What Wang Xilou wanted to say about Jieshu's character at the time was that she actually had no character.
Needless to say, Po Nu and Chifu who are often outside, one draws out lust, the other draws out resentment (ao) and thoughts (jiao), even the demon who always has a cold face, she also has some characteristics of Wang Xilou ——Self-love.
What she showed was that she despised Feng Wuli from the bottom of her heart, and she looked like what else could you do except drool all over my face.
However, Xiejieshu did not extract any emotion from Wang Xilou. She represented Wang Xilou's side without any 'desire'.
She has no self, no person, no sentient being, and no persistent self-image. To use Feng Wuli's words to explain, she has no mouth, no heart, and no expression.
Therefore, the original Xiejieshu should have three attributes.
She was just a shadow drifting around, finally attached to a mirror.
This mirror, which is only the size of a palm, was randomly placed in front of a supermarket glass shelf by an employee. It was originally for the employee's own use, but later it was placed on the shelf for others to look in the mirror.
Every day, many people pass by her.
Either in a hurry, or slowly and leisurely, tall, short, fat and thin, men, women, old and young, alone or in groups, spring goes to autumn, summer rains and winter snows.
The mirror faithfully reflects everything that happens in front of you and everyone who passes by.
Some people would see a mirror here and come over to look at her. It should be said that they came to look at the mirror.
Thin your hair.
Check your face to see if there is any dirt.
Tidy up untied collars.
A kid of several years old made faces at her and then laughed; a family of three holding hands showed happy smiles in front of her; an office worker stood in front of her with a tie and said to himself: This tie suits her me?
Considering that talking can scare people, even if you ask me this, I can only hold back.
There was also a boy who was about to confess his love, holding flowers in front of her with a shy and uneasy look on his face.
There are sweaty elementary school students who come in to use the air conditioner, couples in love, and gray-haired old men.
She stayed in that supermarket for several years, ten or twenty years.
The kid who used to make faces at her is now holding flowers and looking shy, wondering whether the confession he is waiting for will be successful.
The elementary school student who came in to enjoy the air conditioner picked up her tie and asked her if it looked good on her.
The man in the family of three suddenly turned gray.
Every day, when the door of the supermarket opens and the morning light sweeps into the supermarket, countless people will pass by her, stop, stare at her, stare at her, and look at her... What they don't know is that behind them When they looked at themselves in the mirror, there was a monster using their eyes in the mirror to keep looking at them.
Human beings see themselves in the eyes of others through the mirror, and Xiejieshu also sees all kinds of people through the eyes of the people in the mirror, as if he has experienced different lives many times.
She is merely an observer, serving as a mirror for the humans who pass before her every day.
Xiejieshu felt that she had looked at many people, but no one had seen her eyes, until a three or four-year-old girl looked up at her.
Her eyes were as clear as a lake. She looked at herself in the mirror for a long time, and then she asked, "Who are you?"
No one looks in the mirror and asks who they see in the mirror.
The little girl in the mirror also looked at her.
But four-year-old Xie Jieshu clearly felt that she was not herself in the mirror.
She didn't know what it meant to be afraid. She stood in front of the supermarket in the mall and talked to the person in the mirror when she got lost.
Xiejieshu didn't answer her.
They talked all afternoon, but it was just the little girl talking.
The little girl's parents found their lost daughter. Her mother was still very young at the time, and her father was a meticulous man. The two found four-year-old Xie Jieshu with a look of lingering fear.
It turns out that this little girl's name has the same pronunciation as hers.
The four-year-old girl waved to her.
A few days later she came again.
"You haven't told me your name yet!" She was really persistent.
She looked at herself in the mirror stubbornly, but the other party still ignored her.
"I won't play with you anymore!"
"..."
Occasionally she would come alone and talk to the mirror.
Occasionally with her father or mother, and occasionally with a family of three, the daughter would talk to the mirror. At first, she thought it was a child's innocence, but it soon aroused her parents' concerns.
One time when little Xie Jieshu came alone, Xiejieshu told her his name and made an appointment not to come and talk to her when there were people around.
"Your name is also Xie Jieshu? What a coincidence!"
Xiejieshu did not refute what the other party said about him.
Later, the little girl often came here to chat with her.
It turned out that she had just come to live with her parents from her hometown and had not made any new friends yet.
'Xie Jieshu' in the mirror became the first friend of Xie Jieshu outside the mirror, and she made friends with 'herself' in the mirror.
The little girl comes to talk to Xiejieshu almost every day, saying that the sand tea noodles made by her mother are delicious. Yesterday her father promised to buy her a Barbie princess. Today she will go to kindergarten. Next month, she will be the big kid on the second floor of the kindergarten. Well, there are so many things to learn in primary school, and the second-grade classes have become very difficult.
Every time she came to the mirror, she grew up a little more than the last time.
Xiejieshu usually won't respond to her, and she won't have other emotions, won't feel annoyed, and won't feel lonely if the little girl doesn't come to talk to her.
She couldn't understand why that little girl went from being innocent to having troubles. Of course, most of them were happy, but she would also be depressed from time to time.
Her eyes, inadvertently, were a little more focused on the girl with the same name as her.
Xie Jieshu in the mirror is growing up day by day, it should be said that Xie Jieshu outside the mirror is growing up day by day.
She had endless things to say to the mirror.
Be happy, be sad, what you want but can't get, what others have but you don't have, what is worth looking forward to, what is coming, worry about what you want to avoid.
On that afternoon in the sixth grade of elementary school, she was very happy to say that she had been admitted to the best junior high school in the city, with all tuition fees waived and a scholarship. She said that she would be able to earn a lot of money if she studied well in the future and would not let others go. Look down on it.
She looked at herself in the mirror and asked: "Do you think I can make a lot of money in the future? Can I live in a big house, eat whatever I want, and wear whatever I want?"
Xie Jieshu in the mirror said: "It should be okay."
Xie Jieshu outside the mirror smiled happily.
Unfortunately, during the summer vacation that year, Xie Jieshu slipped and fell into the sea, and her body was not recovered.
Instead, Xie Jieshu's mother often came to this place where her daughter would come, especially standing in front of the mirror all day long.
She stubbornly believed that her daughter was not dead and would definitely come back. If she came back, she would definitely come to this place.
This middle-aged woman has been waiting here all summer vacation.
On the last day of summer vacation, when she came to this old supermarket again, she didn't notice that the old mirror that had been there for who knows how many years was missing.
Because her attention was firmly grabbed by the girl standing there.
The little girl said: "Mom, I'm hungry and want to eat Sha Cha Noodles."
(End of chapter)
