"Hey! I wouldn't dare to have such a clingy girlfriend! It's too scary!"
Mude couldn't help but comment again.
"Haha, it makes you look so 'experienced'!"
Xin Wu smiled and raised his eyes from the diary, looking at Wu Chu's pretending "greasy" expression.
"Me? Of course I have more experience!——Quick, keep going, keep going!"
Wu De pressed the knuckles of both hands back and forth, making a "click" sound.
"Um.……
I entrust the bulk of this diary to be forwarded to you. Although he refused to give out your address or phone number, it was me who begged him. This is my last, last, last... time to contact you. I promise!
The back of this diary is all for you.
I hope you can write down your "voice" in the days without me.
I know that you have no friends and you are not willing to tell anyone your feelings, so just write them here! I promise: it's safe here! There will be no outsiders disturbing you.
The pride you want to preserve, the self-esteem you want to protect, and your inhumane secrets...
I wish you could have me in your dreams every night!
Love you and happy birthday! My little bunny!
Your Lin.
On our beach
winter day
(Your 25th birthday)”
"No more?"
Muchu stopped squeezing his knuckles and asked in astonishment.
"Yes, the part written by the girl named 'Lin' is finished; the next part should be the part she called 'Little Tutu'. Do you still want to hear me read it?"
Xinwu flipped through the following pages, holding them between his slender fingers, anticipating the length of these words.
"It's not much, just read it! I really want to hear it, it's a bit appetizing."
Muchu chuckled and encouraged.
"Okay, then I will continue to read what 'Little Tutu' wrote:
'I am cold.
This place is nothing like the south. The winter here was the coldest in my life.
On the bed, I got under the quilt and put all the clothes I could on the quilt, but it was still cold. The air is moist everywhere, and this moisture can bring the coldness here into the stomach with every breath.
Now, both the outside and the inside of my body are cold. I feel like I am about to freeze to death.
Just now, I wrote back to my sister, encouraging her to get a divorce. There is no way that person can give her happiness; just like when I helped my mother and left my father with my own hands. My younger brother went to live with my father, while my younger sister and I went to our mother.
I don't feel how much warmth marriage can bring to people.
Some, it’s all endless accusations, quarrels, fights, mutual torture, calculations... Enough!
I don't want a day like this to happen to me again.
Yes, it is impossible for me to marry anyone in this life.
Being able to stay far away from you is the greatest kindness I can do to you.
sorry!
During those days in the hospital, I admit, it was wonderful! I once thought that maybe, if I met the right person and got married, there would be nothing to fear.
However, you finally shattered my only extravagant hope for 'marriage'. From the moment you started to call all my family members, relatives, friends and classmates one by one to conduct a 'self-positioning introduction', I I knew that our relationship could no longer continue.
I had enough of the lifelong 'enemies' between my father and mother, and I stood firmly on my mother's side and helped her make up her mind to leave that extremely bad-tempered person - my father.
The thing about 'marriage' has been completely deleted in my life.
Lin, I am wearing your scarf, but it is also sucking in the cold and humid air, making my neck feel cold, and it is about to penetrate into the skin of my whole body.
It seems that this kind of thing can only be suitable in the north!
I like that LOGO very much. Full of memories...
…
so cold! I couldn't write any more. Every inch of my exposed arms was going under the quilt, sucking in the air-conditioning.
Maybe, I have a fever!
Alas, I have no energy. I won’t go to the Internet cafe tonight. I will try to sleep. Maybe, after a good sleep, my head will no longer hurt. "
Xinwu's "emotional reading" suddenly stopped.
Wuchu was puzzled and asked, "No more?"
"Gone!"
Xin Wu turned over the blank pages at the back one by one. Indeed, the back pages were all blank, not even a black spot anymore.
"Go! I thought it was so long! Just like this 'question and answer' style, it's over! This 'little bunny' is really pitiful and irritating!"
Wuchu shook his head and made a comment.
"Why do you say 'poor' and 'annoying'?"
Xin Wu closed the diary and asked seriously.
"'Poor' means that his family of origin is not in good condition. It is a marriage in which his parents did not set a good 'role model' and the family relationship was not good. As the eldest son, he has younger brothers and sisters, and he still has to worry about it. Indeed, It's pitiful that he is sick and has no one around to take care of him; he is said to be "annoying", and he uses this excuse to not really love Miss Lin.
Let's put it bluntly, this girl named 'Lin' is more or less neurotic and insecure, and she over-maintains their relationship. Her "excessive force" is not suitable for this boy who has "non-marriage" hidden in his heart. It is fatal without knowing it. As for him, he clearly knows that he has a problem, but he doesn't explain it clearly to other girls, which makes people anxious and perverted. This is what makes him "irritating".
As a man, if you really meet the one you love, you should boldly take responsibility! What reasons and excuses are you looking for just to play with others? He also said that avoiding people is good for others and kind. I think the person he loves most in this world is probably himself! This 'narcissist'! You deserve to be cold! "
Mude's long series of analysis made Xin Wu admire him a lot. Unexpectedly, after listening to two diaries, he could analyze the "protagonist's" thoughts in a logical and logical way.
"Then, is it 'Lin' or 'Little Tutu' who is asking to mend their relationship now?"
Wu Chu thought of "business" again and asked additionally.
"It's 'Lin'. She demands to mend this 'abandoned' relationship, no matter the cost."
Xin Wu took another look at the "customer name" on the register and replied.
"Then, how are you going to 'fix' her? If this 'little bunny' is really good at running away, is really good at anything, let alone change her mind, and is prepared to be a bachelor for the rest of her life, how are you going to fix her?"
Muchu asked.
