After listening to Han Lu's story, Mo Lin couldn't help but feel suffocated. What kind of family could push a well-behaved and good student like Han Lu to this point? Although he was mentally prepared, he really didn't expect Lu Bao Ping went so far.
It is said that test, test, test is the magic weapon of the teacher; points, points, points are the lifeblood of the students. This sentence is most vividly reflected in Han Lu. In Mo Lin's impression, Han Lu has been a bit reserved since she was a child. It was only more than three years since we were separated from each other in elementary school. When she saw Han Lu again, she was already sentimental. There is no trace of the vitality that young people should have.
All this was erased by the dark family he lived in.
"Old Lin, to be honest, whether I can get into college or not, I don't regret coming to Dongcheng Middle School." Han Lu glanced up at Qi Mingzhi and Zhang Xiaoyu who were sleeping soundly, and then at the people standing in the distance. Li Ao was admiring the beautiful night view outside the car window on the window sill. Finally he looked at Mo Lin and continued: "There are no other colors in my world, only endless darkness. I have stayed in a world without light for too long. My body is almost moldy.”
"Before I went to Dongcheng Middle School, my mother threatened me and said that the students in Dongcheng Middle School were all gangsters and bad students. Fortunately, I didn't believe what my mother said. After I came to Dongcheng Middle School, I I found that this is a big family full of warmth and love. Although it is only one street away from Yuanhang No. 2 Middle School, it is completely different from Yuanhang No. 2 Middle School. There is no discrimination and bullying of top students here like Yuanhang No. 2 Middle School. , the teachers are not as snobbish as the teachers at Yuanhang No. 2 Middle School, who do anything to bully and drive away students in order to increase their chances of getting into higher schools."
Han Lu looked out the car window at the dark night sky. There were a few bright stars in the night sky. These stars looked particularly dazzling in the dark night sky.
"Although my world is dark, it is not without any light." Han Lu's eyes softened a little, and she continued: "The top student brother I met in elementary school, and my neighbor who was young, And you who I met in Dongcheng Middle School are all lights like fireflies in my dark world. Although they are small, they are warm. You are the few fireflies in my dark world!" qs
"Once upon a time, my mother, Lu Baoping, wanted to extinguish the remaining firelight in my heart. She once alienated the top students in my elementary school and my neighbors, which made me almost lose them several times. So, through them After what happened between the two of us, I will never let my mother know that I have those friends again." Han Lu continued: "You know, you went to my house to play a year ago, and you were in the hospital in front of so many people. If you contradict my mother, my mother may already know that you are my good friend."
Mo Lin was silent for a long time, listening to Han Lu's words silently. He understood what Han Lu meant. He wanted to protect his friends, so Mo Lin said: "It's okay, Lao Lu, you are an adult now. Mom can't control you anymore. In the last few months, as soon as you get into college, you will completely leave her. You must pass out of Hanzhong Province. I don't believe that your mom will leave her job and study with you to restrain you!"
After saying so much, Han Lu felt a little thirsty. He took out two bottles of Coke from his bag and handed one to Mo Lin. Mo Lin took a sip and continued: "But by the way, even if we are your spiritual support, , your mind is strong enough, if it were me, I would have been beaten to the point of jumping off the building by you."
"Why not? I really envy you so much. You don't have perverted parents like me, a dark family. Even if you don't study well, your parents won't blame you too much." Han Lu asked.
"Well, you're really wrong about this." Mo Lin thought for a moment and said, "Let's just talk about me. My mother has had high hopes for me since I was a child, but in the end it turns out that I'm really not good at studying. I gave up, but she won’t force me to study like your mother did, and she won’t compare me with other people’s children, but she won’t fully satisfy me with what I want.”
"Just be content, you will be very happy this way." Han Lu took a sip of Coca-Cola and said: "Leave aside study and talk about life. I still don't have a computer of my own. You guys Already have it!"
"And the bottle of Coke you drank, you finished it in a few minutes, while I usually drink this 500 bottle of Coke in three days!"
puff!
When Mo Lin heard this, he almost spit out Coke. He said in disbelief: "You drank this bottle of Coke for three days! Your mother didn't
Give you money to buy it? "
"Asking her to give me money? How is that possible?" Han Lu snorted and said, "In her eyes, money is much more important than me. No, in her eyes, money is more important than anything else. She even treated me to a meal." Even KFC is heartbroken, and the down jacket you wear in winter, I have only had one in eighteen years, and it was bought during a promotion in the mall, and my mother bought it because she was in a good mood."
"After so many years, I wonder how many years it will take before she is willing to buy me my second down jacket!"
