Do desires have boundaries? When I was in elementary school, I only wanted spicy strips that cost 50 cents a pack and pens that cost 2 yuan a piece.
Just picking out a marble with a special color from a vendor at the school gate can make you happy for a whole week.
But. As we get older, we want more and more things. Things that were once coveted have gradually become disdainful.
Then, one day, I suddenly woke up and realized why I had become like this... I felt confused for a long time.
However, when this moment of emotion passes, it will start all over again and a new round of chasing the goal will begin.
In his past life, Wayne had always felt that he was a very open-minded person. He never forced anything, he just went with the flow.
When it’s time to study, study hard, and when it’s time to work, work hard. Whatever stage you reach, do whatever you want.
He thought that maybe the life of ordinary people was like this. And, he accepted this as a fact that must be accepted.
However, just because he accepted it did not mean that he could experience happiness from it. He just reconciled with himself and gave up those desires that could not be realized in this life.
"forget it."
"Be content." I always think like this, thinking that I just need to live like this. It would be great if such a meaningless life could occasionally meet the expectations of others.
As for what he really wanted, he had not thought about it at that time. ...I can’t get it even if I think about it, so I don’t think about it.
To a greater or lesser extent, he sometimes has that kind of self-awareness. Maybe I am the kind of person who always lives in the mouths of my parents and elders and is annoying.
"Other people's children" right? My grades have been very good since I was a child, and I have never done anything bad. I have been diligent in studying and working.
In addition to not accepting the urge to fall in love or get married, he rarely disobeys family arrangements. After living like that, over time, even I don’t know what I am like.
Now when I think back to that year, I just feel like
The image of "self" has become blurred. But only he understands that it is just a disguise.
It is a mask deliberately displayed in order to meet the expectations of others. Hidden beneath that mask is the self that becomes insatiable when it sees an opportunity to realize it.
…The moon sets and the sun rises, it’s another new week. Since they woke up too late today, Wayne and Chris only had time to wolf down a few bites of breakfast before they hurriedly boarded the carriage and rushed to the academy without stopping.
"Ah ah ah we're going to be late." Chris's hair was slightly messier than usual, and it was obvious that she was in a hurry when she left the house.
Wayne naturally reached out his hand and smoothed down the few strands of her slightly raised naughty hair.
"I thought you stayed in bed every day because you were not afraid of being punished for being late." He said without any sense of urgency.
Chris glared at him: "That's because I know I'll be there on time." In fact, even if the two of them were really late, at most they would be called to the office by the teacher at the end of get out of class to talk softly. of
Just a "warning".
"I was so tired from playing yesterday that I didn't have any dreams all night and slept until dawn." Chris was a little annoyed.
As she spoke, she slightly twisted her arms and legs in the carriage, and seemed to have some back pain.
Wayne watched her movements and smiled involuntarily. Being stared at by his indescribable gaze, Chrissy felt unnatural all over.
"You...why are you looking at me like that?" She stopped hesitantly.
"Nothing." Wayne turned his face toward the window. Although he didn't say anything, looking at his behavior, Chrissy intuitively felt that it must not be a good thing, and her face suddenly looked bad.
She clenched her fists and said angrily: "I hate it when people half-talk." She was clearly fighting against the fifth scum, but every time she threatened others, she didn't have the slightest awareness of it.
Seeing her arrogant expression, Wayne thought it would be cute to make her angry.
"I didn't say half of it, I didn't say anything." Wayne laughed. Hearing this, Chris became angry instantly, jumped up from her seat, and threw herself at Wayne who was sitting opposite her.
"Hey, hey, hey, he's driving! Why are you biting someone?" The carriage swayed. The driver sitting in the front seat couldn't help but smile with understanding when he heard the noise.
The two of them came to the academy jostling all the way. As expected, they were late and were forced to be called to the office for an in-depth conversation after class.
"Classmate Wayne, classmate Chris, you were late for half the class today. Can I know the reason?" Class teacher Shelly asked while sorting out the information.
On his desk, there are also a lot of weekend homework collected by the team leaders. For each round of homework, he would correct each question, and based on this, he could grasp the general learning status of each student.
The teachers at Qingxi Academy are paid very well. In contrast, the work content is not too easy, and the teaching status is often checked by higher-level leaders.
Those ordinary teachers who are not yet confident because of their family background will naturally have to make extra efforts to keep their lucrative jobs.
Next to her, Chris was counting the floor tiles silently with her head lowered, without saying a word. Seeing that she was determined to pretend to be quail, Wayne had to explain himself: "That's because... we did too much exercise yesterday... so..." Hearing his voice, Shelly raised his head and looked at Wayne.
Immediately, his eyes condensed, resting on Wayne's neck in astonishment.
"Wait, that's..." Wayne noticed that something was wrong with his gaze, and subconsciously looked down at himself, then suddenly remembered something, and quickly covered the small part of his neck that was exposed because the tie was not tied properly.
"Ha, haha, there are a lot of mosquitoes in summer. I was bitten by a mosquito last night and it swelled up." Wayne said seriously,
"Those mosquitoes are really vicious." This explanation was completely inconsistent with the actual situation, which made Xie Li look extremely complicated.
Next to Wayne, Chris, who still didn't dare to look up, grabbed the edge of her skirt and twisted it awkwardly, and her face began to turn red.
After taking a look at the extremely obvious young couple in front of him, Xie Li wanted to say something else.
But he opened his mouth for a long time and couldn't spit out a word. After a while, he seemed to feel that he really had nothing to say, so he waved his hand helplessly and asked them to leave first.
Chris and Wayne both breathed a sigh of relief. After watching their figures disappear out of the door one after another, Xie Li, who was sitting at his desk, shook his head and sighed: "Today's young people..." (Search on Baidu on mobile for [My Sister is Evil] The daughter of a rich lady + new book] Click to read on mobile phone to turn pages, eye protection. Power saving. Data saving function)
