"Yeah, I don't want to lose you."
"I will consider it."
"Would you really consider it?"
"Yes, I will consider it."
Hong Limin said in a gentler tone and stood up from the sofa. A timid look appeared on Tajima's face, and he pursed his lips and said, "You won't abandon me, will you?"
"Abandon you?" Hong Limin said with a wry smile. "I'm just saying think about it. Why do you think that?"
"Because I assume you have a boyfriend."
"..." Hong Limin not only opened her eyes wide in surprise, but also reminded her of what Guan Lin said.
Guan Lin said that he seemed to see her husband following her from behind. He was probably really following her at that time, right?
Maybe her husband followed Hong Limin and saw her entering the bar with Guan Lin, so he suspected that she had done something inappropriate?
The husband is a willful and very jealous person, and this speculation may or may not be correct.
"No matter what, I won't let you leave me."
Hong Limin left Tajima's words behind and walked out of the living room and climbed to the second floor.
It was already 11:40 pm. After Hong Limin went to bed, he had difficulty falling asleep because of all kinds of things running through his mind.
Some things must be considered in detail, but Hong Limin doesn't know what to consider.
Since he couldn't sleep, Hong Limin simply got up, turned on the bedside lamp, and opened his diary. Hong Limin picked up the pen and started writing in his diary.
like
departure
disturbed
Kuwabara
Hong Limin looked at the words she wrote. My husband turned his back on me and embraced another beautiful woman.
Her husband asked her to forgive him, but based on these few words, she really couldn't forgive him so easily. She could reconcile with him for the sake of face, but the wounds in her heart could not be healed. Any compromise would only increase the hatred in her heart.
I have no idea!
Hong Limin wrote this in her diary. Although she didn't understand, she had to make a conclusion.
Does the husband really feel responsible for his actions? Do you really ask for my forgiveness? Or is it just words? If it is just words, I will never forgive him; and regarding related matters, my husband seems to look at me and Guan in a strange way. If that is really the case...
Hong Limin wrote this, put down his pen and thought deeply.
What do I think of Guan Lin? Hong Limin suddenly thought of this question.
"I just found him as a conversation partner." Hong Limin said to herself, but she couldn't believe it.
When she danced with Guan Lin, did she just treat him as a conversation partner? Hong Limin did not have the courage to answer "yes".
When she heard that Guan Lin left Nanguang three years ago because he loved her, didn't she feel a trace of sweetness and sadness in her heart? Didn't she commit mental infidelity at that time? Hong Limin could not deny it.
What does Guan Lin think of me?
Guan Lin's mood is also a big problem. He stands as Tajima's friend and repeatedly persuades her to forgive her husband. She does not think Guan Lin is lying.
However, if the love for her three years ago has not disappeared, there is something wrong with Guan Lin's words and mood. Maybe until now, he has restrained his feelings, but once this feeling breaks out, it will how is it? Maybe she will fall into Guan Lin's arms soon.
It is also possible that the husband may hate Guan Lin because he is afraid that his wife will be snatched away by Guan Lin.
Hong Limin felt an ominous premonition.
Hope nothing terrible happens.
The next day, Hong Limin slept until three o'clock in the morning before getting up. Her husband was not in the studio or the bedroom. When she came to the living room, she found a letter on the table.
I was invited by a magazine to go on a sketching trip to the beach. Since you were sleeping so soundly, I couldn't bear to wake you up.
You can come back the day after tomorrow. Please think carefully about what I said last night. I really don't want to lose you. I hope you can understand what I mean.
The blank space contains the name of the hotel where he stayed at the beach.
Hong Limin breathed a sigh of relief after reading the letter. She was happy to delay her decision a little because she wanted more time to think about it.
In the afternoon, when Hong Limin met Guan Lin at a coffee shop, he told Guan Lin about her husband's trip.
"Maybe it would be better to have more time to think about it," Guan Lin said.
"I think so too, because I think you have to consider multiple aspects."
"Many aspects?"
"Now I have to pay close attention to my husband's affairs. I feel that the three years of marriage have been a blur, and I have not paid attention to my husband's shortcomings at all."
"Please wait a moment." Guan Lin quickly interrupted Hong Limin's conversation and said, "If you think too much, it will be dangerous. At present, you think Tajima is deceiving you. If you look at him in this mood, everything will feel wrong. .”
"I'm very calm!"
"But……"
"I will calmly observe my husband's shortcomings. Although I have gradually lost confidence in my husband, I still want to know if my husband still loves me in his heart?"
"Of course Tajima loves you, and because he loves you deeply, he asks for your forgiveness. If he no longer loves you, he will not ask for your forgiveness."
"Really? Maybe there is still a little love, but it is no longer the kind of love three years ago. My husband did confess to me his relationship with that woman, and begged me for forgiveness, saying that he didn't want to lose me, but, I don’t think it means he still loves me deeply, he doesn’t want to lose me, maybe it’s just to save face.”
"Don't always think about the bad side." Guan Lin said with a look of embarrassment. "Because this will not only hurt Tajima, but also yourself."
"I have been hurt all over." Hong Limin looked at the night view of Ginza through the glass window, his eyes filled with anger.
"Besides..." Hong Limin continued. "My husband does not reflect on himself, but instead suspects that we have an affair. I will never forgive this selfish husband."
"You and I..." Guan Lin was shocked at first, and then said with a sad expression: "Because I loved you before, it is natural for Tajima to be suspicious."
"Why is it a matter of course? Aren't there no secrets between us that are embarrassing?"
"We really haven't done anything to offend our conscience. I loved you before, no, even now, I still like you very much. Therefore, if it's just me and you, it's easy to be suspected, especially in Fuka Tajima. When I am afraid of losing you, it is easier to think that I will take you away, so I say that it is natural for Tajima to be suspicious."
"I don't care." Hong Limin glared at Guan Lin with sharp eyes.
"Does my husband have the right to blame us? Instead of reflecting on himself, he doubts us, which is enough to show that he is a selfish person. I knew before that my husband is a selfish person. He is very lenient to himself and very rude to others. Harsh..."