As she said that, Han Lu laughed at herself and continued: "Although my mother is very stingy with me in life, she doesn't let me go hungry or cold. In her opinion, if she does this, she is a I am a successful mother, but I don’t know that the lives of other people my age are much better than mine..."
"Hey, let's not talk about this anymore!" Han Lu turned around and sat on the chair and said, "Old Lin, let me tell you another secret."
Mo Lin nodded and said, "You tell me what you want, I'm listening."
"Actually...I don't want to live anymore."
As soon as he said these words, Mo Lin almost spit out the Coke he was drinking in his mouth. He quickly said: "Lao Lu, you can't have such thoughts. Your family is unfortunate and your parents are unkind. They have made you eat all these years. You have suffered hardships, but these are not reasons for you to give up life. The world is a big and beautiful world. As long as you survive this stage of your life, you will definitely have all the hardships and joys in the future!"
Seeing Mo Lin's nervous look, Han Lu couldn't help but smile and said, "If I wanted to die now, I wouldn't have said this to you, and I should have said something else to you."
Han Lu looked at the starry sky outside the car window and said slowly: "You know, over the years, I have experienced too many blows. Some of these blows came from outsiders, but most of them were blows from my parents. Their blows were also the most fatal. To be honest, I once thought about dying and ending this life full of pain. Anyway, I have nothing to worry about in this world, and my parents are so virtuous that they are not worthy of my nostalgia. This idea It was there very early on.”
"However, I have survived until now. Apart from you good brothers, there is something more important that supports me till now. Do you know what it is?"
Mo Lin shook his head and said, "You have to tell me this. I can't possibly know."
"Obsession and dream!"
Han Lu looked at the distant night scene outside the car window with deep eyes, and said: "You don't know about Zhuge Liang, the Prime Minister of the Shu Han Dynasty during the Three Kingdoms period, right?"
"Zhuge Liang..."
Mo Lin nodded and said that she knew this person, but what does this person have to do with you?
"In the late period of the Three Kingdoms, Zhuge Liang devoted all the troops of the Shu Kingdom to six out of Qishan Mountains and launched the Northern Expedition to the Central Plains. He knew that he could not do it, but he only hoped to restore the rule of the Han Dynasty in his lifetime. However, God did not fulfill his wishes, even though Zhuge Liang worked hard day and night and tried his best. , he spent the rest of his life unable to get what he wanted."
"Although Zhuge Liang did not gain any territory after six expeditions to Qishan, his dedication to the Shu Han Dynasty was praised by future generations after his death. When he left the army, he showed his true reputation, and no one can compare with him in thousands of years." Han Lu looked at the horizon in the distance, He continued: "My eighteen years, just like Zhuge Liang at that time, worked day and night for achievements and worried about the world. If Zhuge Liang regarded recovering the Central Plains and restoring the Han Dynasty as his lifelong dream and obsession, then It has been my lifelong dream and obsession to go to college!”
"If I don't succeed this time, I'll do it next time. If I don't succeed next time, I'll wait until next time. I won't give up until I get into college! Just like Zhuge Liang left Qishan six times, no one or anything can stop his determination until death. Rest!"
Han Lu looked at Mo Lin and said with a wry smile: "So, although I am not afraid of death and want to die, I can't die. My obsession and dreams have far exceeded the idea of dying. Even if I bet my life I want to realize all my dreams!"
"Then what are you going to do after you realize your dream of going to college one day?" Molin asked abruptly: "Nothing is difficult in the world, only for those who are willing. Going to college itself is not difficult, it's just a matter of how long it takes, as long as you Stick to this ideal, and one day you will get what you want, but what are your plans after that?"
Han Lu didn't know how to answer Mo Lin's question. After a long time, he only said one sentence:
"No one can say what will happen in the future. Let's talk about what happened at that time when the time comes. For now, we still have to strive for the goal of winning college."
Obviously, Han Lu hadn't thought about what was going to happen next. His path to college was not much easier than Zhuge Liang's sixth trip to Qishan. If everything was going well for his family, he had to make peace with the outside world first. Han Lu's family conflicts are increasingly intensifying. Han Lu's parents have completely different ideas from his. Quarrels and cold wars often occur in this family.
The family is unlucky, suffering from internal and external troubles. In addition, Han Lu is not a genius. He is just an ordinary person without the aura of a god. Even if he tries his best, it will be difficult to complete his lifelong pursuit in a limited three years.
In addition, there is Lu Baoping's conservative and ignorant ideas. She still believes that learning itself is the child's own business. As a parent, you only need to ensure that the child has enough food and clothing. Parents should not interfere with learning. The child should do a good job in learning. This kind of thinking was not used in the last century. It may be applicable, but if it were placed in Han Lu's new era, it would be completely different!
