Chen Changsheng said: "Have you seen me now?"
Yanhuanglou sighed softly and waved his hand.
Chen Changsheng glanced at the folding fan and asked, "Is there anything special about this folding fan?"
Yanhuanglou took the folding fan in his hand, opened it, and saw a picture of orchids inside.
After so many years, he saw this fan again, and many memories arose in his mind.
Yanhuanglou said: "Speaking of this fan..."
"I was only a few years old at that time. I didn't know much at that time. I was studying in a private school in the palace. At that time, I really wanted a fan. Because Mr. Zhu had it, Mr. Zhu had it, and Mr. Lan also had it, so I went to ask for it. gentlemen."
"My husband said he would give me one as a gift when I can read the whole book."
"I was very stupid when I was a child. I studied a whole book for a year, but by the time of the Zhongyuan Dynasty, I still couldn't read it fluently."
"After another half a year, I finally learned to read all the words in that book."
"Just when I was excited to see Mr., I couldn't find him. I asked Mr. Zhu and Mr. Lan, but they just said that Mr. was busy with something."
"I have been waiting for many days, but I have not been able to wait for you, sir. Instead, I have waited for the army to enter the city."
"Sir surrendered. Mr. Lan took me out of the palace that day. In the blink of an eye, things were turned upside down. The palace was raided. I don’t know where I went after Mr. Lan took me out. The city of King Yu is no longer called the city of King Yu. Qingshan, and I didn’t get to see my husband in the end.”
"Later, I was taken care of by the shopkeeper of a restaurant, and I stayed there as a waiter, earning a monthly salary of 100 cents. I stayed like this until I was sixteen."
"The business of the restaurant was sluggish. It didn't open until the end. The shopkeeper sold the restaurant and said he would take me back to his hometown and open another restaurant."
"That day, I followed the shopkeeper to the pawn shop and pawned all the things I couldn't take away. It was also on that day that I saw the fan in the pawn shop."
"That's the fan that Mr. used to use."
"I didn't go with the shopkeeper and stayed in Qingshan City."
"In those years, I just wanted to earn more money, and I dared to do any dirty work. So until I was twenty-seven, I had saved more than thirty taels of silver."
"But that was also the year when I went to work as a mason for someone. I went up to the roof. Unexpectedly, the beams became loose. After a while, the whole house collapsed. I almost broke my back, but the owner said it was me. Accidentally, I was reported to the Yamen."
"But such things never come to a conclusion. The government official just said that each of us should contribute half, but each of us has half, which costs more than thirty taels of silver. I have been saving for more than ten years, so I can all contribute." ”
"At that time, I didn't have money to see a doctor, and my waist was also suffering from a disease. I couldn't do any work that required physical strength, so I started this tea stall."
"It has been more than forty years now..."
Yanhuanglou recalled this, he looked at Chen Changsheng, and couldn't help but smile: "I have been doing this all my life for this fan. Don't laugh at me for being stupid."
Chen Changsheng looked calm, shook his head and said, "Chen doesn't think there's anything ridiculous, but I admire you very much."
Yanhuanglou looked at him, he didn't look like the person he usually quarreled with.
Chen Changsheng said: "Some people don't know what they want all their lives. People who want wealth will think about having power after they get it. People who want power will be dissatisfied after they get it."
"On the verge of death, I suddenly realize that the so-called fame and wealth are actually just clouds. Then I will ask myself, what do I really want?"
"But where is the chance?"
Chen Changsheng continued: "It is very difficult for a person to be able to do one thing well in this life. And you know what you want from the beginning, which is something that many people have never been able to do."
Yanhuanglou said: "I thought you would really laugh at me."
"How could that happen?" Chen Changsheng shook his head and said, "Actually, in comparison, I'm not as good as you."
"Not as good as me?"
"Um."
Chen Changsheng thought, his thoughts drifting a little far away.
Fame and fortune? Immortality? Or is it to break the curse of the ephemera? Or something, it seems that he can't tell what it is he wants.
If it is said to be free and easy.
Isn't he free and happy now?
It should count.
Yanhuanglou saw that he seemed to be thinking about something, so he asked, "You don't know what you want?"
"What if I said yes."
"Your knowledge is different from ordinary people like me, so how can you not know what you want?"
Chen Changsheng laughed when he heard this and said, "Actually, the more knowledgeable a person is, the less likely they are to understand."
"is that so?"
Yanhuang Tower still doesn’t quite understand.
He just felt that this was a simple question, just like scholars just want to get fame.
Chen Changsheng didn't say anything more, he just sat on the board and drank tea.
Yanhuanglou saw that something was wrong with Chen Changsheng, so he said: "The way you are acting now is really not like you."
Chen Changsheng did not look back and muttered: "Actually, Chen has always been like this, but recently, he has become a little more playful."
Yanhuang Tower said: "Don't say it's because of me?"
Chen Changsheng smiled and said: "It's partly because of it. Of course there are still many things, but at least it's much better than before."
Yanhuanglou was a little curious and asked, "What were you like back then?"
Chen Changsheng thought for a moment and replied: "If I insist..."
His eyes fell on a lonely old man on the street.
"Just like that old man."
Yanhuanglou followed his gaze and saw the old man with cloudy eyes and a staggering walk on the street.
He felt strange that Chen Changsheng was so young, why would he compare himself with such an old person.
"You are still so young." Yanhuang Lou said.
"you do not believe?"
"I believe."
Yanhuang Lou said, "In my opinion, you should be the kind of person who is warm on the outside but sad on the inside."
Chen Changsheng nodded and said, "You are right."
Yanhuanglou shook his head and said, "If that's what you say, it's better not to walk around with your temper."
Chen Changsheng glanced at him and asked, "Why?"
"You should be a nostalgic person, but if your friends are in front of you, you won't think so much. For example, Qingshan City is not a big place. If you just stay a little longer, you may know everyone. "
Yanhuanglou said this.
Chen Changsheng shook his head when he heard such words.
"Chen..."
"It's better not to know too many people."
Yanhuanglou asked in confusion: "Why?"
"No reason."
Chen Changsheng drank all the tea in the cup and said, "I'll come back later."
He left the tea stall.
Yanhuanglou raised his eyes and saw that Chen Changsheng's back was completely different from before.
He can tell.
It was an indescribable loneliness.
just like……
No one can walk the same path as him.
