If you understand it, your heart won't hurt anymore.
Zhu Sijia secretly laughed at herself. She had more opportunities than others, but she still fell into trouble with men.
But if what Yan Xiu had done to her in the past, what he had done and said to her were all just for show, why would he do it to this extent?
It was true that he took the medicine, and it was true that he exchanged sincerity with her many times.
Whether it was true or not, there was no point in trying to find out whether it was true or not. Scarlett had a persistent headache, so she took a hasty dose of tranquilizer and fell asleep.
…
This sleep was extremely long, and she had nightmares again for a long time.
It's just that the person who tormented her in the nightmare changed from Yan Xing to Yan Xiu.
She couldn't move, Yan Xiu laughed wildly and twisted, and his face was more intimidating when he was smiling than when he was not smiling.
He held the dagger that Yan Xing used to hurt her.
He walked slowly in front of her, but instead of hurting her hand, he gracefully scratched one after another deeply visible wounds on her face. He asked her in a charming and cruel voice:
"Do you know what is the most fun way to hunt a prey? A fatal blow is satisfying, but you can use any means to trick it into willingly sending you to your door, and then slowly tame it until it can never leave of its own accord. You, treat you like a god.”
"This is the best time to hunt. And the knife must be slow and steady to ensure that it can be re-carved with each cut. It is necessary to see every pain and struggle of it. Wouldn't it be interesting? "
Zhu Sijia cried until her throat became dry and hoarse, but she was like meat on the chopping board in front of Yan Xiu. She could only scold him loudly with the few curse words she had:
"Yan Xiu, you bastard!"
After scolding her, she was tired of crying and opened her eyes suddenly. The nightmare faded away, and what came into view was Yan Xiu's innocent face.
His movements were a little stiff, and he wiped the sweat from Zhu Sijia's forehead, feeling at a loss:
"Cicada, I, what's wrong with you?"
Unexpectedly, everything just now was just a dream.
And she actually slept until Yan Xiu came back from Yanzhou.
His hot fingertips touched Zhu Sijia's skin, which made her tremble all over. Her little face was frighteningly white, and her upper and lower teeth were trembling pitifully. She looked at him with an extremely pitiful expression:
"Your Majesty, you are back."
What kind of terrible nightmare was this that could scare her like this?
Yan Xiu quickly hugged her into his arms. She was shaking harder and harder, trying to push him away uncontrollably. He held her tighter and tighter:
"It's all over, it's all over. No matter what kind of bastard thing Yan Xuanzhi did to you in the dream, Yan Xuanzhi outside the dream will never do the same thing. Cicada, if I do it, I can't help you. If something bothers you, you must ask me why in time, even if you hit me or scold me."
Ask him why?
Can we also ask about the reason for his medication?
Zhu Scarlett was given a reassurance by him. His chest and his breath were very familiar to her. Such reliability made her obsessed with the feeling of hiding in his arms to shelter from the wind and rain.
Over time, she forgot that there was no need for anyone to rely on anyone in the world. When landslides and tsunamis struck, she could only resign herself to fate.
She mustered up the courage to ask him, asking him if he liked her and if he liked a child with half her blood.
But after thinking about it for a while, she heard a sigh in her heart, forget it.
Forget it, if this matter is revealed to him, maybe the two of them will never be able to go back.
At the moment, she couldn't completely stop relying on Yan Xiu.
Zhu Sijia suppressed the sadness in her heart and acted coquettishly to him with ease:
"I just dreamed that Your Majesty has not returned to Langya for a long time. It turned out that he found a new beauty in Yanzhou, so I should have forgotten about it, so I cursed her."
She raised her head to rub his chin, and the furry top of her head made half of his face numb: "Your Majesty, I meant what I said and I know I was wrong."
It turned out to be such a small thing, just not a nightmare.
Yan Xiu kissed her forehead gently: "That's what you should scold. Next time in your dream, remember to slap that Yan Xuanzhi and tell him to act erratically."
The two of them were as sweet as yesterday, as if nothing had happened.
But is that really the case?
…
The trip to Langya was delayed for half a month longer than expected because of Zhu Sijia. When it was time to leave for Laizhou, June came quietly.
The hottest season of the year has arrived, and Zhu Sijia has also put on light summer clothes.
For her sake, Yan Xiu deliberately kept no ice inside the carriage, but he didn't feel hot at the moment.
Just because she was wearing a long green dress, with just a moment of raising and lowering her eyebrows, she could be seen quietly, kneeling on the soft carpets in the carriage, which were covered with layers of soft carpets. Cool mat to dispel heat.
She lowered her head and slowly fiddled with a beaded abacus. Her whole body was fresher and more beautiful than a pool of cool lake water, so there was no need to take ice to cool off.
According to Dr. Liu, this can exercise her fingers so that they can regain their flexibility as soon as possible.
The abacus hits back and forth, and the crisp sound is quite pleasant.
Yan Xiu could even hear the rhythm from it, so he put down the book in his hand, bathed in the cool breeze, closed his eyes, and lay lazily across from her.
He propped up one leg, supported his head with one hand, and slowly tapped the other hand on his knee to the rhythm of the abacus.
Even if the two of them are relatively speechless at this moment, such days are not boring and can be said to be a peaceful time.
After a long time, Yan Xiu opened his eyes again. The sunlight penetrated into the carriage and hit half of his face. Half of the pupils turned a beautiful amber color, while the other half, hidden in the shadows, was still as black as the night.
Just like him, half is an ordinary man who is clingy and gentle, and half is the most cold-hearted emperor.
At this moment, those eyes were staring at Zhu Sijia closely. She felt uncomfortable and tried hard to avoid his gaze, but as if being choked by that gaze, she finally stopped and compromised:
"Your Majesty, do you have something to say?"
Yan Xiu sat up straight, resting his elbows on the table and looking at her, almost face to face with hers:
"Well, for some reason, I always feel like you have become a lot stranger to me since you woke up."
Although the two of them had not been intimate in love during this period, they had not neglected any other intimate things that needed to be done.
Zhu Sijia thought that there was no difference from before, but he was still keenly aware of the abnormality.
In order to dispel Yan Xiu's suspicion, she moved forward and looked up at him: "Xuanzhi, you are worrying too much."
Yan Xiu: "I didn't worry too much. At least, you didn't call me His Majesty in private as many times as you do now, and you won't do it easily."
Unless she's angry.
Zhu Sijia held his face and explained:
"I have experienced life and death, and my state of mind will naturally be turned upside down. I can't get over it for a while. Think about it, when you first killed an enemy in battle, when you killed someone for the first time, were you in the same state of mind now?"
"For example, a newborn eagle and an eagle that has been dominant for a long time, when they stand on the edge of a cliff, what they see and think are completely different."
Yan Xiu frowned: "Yes, I still have to give you time to adapt. I was too impatient."
Although she was not a pampered and pampered noblewoman, she had never encountered such a big thing before. It was normal to be afraid.
The advancing queue stopped and wanted to take a short rest.
As soon as the carriage stopped, the buzzing in her ears disappeared, and Yan Xiu reached out to her: "I'll carry you down for some air?"
