I wonder how you are doing now? Where do you work and who do you hang out with? My memory of you seems to still be in my school days. When I wrote the word "work", I felt a little dazed because it reminded me that we have really grown up. It's been many years since I last saw you. I still remember every word I said to you, because I have said so little to you.
To be honest, I seem to have gradually forgotten your appearance and your voice. Sometimes when I think of you, my mind is even blurry, so I often think about a question, why do I still like you? Year by year.
One night I talked about you with my roommate. I didn’t mention your name. I just said that this is someone I have been secretly in love with for many years. Then she told me that I probably didn’t like you anymore, but It's obsession.
I was thinking at the time that this obsession was not good at all.
I can't help but want to know more about your life, but I'm afraid I'll really see something from it. I'm afraid I'll see you like another girl, and I'm afraid I'll see that it's really impossible for you to like me. .
Maybe you are getting married now? Or with a girl you love very much? I seem to keep mentioning this matter over and over again. This is what I care about most, because I know that person will not be me, so I have always been curious about what kind of outstanding girl it is to let you Like, curious. Although curious, I think I will never want to know the answer.
Just keep disappearing from my life, and I will gradually forget you. Really, I really want to end my love for you. This feeling of hiding and secretly liking someone is nothing like that. OK, too bitter and astringent.
Zhou Zhengan finished reading the letter, and the letter was now lightly covering his heart, just like the light memories of Jiang Nan's past.
However, he felt so heavy that it seemed like he couldn't breathe.
Zhou Zhengan felt as if something was blocked in his throat, which was uncomfortable and stinging. The uncomfortable feeling spread to his heart and could not be dissipated for a long time.
Joy, confusion, heartache, sultryness, and sourness all mixed together, running wildly in his mind, making Zhou Zheng's heart a mess.
Especially when he thought of the bookmark sandwiched in the book and those sour words, Zhou Zhengan did not dare to think too much about Jiang Nan's mood when he wrote those words, and what kind of mood he was in when he wrote them. this letter.
The one who made her feel bitter and sour, the one who didn't want to like her again, was him.
No wonder he had always doubted Jiang Nan's love for him before, and even felt that he was the one who started the relationship between them.
Jiang Nan hid too deeply because she had already encountered a thorn.
He also suspected that her previous love was for Yan Song.
...
The more Zhou Zhengan thought about it, the more he felt panicked and it hurt wherever he tightened his grip.
I felt sorry for her, and also felt sorry for them who were almost complete strangers at that time.
When it was almost eleven o'clock at night, Shen Li returned home slowly. She didn't know much about the daily routine of young people nowadays, but she just felt that it was almost the time.
Zhou Zhixu and his party were also very knowledgeable. When they saw Shen Li coming back, they spoke tacitly and ended the small gathering.
Jiang Nan also put on his coat, changed his shoes and told Shen Li to go downstairs to see them off.
Shen Li couldn't stop looking at her, and she said lightly: "Why don't you take this opportunity to meet Xiao Zhou?"
"How could it be?" Jiang Nan almost laughed.
Seeing the frank look in her eyes, Shen Li calmed down a bit, but he still worried and warned again: "The rules of our ancestors must be followed. If you send someone away, come back as soon as possible."
Jiang Nan nodded, and then Shen Li nodded and let him go.
Zhou Zhixu took Jiang Nan's arm, and the two of them walked at the end of the crowd. She whispered to Jiang Nan: "I don't know where my brother is now? But I don't think he is the kind of person who doesn't listen to his elders and acts randomly. As a person, your mother can actually feel at ease."
Jiang Nan pursed her lips slightly and said nothing. In fact, she felt the same in her heart.
And judging from the phone call from Zhou Zhengan today, Zhou Zhengan, a workaholic, might still be busy at work.
They walked all the way downstairs. Su Jinyue, who was walking at the front, stopped first and turned around and said to Jiang Nan: "No need to see her off. Go back and rest. Don't you have to get up early tomorrow?"
She raised eyebrows at Jiang Nan, "I'll bring my makeup team to dress you up tomorrow. Pay attention to your skin tonight."
Jiang Nan nodded: "Be careful on the way back."
Su Jinyue turned to look at Gao Xinyue and said, "How do you plan to go back?"
Gao Xinyue replied: "Take a taxi?"
"Let's go, I'll see you off." Su Jinyue said. She turned to look at Zhou Zhixu again. Before Zhou Zhixu could speak, she said, "Xiao Ren is here to pick you up, right? Then we are not together." "
Zhou Zhixu seemed a little shy when facing his beautiful sister, and she nodded.
