If external factors such as appearance are put aside, He Tianran is comparable to Guo Huai and Shen Qiuxu. His knowledge is about the same as Guo Huai's, his character is not as gentle as Shen Qiuxu's, and he has the most enviable wealthy family background. , on the contrary, Cao Aiqing despised him the most.
A good girl who has been nurtured by poetry, books and love since she was a child, naturally has a very good concept of the definition of "material".
So in comparison, He Tianran seems to have no advantage. However, among these three people, He Tianran has one "disadvantage" that the other two have never had.
He is one of the few, or even the only, person who can provoke a good-tempered girl like Cao Aiqing to the point where she cannot hold back...
This is different from the kind of nonsense. The reason why the drama of good girls prefer bad boys is so enduring is that the point is definitely not how bad the bad boy is, but how good he is to good girls.
If they are simply bad, then half of the girls who fall in love with bad boys have naive personalities, while the other half have shallow knowledge.
Obviously, Cao Aiqing is not in this category.
Therefore, He Tianran's badness is more of an implicit expression of "being good to you", and the way in which this "goodness" is expressed is often contrary to the general form of caring. Fortunately, he has restrained himself too much now. Too many, at most, he was angry at Cao Aiqing subconsciously in this regard. He would never do the same self-righteous behavior as he did in his previous life.
Cao Aiqing gradually calmed down after walking fifty or sixty meters. She turned around and saw He Tianran looking at her with a smile. Only then did she realize that she was still holding the other person's hand, and immediately let go.
"why are you laughing?"
"It's nothing, it's just a pity that I couldn't see you excited. If that shot had hit, you would have been very happy."
"It sounds like you know me very well..."
"We have all experienced so much together. It would be strange to say we don't understand, right?"
Cao Aiqing was silent.
This timeline has been restarted for nearly two years without realizing it. The old grudges have long been settled. Cao Aiqing no longer treats He Tianran as tit-for-tat as before. They chat and socialize as friends, and occasionally participate in each other's affairs. In life, even in holding hands in a hurry just now, you will not notice any abrupt feeling.
They can face each other naturally.
As a friend, but still unable to go any further...
The two of them continued walking on the promenade of the amusement park. At this time, He Tianran suddenly took a few steps forward, turned around and backed away, saying:
"Hey, have my uncle and aunt ever told you that you are a person with a hard mouth and a soft heart, and you can be very stubborn sometimes."
"Are you talking about the shooting just now? He Tianran, it was obvious that you kept missing the shot just now, so you asked me to play with you..."
"No, I'm talking about Xue Yong."
Cao Aiqing was about to defend his gaffe just now, but He Tianran changed the subject.
"If you really don't think so highly of Xue Yong, then when Bai Tingting called you today, you could have stopped her and asked her to refuse the invitation, but you didn't and even came with her. This shows that you have deep feelings for Xue Yong. Yong’s impression is far from as bad as what you say. You actually want to see the development of the two of them, right?"
Cao Aiqing said angrily:
"It turns out you listened to me just now."
He Tianran joked:
"What did you say to me that I didn't listen carefully? I just think that the purpose of coming to the amusement park is to have fun. There is no need to make it so serious. We can chat while playing. If we even have such a happy time If we don’t grasp it well, then we really deserve to go to hell.”
Cao Aiqing really didn't expect that He Tianran would be able to tell Yuan back. The girl gave him a look:
"Then you know you're coming back from hell?"
Sensing that the other party's mood had relaxed, He Tianran said cheerfully:
"If the sun shines every day, it doesn't mean anything. What I like most is the wind, frost and snow outside, and the rain and hail are falling, while I hide in the house, drink a sip of happy water, and hit the After a few games, I felt so comfortable; it’s the same situation now. You said this world makes me feel depressed, but I believe I can still have fun. No matter if it’s black or white, does anyone remember me? Hell Isn’t there a playground? Then let’s play! What is this called, this is called detachment, it’s called unrestrained!”
Cao Aiqing finally couldn't help it and chuckled:
"It seems you didn't go back in vain this time."
He Tianran put his hands behind his back: "Tsk~ Actually, it's just like that."
After saying that, he became a little bit sad again and continued:
"There are definitely gains. For example, yesterday I went back to the film school to visit some good buddies. One of the brothers who studied photography broke up with his girlfriend who studied acting. The reason was just because of their respective futures. This seems very realistic, but at the beginning, my buddy loved his girlfriend to death, who would have thought that it would end like this?"
