Only then did I understand why I felt so uncomfortable when I first met Fangfang's mother, and even felt like "I might as well not eat this meal."
It turns out that she has so many karma!
But I didn't say anything. I watched this scene silently and recited the Great Compassion Mantra in my heart.
"Namo Heladana, Dora Ye, Namo Asiye, Balukadi, Shuobaoya, Bodhisattva Tamboya, Mahasattva Tamboye, Mahakaluni Gaya, Om Sa Bo Luo Punilai..."
I can recite these lines to express the meaning, but the latter part is too convoluted, so I can sing along without any problem, but I can’t memorize it.
But just after memorizing a few sentences over and over again, the infant spirits in front of me raised their heads and looked at me, not eating any of them, and their little eyes lit up one after another.
Seeing the infant spirits acting like this, I felt sympathy for them, so I took out my phone, found the Great Compassion Mantra, and recited it carefully.
These infant spirits listened attentively and gathered around me. They all seemed very happy.
After I finished reciting, I felt like the pores on my body were open and I was feeling the cool breeze.
Good guy, this is simply equivalent to me giving these infant spirits a small salvation.
Although this is far from a transcendence, it at least plays a certain role.
Then, the ferocious expressions on the faces of these infant spirits diminished slightly, and then slowly turned into streaks of black energy, returning to Fangfang's mother's body.
I secretly breathed a sigh of relief and asked, "Auntie, are you feeling better now?"
She slowly let go of the hand covering her head, looked at me and said, "Hey, it's really better. It's getting better this time."
Fangfang looked at me with a look of surprise on her face: "Brother Ang, what did you recite just now? How do I feel that my mother will be fine after you finish reciting it?"
I smiled and said, "What I just recited was the Great Compassion Mantra. If Auntie feels uncomfortable in the future, you can try reciting it. But I have a question. It may be a bit presumptuous. I don't know if I should say it?"
Fangfang hurriedly said: "It's okay, Brother Ang, I know you are not an ordinary person. I can tell from my dad's incident. Just ask."
I thought for a moment, thought about the wording, and then said: "This question is... Auntie, have you ever worked in an obstetrics and gynecology department before, and have you ever performed an abortion or anything like that?"
I can only ask this question for two main reasons.
The first is that I can't directly ask people about their miscarriage, which would be a bit offensive, not to mention there are so many babies.
The second thing is that I really doubt whether her mother worked in a hospital. How could the average person have so many infant spirits, unless the doctor in the abortion room is often exposed to these.
Fangfang's mother was stunned for a moment, then shook her head and said: "No, I have never worked in a hospital, and we don't have that fate. I have just been working part-time jobs. A few years ago, my eyes were damaged because of working in a factory. I’m injured, but if I work in the hospital, this won’t be a problem.”
This is true, so I thought about it and asked: "Have you ever participated in any work related to family planning before?"
She shook her head again and again: "Never, I haven't even finished junior high school, how could I possibly get into that kind of job..."
But before she finished speaking, Fangfang suddenly interjected: "Mom, our family does have family planning, have you forgotten? My grandma is the one."
She suddenly remembered, slapped her forehead and said: "Ah, yes, yes, yes, I almost forgot, her grandma used to be the director of the family planning office, but that was more than 20 years ago... This matter has nothing to do with us. Is there any bad relationship?"
I nodded and said, "Yes, there is indeed a bad relationship. I was doubting this just now, and I guessed it right. How is her grandma doing now?"
She smiled helplessly: "He has been gone for more than ten years. He hanged himself."
hanged himself...
I took a deep breath and asked, "Then why did she commit suicide? Do you know?"
She shook her head: "I don't know. I just know that in those few years she became a demon. She always had nightmares at night. She liked to lock herself in the house. She often talked nonsense and was in a trance. She always said that there was a ghost trying to catch her. . We all thought she had a mental problem. Some medicines were of no use and she could no longer work. We asked for leave to take care of her at home. Later, we didn’t know what happened and she hanged herself in the woodshed.”
I probably already understood that Fangfang’s grandma was the director of the Family Planning Office, and it must be that all the aborted babies came to her to settle accounts because of the family planning policy back then.
Even if she hangs herself, she will continue to seek revenge from her descendants.
When we talked about this topic, Fangfang’s mother started talking and started telling stories about her personal experiences in that era.
She said that when it comes to family planning back then, it was a very unforgettable historical period, and those who experienced it may never forget it in their lifetime.
Especially in some rural and remote areas, the traditional idea of favoring boys over girls is deeply ingrained. If a family does not have a boy, they will be called "extremely poor", will be criticized in the village, and will be ridiculed and looked down upon by others.
I remember a family of two who gave birth to seven children in total, all of whom were daughters. Finally, the one who took charge finally gave up and finally raised his head in front of his father and fellow villagers.
As a result, the population is getting more and more children, and the ratio of men to women is seriously imbalanced. People are getting poorer and have more children, and they are getting poorer as they are having children, falling into a vicious circle.
Therefore, under the historical background at that time, family planning was necessary to a certain extent, but when it was actually implemented, it was varied and there were all kinds of situations.
The propaganda tactics used then seem almost unbelievable now.
At that time, in order to complete the mission, some extraordinary measures were often adopted under the prevailing circumstances.
Women who were pregnant and wanted to have children were hiding everywhere. Some gave birth secretly and gave them to others to raise, or they lived a wandering life incognito.
Fangfang’s mother also told me that her mother was the director of the Family Planning Office at the time and was well-known for her work ability, even to her family members!
