"I really don't dare to listen to what Mr. Wang said, because I never thought that I was so important. Maybe all of this is just Mr. Wang overthinking?"
Xiao He really felt helpless. He really felt like he couldn't explain it clearly, like a knot that couldn't be untied.
He and Xie Minghui have been husband and wife for so many years. How could he not understand her? It is because of understanding that he knows that Mrs. Wang does have a place in his heart, and that no man can surpass him, including himself.
So sometimes he didn't understand what Mr. Wang was jealous of. Wasn't he a very tolerant person before? Why would he target himself like this?
He really doesn't count in this world, and he is no longer the unique and deeply loved person in Xie Minghui's heart.
"You and I know these things very well."
Mr. Wang didn't want to say anything more, so he let Xiao He help him slowly go back to the house to rest. He was indeed tired after walking around for a long time today.
At night, Xiao He tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. He knew that Xie Minghui was very busy recently and often reviewed memorials until late at night, so he got dressed and went to the study.
"Why are you here?" Xie Minghui raised his head and glanced, "Didn't I ask you to take care of Mr. Wang? How about you come over to his place now?"
Obviously, the person she is most worried about now is Mr. Wang. Now that she is a month old, Mr. Wang's belly is slowly getting bigger, but there really can't be any accidents.
"Your Majesty, don't worry, everything is fine. Everything is fine with Wang Fu."
Xiao He was a little disappointed. When he came, he guessed that the first thing Xie Minghui asked would be Mr. Wang, but when he actually asked the question, he still felt a little sour.
"You really make me feel at ease when you do things. You have really taken good care of Mr. Wang during this period. Mr. Wang is full of praise for you in front of me."
Xie Minghui looked at him and smiled softly. Mr. Wang was very important in his heart, wasn't Xiao He also very important?
It's really rare to find a man who doesn't fight or grab, not to mention that his heart is still so exquisite and clear, how can he be unlovable?
"Your Majesty, I had a dream just now."
Xiao He took the initiative to walk beside and polish his ink as he talked. In fact, this was a very beautiful dream, and only he knew it.
"What dream?"
Xie Minghui asked calmly.
"It was a very beautiful dream. I was immersed in it when I was dreaming, but later I didn't cherish it. I thought that this dream would never wake up and would stay forever. But I didn't expect that this beautiful dream would wake up after all. I I want to go back to the time in my dream, but find that I can’t go back. Your Majesty, what should I do?”
Xiao He's eyes slowly turned red. This was the deepest secret he buried deep in his heart.
It seems that it has been a long time since he came to this world, so long that he has accepted it all, from being surprised and ridiculous at the beginning to now taking it for granted.
He is willing to accept this identity and bear all this, because he regards all this as atonement. Maybe the more hardship he endures, the more he has to pay for his past debts, right?
"Isn't this the case for everyone in the world? When you first have something, you feel happy and feel that it is your blessing. But later, as time goes by, it will become dull and you will feel that it is nothing more than this. But when you lose it, you will feel regretful. "
Xie Minghui's writing suddenly paused, and she felt as if she had a very special feeling in her heart. This feeling disappeared in just a second, and she didn't take it seriously anymore.
"Yes, your Majesty is right. Only when you have completely lost it, will you feel regret, and will you feel why you were so stupid. Only when you lose everything, will you feel that it turned out to be like this. precious."
Xiao He's eyes were completely red, and under the candlelight, a crystal teardrop slowly fell down.
It's not that he doesn't feel regret, but only at this moment, when he expressed these thoughts in front of Xie Minghui, the feeling of regret turned out to be so strong.
Just a few months later, Mr. Wang was about to give birth, but Xiao He was always by his side, preparing for fear that something might happen.
Finally, when the day was about to start, Xie Minghui was already waiting outside with a worried look on her face, while Xiao He just stayed with her inside.
Looking at Mr. Wang who was in heartbreaking pain on the bed, Xiao He felt that it was still a bit ridiculous. He didn't know how a man could give birth to a child. In his subconscious, he still felt that all this was really weird. .
Until the smell of blood in the room gradually became heavier and heavier, and his heart beat faster and faster. If this child was born, it would mean that his relationship with Xie Minghui would no longer be compatible with him.
He has completely become a dispensable person in this world.
The moment he heard the child's cry, his heart fell silent.
Just when he thought the child had been delivered safely, he heard the panicked voice of the imperial doctor, saying that Mr. Wang had suddenly suffered a hemorrhage!
When he heard the news, he was really stunned. He didn't know what to do. He only saw the imperial doctor giving Wang Fu medicine in a panic, but it still didn't seem to have any effect.
"come here."