Cao Aiqing immediately understood what he meant and continued:
"So as soon as you came back, you arranged a date between Xue Yong and Tingting?"
He Tianran nodded:
"After all, Brother Xiaoyong and Tingting are different. They are both locals in Hong Kong City and will not consider developing in other places in the future. This will save a lot of trouble. If they can continue their relationship, it will naturally be the best. As for what may have gone wrong, it is probably that Xue Yong in this world has not suffered a severe beating from me, so I don’t know how well Tingting will treat him, but I think there will be plenty of opportunities in the future."
Cao Aiqing smiled and said:
"You are a conscientious Yue Lao."
He Tianran deliberately arranged his clothes and pretended:
"Yue Lao can't talk about it, but as a gentleman, he will never allow two lovers who are in love but suffering from pain to look at each other from a distance."
Cao Aiqing was stunned.
He can always arrange for others properly, but has he arranged for himself properly?
"Hey, are you thirsty? Do you want some juice? I'm already thirsty."
He Tianran pointed to a small shop selling freshly squeezed juice not far away. Cao Aiqing, who was stuck in his own thoughts, shook his head.
"I don't want to drink just yet, you can just buy your own."
Unexpectedly, as soon as this sentence was uttered, He Tianran immediately rejected it:
"No, you have to drink, otherwise I won't be able to say the line I suddenly thought of."
"..."
Cao Aiqing was really speechless and asked directly: "What do you want to say?"
"You said you drank."
The girl hesitated for two seconds, but still couldn't resist and fulfilled his wish.
"……I drink."
"Okay~"
As if he had received an order, He Tianran went to buy a glass each of peach and dragon fruit juice.
A few minutes later, Cao Aiqing took her peach juice and saw that He Tianran was already sipping the dragon fruit in her hand. Her curiosity was aroused and she couldn't help but urge: "Can we talk now?"
He Tianran giggled twice and said, "Hey, I suddenly feel embarrassed to speak."
"You!" Cao Aiqing stopped and said angrily: "What do you have to say? Say it!"
He Tianran: ""
Cao Aiqing: "(`へ≠)"
When the girl gradually couldn't suppress her anger, He Tianran finally let go, and he actually sang a relaxing ditty without saying anything right:
"The world is noisy and noisy. What is reality? I will buy you a glass of juice for your stumbling and silly smile~"
"..."
"..."
The girl's face turned red visibly, and she didn't know whether she was ashamed or embarrassed. She first covered her eyes, waited for a few seconds, then slowly moved down to expose her eyes, and covered her mouth with her hands to hide her thoughts. The corners of his lips were about to rise, staring at the man in front of him who was acting awkwardly on the street.
"He Tianran... you... you really... what kind of nonsense is this..."
He Tianran didn't realize it at all, "Is it bad? Why do I think... you quite like it?"
Cao Aiqing couldn't help it, and punched him hard on the shoulder. After the beating, he was still not satisfied, so he punched him again and said angrily:
"You like it when I ask you to put on a weird look! What are you doing! It's so embarrassing!"
He Tianran was beaten so hard that he stepped back repeatedly, laughing and shouting: "Well, that's what you want to ask, okay?!"
"You're not pretending to be weird!"
"To be honest, I was once the lead singer of a band, so my singing shouldn't be difficult to listen to..."
"It sounds awful!"
"Okay, okay, my fault, my fault, stop fighting, stop fighting, take a rest, take a rest."
The girl didn't give up until the man surrendered and begged for mercy. However, her eyes were still fierce, and her fair face had two traces of flying clouds. She was panting slightly, like an angry little lamb, and it seemed that she was still angry. Na.
He Tianran calmed down his expression, stretched out his hand, and lifted the juice in Cao Aiqing's hand.
"Oh, drink some juice to relieve your anger. I won't make a fuss anymore. I really won't make a fuss anymore."
Cao Aiqing was too lazy to look at his playful smile, looked away, and really took a sip of her juice angrily.
"It tastes good. I specifically asked the boss, and he said the peach flavor is the sweetest." He Tianran flattered her as if asking for credit.
The girl glanced at him sideways and said angrily: "It's okay."
"Look, let me just say you are duplicitous. Just now you said you don't want to drink..."
He Tianran waited until this moment to change the subject. He had been waiting for Cao Aiqing to say this. The girl was suddenly confused. How could she have known that this guy had made a big detour in his words. He was waiting for her here. Now that I have drunk the juice and given the evaluation, isn't it possible that he caught me in the act and refutes everything he wants to refute?
"Hey! God! Ran!"
