Ruined.
Between him and Geli, it can be said to be the end.
When he said these words, he was mentally prepared.
There is no doubt that this is the truest...and most selfish side of myself, without any cover-up.
But...it is also a side that normal people cannot accept.
If you say such shameless words, it wouldn't be surprising if you get angry and break up.
However, at least on this matter, he did not deceive her.
While feeling sad, I actually felt relieved.
There was only a dull, numb feeling that arose from the bottom of my heart.
He did not avoid Geli's gaze, still looking at her as tenderly as before.
As if she realized something from his sight, Songli let out a soft "ha" as if she felt ironic.
"……what is this?"
She asked him in a weak voice.
"Are you giving up on yourself? Or do you think it doesn't matter if you are separated from me?"
Geli, who was still on the verge of an emotional outburst just now, actually calmed down in an instant.
No... Perhaps a more vivid way of saying it is that everyone's emotions are like a silent volcano. When they erupt, they are often not hysterical, but dead silence.
"I like you." Wayne said, "I like you very much."
"But, I can't just choose you and give up Chris."
He still tells the truth.
Now that you have chosen to speak, let's say everything that you want to say but can't.
There couldn't be a worse outcome anyway.
In Geli's heart, maybe he has become a peerless scumbag.
You may feel that falling in love with yourself is not worth it at all.
——It doesn’t seem to be worth much.
"So you are determined to hug me from both sides?"
she asked coldly.
"...Yes." He replied.
A slightly sarcastic smile appeared on Geli's face again.
"Oh, it would be great if there was something that could record your disgusting look and show it to Chris."
——This can only be said that it is great that there are no video or audio recordings in this other world.
"sorry."
"What you mean by liking is saying sorry and then unscrupulously hurting the other person?!" Ge Li took two steps forward and clenched his fists.
Wayne didn't move.
He was prepared to be beaten, but Geli didn't do that until the end.
She just put down her hand feebly.
"That's enough...why...should I like such a person."
It's like asking him, but also like asking yourself.
"Because I was deceived by appearances." Wayne seemed to be talking about something that had nothing to do with him.
"It's like a lottery game. Before starting, I always think that I will be the luckiest one, but after the results come out, I thank you for participating."
He understands this deeply.
"Then you realize that not only did you get nothing, but you also wasted money."
Ge Li had nothing to say about his very sober self-awareness.
"...That's enough." She said again.
Extremely disappointed, she turned around and wanted to leave.
Wayne took her hand and held her in his arms again.
"Singing Ceremony..."
He begged with a struggling look on his face: "Can't you... no longer have to compete with Chris?"
What came to her ears was her cold reply.
"Sadly, no."
Her answer wasn't beyond his expectations, but it still disappointed him.
Although she did not break away from his arms, the silence made it impossible for him to continue to quibble.
"I... will see you again in the evening." He said.
"No."
Ge Li's whole body seemed to be feeling cold, "I don't want to see you anymore."
really.
Once the truth is told, it will be like this.
Wayne took a deep breath and endured the throbbing pain in his heart.
"We are just as good as before, aren't we?"
You don’t have to know your own heart.
Just love the way you look.
That's enough.
This... is the best result.
"But, I'm not good." Ge Li's voice trembled.
"If you hadn't appeared in front of me again and again and deceived me with those happy and happy memories, how could I..."
She couldn't speak anymore.
Wayne could only hug her tighter.
"sorry."
Even if his internal organs were emptied, he could only say such thin words.
Therefore, I am afraid that if I let go, this person will disappear from my side.
"If from the beginning to the end... there was no hope for me to be with you, maybe I wouldn't expect so much."
she said sadly.
"However, the more I realize that there could be a completely different outcome, the more unwilling I feel..."
"Why does Chrissy have it all without having to do anything... and I can't?"
"Is it because I'm worse than her?" she asked slightly confused.
...How can we compare this kind of thing?
It's precisely because feelings are so uncertain that they are so torturous.
Everyone wants to get the maximum results with the minimum effort.
So, what is it that serves as the lever for this unequal exchange?
The answer is - love.
Whoever loves more will suffer more.
Even if you travel to a different world, this eternal truth can still be established.
No wonder no one wants to be a licking dog after they wake up to love.
Wayne closed his eyes in pain.
He clearly understood that if he didn't know how much she liked him, he wouldn't be so confident...
In the end, he failed to give the response that Song Li wanted.
…
The next day, Wayne went out with dark circles under his eyes.
Today is the opening day of Leaf Publishing House. In sharp contrast to him, Chris is in extreme excitement.
Sitting in the carriage with the female secretary Stephanie, Chris kept discussing future business plans with her, looking like she wanted to spend money and start a big business right away.
"I had an idea before," Chris said to Stephanie.
"When the publishing house was first founded, what it needed most was fame. So, can we start a worldwide competition, solicit submissions from the best painters, and then compile the winning works into Leaf Publishing in installments? A series of serial works were formed in a certain core painting journal of the society..."
She tried her best to explain the form of modern serial comics in another easy-to-understand expression.
"Miss Chrissy...you have such a genius idea!" Stephanie's eyes lit up.
"In this way, we can develop a group of long-term loyal readers who will be willing to pay for it."