At this moment, Mr. Wang was still very weak, but it was already at this moment that he was waving to Xiao He who was standing in the distance. Suddenly, he had many things to say to him.
If you don't say it out loud, you will really feel aggrieved.
"If Mr. Wang wants to say anything to me, I will listen."
Xiao He walked over and knelt down beside the bed. He felt that he was in a daze and felt that this moment really passed for a long time.
At the beginning, I only heard Mrs. Wang's screams of pain. After a long time, I heard the cry of the child again. Now Mr. Wang looks really weak, his lips are extremely pale, as if he will die in the next second. It's like I've fallen asleep and can't wake up.
"I really don't like you, not because you are bad, but because you are so good, so good that you make me jealous, and let me know that there must be a place for you in His Majesty's heart. Sure enough, this uneasy premonition has become a reality. Really, I’m not convinced, I’m really not convinced.”
After saying a sentence, Mr. Wang breathed hard. He felt that all his strength was gone. He felt that blood was flowing out of his body continuously. He felt as if he would never get better again.
"But at this moment, I don't hate you anymore, because I know His Majesty likes you. It would actually be good if you could stay with His Majesty. It would be much better than other people staying with the Bi family. . I have no requirements. If this is my fate, I will accept it."
Mr. Wang's eyes gradually became blurred. He could feel that the blood on his body seemed to have dried up. He heard what the imperial doctor said.
Giving birth to a child is inherently dangerous. No matter how hard you replenish your body over the past few months, the moment will come when you should accept your own fate.
"From now on, I will entrust you to take care of my child. I know that you will take good care of this child. I feel relieved. But despite all calculations, I still didn't expect that my time with His Highness would be so short. If I had known it, I just want to accompany you with peace of mind."
Mr. Wang's voice became weaker and weaker, and in the end he didn't know what else he wanted to say. He looked at the child, then closed his eyes and could no longer open them.
Xiao He didn't know how he spent the night. He only knew that Xie Minghui seemed to be crying and that one tear fell down her face.
She wasn't crying for herself, she was crying for her husband, or for other men.
There really is a permanent place for another man in my heart, so what does that mean?
In compliance with the royal husband's last wish, he took care of the child. She was a very lovely princess.
At first Xie Minghui was very sad and didn't want to see anyone, but then she gradually got better. When the two of them took care of the children together, they would always think of Mr. Wang involuntarily.
He couldn't explain what kind of feeling it was. Mr. Wang was indeed a very good person. Maybe he had done some wrong things, but death was like a lamp going out. Everything had passed. Now he only wanted his child. Just grow up healthy and healthy.
The harem cannot be without a master for a day, so he took the place of the royal husband, as if all this happened naturally, but only he knew how sad all this was for him.
He is no longer in a unique position, and those are things he can never get back.
Only he knows these memories, and he can no longer tell them to his mouth. He will take good care of Wang Fu's children and manage all the affairs of the harem, and will not let Xie Minghui worry about it.
He didn't know what he wanted anymore. He only knew that he was willing to stay by Xie Minghui's side forever.
One day when he opened his eyes, the scene in front of him had completely changed. He returned to the original world and saw that woman again.
"How is it? What do you feel when you finally wake up?"
Tao Yao was sitting on the edge, supporting her chin with her hand. Seeing Xiao He wake up, she still seemed very uncomfortable.
"Are you satisfied with this dream?" Seeing that the person was still dazed and tender, Taoyao kindly reminded her.
"Have these decades been nothing but a dream?"
After a long time, Xiao He finally realized that in that world, he was always by Xie Minghui's side, but there was always something between the two of them, whether it was Wang Fu or another man.
"Xie Minghui is dead, Qionghua is no longer liked by you, this world is like this, the world in your dream is illusory, and everything in that world is naturally in vain.
I just kindly let you have a dream, and let you two exchange identities and feel it. The pain you inflicted on each other has now been completed, and you can naturally wake up! "
Tao Yao stood up and walked to Xiao He and whispered, "Things are still the same. I just let you have a dream to experience it. Now that you are awake, I should leave. What should have been like in the past?" That’s it, there will be no chance of regret again!”
After saying this, a red light flashed, and Taoyao's body slowly became transparent, and finally disappeared completely.
His mission in this world has been completely completed, but he is still kind enough to let Xiao He experience what Xie Minghui felt like. As for what will happen in the future, it is none of her business.
Xiao He felt that the whole world had become quiet in an instant. It turned out that all this was a dream, and that life had been nothing but an illusion for decades.
In the dream, he and Xie Minghui exchanged places and experienced the pain the other had suffered. Just when he thought he could atone for his sins, he woke up from the dream and found that everything had stayed where it was.
Those who cannot come back will never come back.