The girl was furious and her eyebrows stood up.
Brother Tianran, who was dancing on the edge of the volcano, remained unhurried and even suggested:
"Ai Qing, how about we go play a roller coaster, a big pendulum, etc. for some excitement?"
"Big pendulum? I want to give you a pendulum right now!"
"Hahahaha, don't, don't, don't, spare your life, spare your life..."
The scene of boys and girls chasing each other was performed as scheduled in the seaside amusement park. Their figures shuttled among the crowd, hovered on the roller coaster, followed the spinning Trojan horse up and down, and then suddenly rose and fell in the sky of the jumping machine. moment, depicting a time curve unique to them.
…
Time passes by, and I don’t know if sensitive and delicate people are like this. Many things have already begun to come to mind before they are over.
When He Tianran and Cao Aiqing arrived at the Ferris wheel, it was already a few minutes past six o'clock. Fortunately, Xue Yong and Bai Tingting came over in advance to help them queue up, and they kept calling to remind them, so finally at such a time, the two of them Entering the cockpit that is about to take off.
The door of the cockpit closed automatically, and they entered such a closed space. The men and women, who had been in high spirits just now and immersed in the amusement atmosphere, sat down face to face. For a moment, they were speechless. Their minds slowly sank, and they quietly waited for the ascent. The moment of emptiness.
Cao Aiqing looked out the window softly. He Tianran looked at her and thought of a sentence for no reason -
The sun does not set suddenly.
Just like human emotions, they cannot burst out suddenly. They are accumulated bit by bit. Disappointment and open-mindedness, resentment and relief are also the final expression methods chosen after going back and forth again and again.
After all, Cao Aiqing is the same girl as before. Compared with He Tianran, she is the one who has always followed through on many choices and results...
Many times, the memory of the future made He Tianran feel painful. At first, he wanted to completely separate the present from the future. Then, he wanted to make it as harmonious as possible, so the young man's willful paranoia and The youth's sophistication makes He Tianran, who is wandering at both ends, become more decadent and older.
One person cannot have youth and the feeling of youth at the same time.
Cao Aiqing let He Tianran go, so the hell she was in became heaven.
Perhaps, sealing a period of time with blessings and tenderness is the best farewell.
The Ferris wheel started slowly, and the two of them took off little by little. Cao Aiqing noticed He Tianran's gaze. She turned her head to look at him and asked softly:
"Why not stay there?"
He Tianran did not avoid it anymore, but asked:
"Do you think there's any reason why I have to stay there?"
Cao Aiqing was silent for a moment, and finally said a name that both of them tried to avoid today, but if they wanted to talk about it, they couldn't avoid it no matter what.
"Because... Wen Liang."
The moving position of the Ferris wheel slowly changed with the light and shadow outside the window. The golden light of dusk drew a clear line between light and dark on the faces of men and women. He Tianran smiled slightly and slumped down in his seat. , he raised his head, as if thinking about how to answer this question.
"This is not a reason. I think... I can live a good life even without any of you around me now."
He murmured, as if to confirm that the answer he copied from Cao Aiqing was really what he thought. He murmured to himself, emphasized his tone, and repeated:
"Well, I can live a good life too..."
When he said this, the golden thread of sunlight just passed over his brows, and his eyes, which were looking out the window and filled with memories, shone brightly.
"You and Wen Liang are both very strong and capable girls. You can actually live a wonderful life without me. But I want to say that I, He Tianran, am the same. You said that I, a grown man, can't always live a wonderful life. They are both inferior to you two, but they have always been in love with each other, and have been holding on to them, right?
Wen Liang taught me how to love, and Ai Qing taught me how to love myself. This is a great favor you have given me. It is enough for my life, so what else should I covet? ? "
Cao Aiqing looked at the young man in front of him and couldn't help asking:
"What about your dream? That... dream of making a movie."
Perhaps the word "dream" is the deepest meaning represented by the name "Wenliang". Cao Aiqing knew that He Tianran's return to this world meant what he gave up, and the most important reason for giving him the beads was It's also because of this...
Maybe sometimes, a person's name can really be tied to a certain thought. Once someone mentions it, many beautiful words can be thought of, such as "youth", "dream", "midsummer", "classroom" ".
So, what does the name Cao Aiqing mean to He Tianran?
The girl has never thought about this problem, and she may not be able to become a manifestation of "dream" like Wen Liang, but once, she really loved the boy who was chasing his dream...
She still remembered that one winter, the boy standing in the center of the crowd asked her to help find the names on the list.