Su Jinyue and Gao Xinyue left together. Zhou Zhixu also happened to receive a call from Ren Xianzhi and walked outside the community. As she walked, she turned to Jiang Nan and mouthed, "I'll come back tomorrow morning."
Jiang Nan nodded.
In a blink of an eye, Xu Pingsheng was the only one left standing.
Jiang Nan asked him: "How do you plan to go back?"
"I also have a car, okay?" Xu Pingsheng put his hands in his hands but was not in a hurry to leave.
Jiang Nan smiled softly.
Xu Pingsheng looked at her sideways, seemingly feeling a little emotional, and said, "You are really different from before."
"Seriously, if that guy surnamed Zhou gets into trouble with you again, I'm sure I'll pick you up with just one phone call."
Hearing what he said, Jiang Nan smiled and lowered her head. When she raised her head again, her eyes were more serious. She didn't know what she was talking about: "Thank you, Xu Pingsheng, I didn't expect that." , will produce so many stories with you, a college classmate."
"It's nothing." Xu Pingsheng waved his hand and said, "Let's go."
Jiang Nan watched them go away.
When Jiang Nan went back, only one light in the house was on, which was left for her.
Shen Li stood on the sofa, not sleeping, and was waiting for her. As soon as she came back, he kept telling her: "Take out the wedding dress and try it on first. If you have any problems, I can help you deal with it. If it's wrinkled, give it to me." You iron, and also, when will Jinyue come tomorrow? You have to book the time in advance, otherwise you will be in a hurry..."
Jiang Nan felt that she suddenly felt like a child again, like she was back in elementary school and kindergarten. She said helplessly: "Mom, don't worry, everything has been arranged."
"Then go to bed early. Don't stay up late. I'll wake you up tomorrow." Shen Li said, she still looked uneasy.
Jiang Nan took a shower and returned to his room.
The room she lived in was not big, probably only as big as the bathroom in the apartment. Everything in the room looked very old, and all the furnishings were the things Jiang Nan was most familiar with.
Jiang Nan was lying on her little bed, and a long-lost feeling came over her. She couldn't describe it, but as long as she thought that there would be many people coming for her tomorrow morning and she would see Zhou Zhengan, her heart would be filled with excitement. Very stable.
I was even a little too excited to sleep.
Jiang Nan thought about it, so she lay in bed and took out her mobile phone to send a message to Zhou Zhengan, asking him if he had slept.
It's almost twelve o'clock now.
After waiting for nearly ten minutes, there was still no movement there. Jiang Nan estimated that he had fallen asleep, so he put down his phone and slowly fell asleep with his pillow in his hands.
In the middle of the night, Jiang Nan was woken up by the cold. When she opened her eyes, she realized that the thick quilt had been brought to the bedside by her at some point. At this time, she was about to fall off the bed.
There was no heating in the room, and it was extremely cold without the quilt. It actually killed Jiang Nan's sleepiness.
She picked up the quilt and covered herself with it, and looked at the ceiling quietly for a while.
It was cool and quiet at night.
Somehow, Jiang Nan remembered the unanswered text message. She fumbled around on the bed for her phone, and then opened it to take a look.
The top of the phone screen showed that a new message had come in an hour ago.
It was after two o'clock in the morning.
In other words, the text message was sent at one o'clock, and Zhou Zhengan was still up so late. Jiang Nan thought about it as he clicked on the text message.
Just two words - good night.
Jiang Nan imagined Zhou Zheng'an's indifferent expression in his own mind, and he didn't care when he typed these two words.
Too perfunctory.
She didn't know if she was being pretentious, but she just felt that she didn't see the excitement and joy in her husband about the wedding tomorrow.
Too common.
Although such excitement and joy were unlikely to appear on his expression.
But...he was in a hurry when he hung up the phone on her, and didn't call her back later.
It was as if he was not the one getting married.
Jiang Nan made herself angry. She couldn't sleep even if she lay down on either side. Now she really couldn't sleep anymore, so she straightened up and rubbed her head. Jiang Nan felt a little thirsty, so she got out of bed and put on her clothes. Shoes, she casually put some clothes on herself and walked out of the room.
The house was dark and quiet.
Jiang Nan was afraid that his movements would wake up Shen Li, so he moved very lightly.
There was no boiling hot water at this time, so she got herself a glass of cold water and drank it in small sips, feeling the cold taste in her stomach.
At this time, Zhou Zhengan must have been asleep, Jiang Nan thought to himself.
She had nothing to do, so she simply walked to the balcony. As soon as she opened the door, a cold breeze blew in.
Jiang Nan couldn't help but hug her coat tightly, and she casually lowered her head to look downstairs.
There was a completely black car parked downstairs in her house. Jiang Nan glanced over and recognized who the car belonged to.
