Lin Zhixia returned home a little discouraged. As soon as she entered the house, her mother's phone call came in. It was as if Lin's mother had installed a surveillance camera on her body, which was accurate.
She looked at the phone that had been ringing, frowning, not wanting to answer it.
But she knew that if she didn't answer the call, her mother would keep calling until she answered. In the end, Lin Zhixia reluctantly answered the phone.
"How's it going? What do you think of that boy?" Lin Zhixia heard her mother's slightly happy and brisk voice as soon as she got through.
"The person is okay, but..." Lin Zhixia was thinking about how to tactfully express her true thoughts and say her rejection.
Judging from the first impression, she really didn't have any idea about the other party, at least they had different food preferences.
Mother Lin heard Lin Zhixia's thoughts as soon as she heard it, and her face suddenly darkened, "That's right, I think you just don't want to get in touch with her. You should try to understand them. The most important thing when looking at people is to look at them. Character, upbringing, nothing else matters. You always have to look forward, you can’t live in the past forever, you have to have someone in your future life, you know?"
"Don't be impatient with the child, speak slowly," Father Lin's gentle and slow voice came from the microphone.
For a moment, neither Lin Zhixia nor Mother Lin spoke. Lin Zhixia turned on the phone and put it on the table, got up and poured herself a glass of water.
After returning to the sofa and sitting down, Mother Lin's gentle voice came again, "Your Aunt Chen just called me and said that the other party is very satisfied with you. You are not allowed to refuse this time. Try to get along with her first." , I didn’t ask you to get married now.”
What came to her ears was her mother's nagging voice. For some reason, Lin Zhixia suddenly thought of her parents' faces full of vicissitudes of life and the few white hairs that appeared on their heads at some point.
Her parents were getting older and worried about her all day long. Although her father never directly urged her to get married, she also knew that he was also very anxious inside.
When Lin Zhixia faced the aging bodies of her parents, she once wanted to say no again but could no longer say it.
"Mom, please call Aunt Chen and tell her that I agree to try to get along first!" Lin Zhixia said calmly to her mother on the other side of the phone.
When Mother Lin heard that Lin Zhixia finally agreed, she said happily, "That's right. I'll make a call right now. You can go to bed early."
"You're happy now," Father Lin sat next to Mother Lin with freshly brewed chrysanthemum tea in his hand, and raised his hand to hand the water to Mother Lin.
"I think she still can't forget that Zhang Fan. Why is she so stubborn? For the sake of a man who hurt her, she kills everyone with one stroke, and she just wants to never get married." Mother Lin said angrily, because When I'm angry, my chest rises and falls violently, and I always feel like there's a lump in my heart.
Father Lin patted his wife on the shoulder and comforted: "Xia Xia has grown up and is an adult. She knows what kind of life she wants and how to choose. Besides, hasn't she agreed to get along with that boy now? Well, let them get married first, let’s not push her too hard.”
Looking at Mother Lin who was still a little angry, Father Lin put his arm around her shoulders and leaned into his arms, "Don't be too angry. Xia Xia was also hurt at the time, and she was also suffering."
Listening to Father Lin's words, Mother Lin's eyes heated up, "You said why she is so stubborn and stubborn, ever since she was a child, it has not made people worry at all. I'm afraid she won't meet someone who can tolerate her like you." people."
Father Lin chuckled and comforted: "Once a person is born, he has his destiny. No matter whether Xia Xia ends up with a good person or not, she still has us as her backers, right?"
Lin Zhixia's family is actually a very ordinary and ordinary family. Her mother is a teacher like her, but her mother is a primary school teacher.
Because of this, her mother criticized her a lot, "She said that after all she went to a first-class university, but ended up being a teacher who was not as good as her."
Lin Zhixia's college entrance examination results happened to be that of Lancheng University. However, the number of students in the major she applied for was already full, so she switched to the preschool education major.
Lin's father served as a soldier in the army when he was young. Later, he returned home and became a policeman at the police station near his home.
Father Lin and Mother Lin were introduced on a blind date when they were young.
When she was young, Mother Lin was also a graceful beauty, especially her big, sparkling eyes, which caught Father Lin's attention as soon as they met.
Lin Zhixia's eyes were also inherited from her mother, and she inherited all the luminous points on her mother's body, which is why her appearance is always slightly better than others.
In fact, Mother Lin felt very sorry for her daughter. Although she had an advantage in appearance, her relationship was not smooth at all.
The relationship she was in ended up breaking up. Mother Lin had always seen her when she was sad and sad. She really hoped that her daughter could come out on her own. People always have to look forward, and they can't stay immersed in the past and lose the ability to move forward. motivation.
Lin Zhixia's eyes were slightly hot as she looked at the phone that had been hung up. She was half lying on the back of the sofa, trying not to shed tears.
Even though six years had passed, she admitted that she would still think of him from time to time. His face was still clear in her mind. His indifferent eyes and selfishness of taking the initiative to indifference to the relationship still hurt deeply. To her heart.
It was obvious that he was the one who took the initiative to provoke you, but in the end, she was the one who couldn't get out.
Lin Zhixia looked distractedly at the already dark window. The biting cold wind was blowing, lonely and cold. In the darkness, none of the lights of thousands of high-rise buildings were lit for her.
Especially in this dark night like thick ink, it seems that endless black ink is heavily smeared in the sky, and even the stars are not shining, which makes people feel lonely.
She couldn't help but think of the words in Cao Yun's "The Poetry Stealer" she saw two days ago:
"Loneliness is your long-lasting friend,
Love only knocks on the door occasionally,
We should live with loneliness,
Playing the piano, reading books, shopping for groceries, and being sincere about life,
There are too many regrets and losses in my life,
We need to clean up our regrets,
Those who plant new flowers and forget the old ones,
Holding the palm of every lamp in the deep night,
Be eager to hear when love comes,
Love is not afraid of the echo when it leaves,
I will always be loyal to this short life,
Walking during the day until dusk, looking up at the stars at night,
Chasing mountains and rivers, fireworks, and loving loved ones. "
Lin Zhixia comforted herself to slowly let go. Not all expectations can be fulfilled, and not all tears can be cherished.
People always have to learn to grow up and walk their own path.
She didn't know how long she lay like this. Finally, she stubbornly wiped away the tears that overflowed from the corners of her eyes. Her mother's words were true. She would always have someone by her side in the rest of her life. Getting married would be a matter of time. She would always try. Look forward.
She tentatively wanted to give it a try.
For my parents and even more for myself.