She looked up one by one from the end of the list, and it was only at the end that she saw He Tianran's name.
At that time, the pounding in her heart was beyond words.
Cao Aiqing, who was still just a friend at that time, was so excited that she grabbed He Tianran's hand and jumped for joy. She was happier than anyone else, and she understood better than anyone else that He Tianran, who went from working in a tavern to the film school, had to do this. How much effort has been put in.
She was really proud of this, because the person she liked in her heart was just like herself. They were both working hard for some distant goal in their hearts.
That winter, there was a heavy snowfall in Hong Kong City...
He Tianran said:
"Didn't you tell me the day you took me out of the gray world? You can only fulfill your dreams by staying on the other side."
Cao Aiqing sighed slightly:
"...I did think so at the beginning, but after getting along with each other for the past two years, I found that I still underestimated the influence of warmth and coolness on you... It's like the writer has no words, the painter has no brushes, and the director has no more Lens, maybe she is this kind of existence to you."
"maybe……"
He Tianran did not deny this. Looking at his past and present life, although he has infinite love for movies, whether it is for revenge or wanting to work hard, if one person is missing from it, it will always be incomplete. of.
But there was no trace of frustration on his face. He just paused for a moment, then smiled again:
"Van Gogh said, I dreamed of painting, and then I painted the dream.
Then I also want to say that this experience of mine is better than any movie. I personally participated in it and I have no stories to tell the world.
If you feel sorry for me, Ai Qing, then I want to tell you that there is always something more important than dreams in this world that leads me back here. "
"What is it?"
The motorcycle slowly climbed up and reached mid-air. Two young men and women were talking about what was more important than their dreams. The answers given by He Tianran were extremely down-to-earth.
"Responsibility and...love."
Cao Aiqing seemed to be wounded by the four words. She frowned in silence. Part of the look she looked at He Tianran was filled with hatred, but the other part she could no longer tell what it was...
The old grudge between the two people has been settled, but there is only one thing that stands between them and does not end well.
It was like a thorn, and it still hurts to this day.
"..."
The boy once abandoned the girl who loved him deeply...
This was an irreversible fact, but now the past is happening again, and the boy who has grown up finally has an answer.
But this answer, which is several years late, can it still be counted at the end of this youth?
Such a touching scene made Cao Aiqing's eyes red, but she still said stubbornly:
"I don't need you to take any responsibility, He Tianran. We are done with you a long time ago."
He Tianran, who looked directly into her eyes, slowly shook his head. He did not deny or acknowledge what the other party said, but continued:
"Not just for you, Ai Qing.
More than a year ago, Wang Ma’s heart disease sounded a wake-up call for me. We who have experienced reincarnation seem to have less respect for life, until we really witnessed the passage of life, until I heard He Panshan said When the news came out that Wang Ma was critically ill and hospitalized, I truly felt the weight of life...
I have always been a very cold person, and I have been estranged from my parents since I was a child. But at that moment, this outsider who raised me was more important than anything else...
I think I have the responsibility in this life to stop her from worrying about me. This is my responsibility.
Will she be happy if I fulfill my dream? Yes, that's for sure, but it has nothing to do with my dreams. Her happiness is just because I live a stable and smooth life, because I am happy and happy...
There are also my parents and my family. Ever since He Yuanchong’s incident was exposed by us, He Panshan seems to have aged a lot this year. Sometimes I look at him and he is obviously very tired, but he still remains calm in front of others. He looks majestic, and sometimes when I see him, I feel... inexplicably uncomfortable.
His family is unhappy, his brothers are at odds with each other, his ex-wife pokes his spine from time to time and has yet to forgive him, his current son is incompetent, his father and wife are estranged from each other, and he has to manage the operation of a huge company every day. Just pick one of these things , are enough to make an ordinary middle-aged man bend down, but he didn't...
Although I don't like his domineering way of getting along, but for this aspect alone, I admire my father very much.
He has a hobby, which is to spend a few days every month to go fishing in a boat. In the past, he would always call his friends and go to the sea to chat about home affairs or business. It was a rare leisure time for him.
However, this year, he often went to sea alone, for a day, a night or even longer. During this period, no one could contact him. Sometimes I wonder if he is also pursuing the dream of traveling around the world when he was young. Dream, sailing alone and never coming back...
Hey... My He Tianran's dream is a dream, but his He Panshan's dream is not a dream? "
He Tianran's voice was low, and he could not help but feel joy in the pain when he talked about the moving parts.
"……natural."
