edge of the couch revealed his true emotions.
After a long time, he calmed down a little, suppressed the chaotic and complicated thoughts, suppressed the rotten emotions deposited deep in his heart, and then slowly put down his hand, revealing an ordinary face.
Suddenly, a twisted affection mixed with jealousy and malice suddenly appeared on his face, and he suddenly changed into several emotions, changing so fast that it was difficult to recognize. In the end, it quickly settled into an extremely pathological possessiveness and determination to gain. The whole person looked like a mentally disturbed person, looking eerie and terrifying.
This seemed to be completely different from him just now, but it was so natural. The whole person seemed to be schizophrenic... If anyone watched the whole process, they would probably think that he was a psychopath.
Time passed by minute by minute, I don’t know how long it had passed. The stagnant air in the room stagnated, and the whole person on the bed lay limply on the bed as if his muscles and bones had been ripped out, and the madness in his body disappeared without a trace, just like an illusion.
Finally... gone——
Cold sweat broke out on Hua Wuxie's forehead, half of her body leaned out, and she retched beside the couch. The head was drooped, and the curve of the neck was at an angle of nearly ninety degrees, as if it could be broken at any time, and there was a vague feeling of being unbearable.
The man whose entire throat was in ruins and couldn't spit anything out moved feebly back to the couch. He was sweating profusely, as if he had just experienced a fierce battle.
Yes, to a certain extent, he had just fought an invisible fierce battle, fighting an extremely powerful and almost invincible enemy.
He also temporarily saved his life from this invincible being. But it once again confirmed his inner suspicion. There was no trace of joy in his heart, but only endless fear and anger.
In fact, Hua Wuxie had discovered this incident a long time ago. In his previous life, when he was still confused, he had already discovered this terrifying thing.
In order to save his life at that time, he ruthlessly sealed part of his personality and memory, and applied several hypnosis methods to himself. Only then did he successfully survive from the hands of the master.
Otherwise, based on his anomalies and discoveries at that time, perhaps that existence would have been eliminated as a heretic long ago. But the price was that he lived in confusion and humiliation for the second half of his extremely long life, which made it almost impossible for him to face that kind of self now.
It was not like he had not awakened in those years. The strange things that appeared from time to time brought him several life threats, but he was able to escape them by relying on his instinct and luck.
He also gained a lot of experience in these numerous "experiments in life", and these experiences became the help for his successful survival every time.
He understands more and more how to deceive himself? How to deceive others? How to deceive that existence——
It was also because of those "experiences" that he saved his life at the beginning of this world.
Yes... But the "guardian" who is really loyal to his duty will come to check the chess pieces as soon as he finds something strange. After discovering something was wrong with his alternative chess piece, I immediately wanted to abolish him to ensure stability. Really responsible.
Hua Wuxie thought mockingly. As long as he thought about the other party often hiding in the dark, quietly manipulating and controlling their life trajectories, he would feel sick, his stomach would turn over again, and his throat would feel sick.