Cao Aiqing wanted to say something, but was interrupted by He Tianran shaking his head. He took a deep breath, squeezed out a smile, and continued:
"I once imagined that if I was born in a poor family with loving parents, I might be able to live a happy life. But if I encounter this kind of time-travel drama again, I will most likely be like Guo Huai's mother expected. , go up step by step, use the knowledge of the future to accumulate a huge wealth, and realize the leap of class. I may also have dreams, but I will never think so much about love, nor will I be entangled with you and Wenliang. Between them, who do I love more...
Because for me, the most important thing is to have enough to eat, wear good clothes, and support a family as soon as possible.
So sometimes I'm glad that I was given a good pregnancy. I had no worries about food and clothing since I was born, and I have so much time to think about some issues that older men think are very pretentious, but are very important to you and Wen Liang.
It's great. When I was with you and Wen Liang, we never had any quarrels over daily necessities or trivial matters. You are both kind and never put material pressure on boys because you are independent and excellent enough. , Love is a kind of spiritual resonance for you, it is a very pure thing, and it just so happens that I, who have not yet fallen out with my father, have enough time to appreciate, understand, and enter your hearts. Instead of being bothered by worldly trivial matters, busy with exams, busy with work, busy making money, busy supporting your family...
This may be... one of the few advantages I have as a rich second generation. If my identities were reversed with Guo Huai's, I really might not be able to do better than him.
Now He Panshan's mental state is getting worse and worse due to the tossing of Yuan Chong and I. As the eldest son in the family, I should shoulder some of the family responsibilities. I can't be in this situation, clamoring about what dreams to pursue, Those who are stubborn must always remain a teenager, right?
Ha, although the contribution that I, a stupid young man in the business world, can make is insignificant to He Panshan, but... it should still make him happy. "
After He Tianran said all this, he did not feel melancholy because he was determined to shoulder these responsibilities. He was relieved.
He really found a direction for his future life besides his dreams.
At this time, the Ferris wheel also climbed to the top. He stared into the distance. The entire western sky was burned red by the setting sun. It was the kind of red that makes people almost tremble and cry, the kind that is as reckless as a young man. Everything is burned up for a moment of dazzling red.
He Tianran was still naive, but he seemed to have learned hypocrisy; he was still unwilling, but he finally made a compromise.
When a person cannot be tempted, cannot be offended, and cannot be shaken, there is something charming about him.
Cao Aiqing looked at him infatuatedly. The gold fragments of the afterglow were scattered on the girl's cheeks, smearing one of her hairs. She had a lot of things she wanted to ask, but she didn't seem to be so anxious anymore...
After thinking about it for a moment, she simply asked:
"Will you stay here?"
"I will stay here forever and I will stay with you."
It was the first time he'd ever said it to her - ever.
"...Is it because of responsibility?"
"And love."
In the distant sky, the setting sun melts gold and dusk clouds merge together.
The sparkling tears in the girl's eyes but never falling are like a flower blooming between her pupils. It is the reflection of the golden years that wither after midsummer.
He Tianran stood up, and then knelt down on one knee under the girl's tearful eyes...
"Ai Qing... let's get married."
Let's get married.
This is what Cao Aiqing looked forward to most as a young girl.
Her name bears witness to the past and expectations of her parents. She was once so eager to receive a true love, but what she waited for was only the clean and neat reality of being divided into five pieces.
At this time, Cao Aiqing's tears couldn't stop flowing out. She kept wiping them, but she couldn't stop them no matter what. With sobs in her voice, she asked:
"You...you must...want to fulfill my long-cherished wish, so...that's why you said that, right?"
He Tianran reached out his hand and gently wiped away her tears.
The generous hand caressed the girl's soft, slightly cool cheek. The warmth brought by the other person made Cao Aiqing feel the incomparable reality. In her ears, this sentence rang firmly:
"This has nothing to do with long-cherished wishes. This is something I want to fight for from the bottom of my heart. Ai Qing, this is the only opportunity in my life to choose my family. For me, there is no compromise. Apart from you, no one else can No one else.”
In the end, it was the roses who held the bonfire and reenacted the sunset of their youthful love.
What is love?
Love is like a fleeting light. When light passes through, the world becomes colorful.
Cao Aiqing looked at the sunset outside the window, and then at the man in front of her.
He once said that when souls merge, they will see some magnificent and gorgeous scenes.
But at this moment, the sun in the sky pales in comparison to this lost but still hot and sincere love.
"Do you want to?"
"I...will."
(End of chapter)
